Chapter 1176 I don't want to die, nor do I really want to live.
Ji'an County
Because Concubine Yun said that she wanted to have lunch together, An Shi cooked the kitchen herself and made a few special side dishes. But Concubine Yun is extremely fickle and her temperament is hard to figure out. She clearly agreed to eat together, but when it was time to eat, she suddenly said that she wanted to go shopping in the street, and in the end, only An's food was left on the table. And Xiangrong two people.
An Shi said helplessly to Xiang Rong: "Let's eat! I left some for Concubine Yun. When she comes back, if she is hungry and hot, she can eat it. Although she stayed in the county, it was very difficult during this period of time." Less contact with you and me. Thinking about it, it is because of the estrangement between you and His Royal Highness. Today, it is probably a temporary repentance. This kind of situation is not once or twice. Don't take it to heart, eat more, and lose weight like this It will be ugly to go down."
"Am I... very thin?" Xiangrong asked in a whisper, patting his cheek, then shook his head with a wry smile, "Didn't it mean that girls have to be thinner to look good? If they are thinner, their waists will be more visible. The young ladies are all trying to lose weight, when the eldest sister was here, in order to make herself look slimmer, she used to not eat a bite of food for five days in a row, and only ate some fruit and drank some tea."
"But what happened later? Didn't she faint from hunger, and asked the doctor to prescribe the medicine, and after taking it for half a month, she regained her strength." When An Shi mentioned Feng Chenyu, she became angry, "Hello, don't learn from her." Huh?" But thinking about the final ending of Feng Chenyu, he also sighed and sighed, only saying that compared with the previous life in Feng Mansion, the current life seems to be the same as the past and present. If she had known that there would be such a happy scene today, maybe she would have lived more vigorously in the past. "Hurry up and eat! Don't think about what you have and what you don't have." As he spoke, he poured another spoonful of rice into Xiangrong's bowl.
Xiang Rong watched An's forcefully press the rice for her, picked up the bowl with a light sigh, took a chopstick of rice to his mouth, but couldn't swallow it no matter what. After finally eating two mouthfuls, but for some reason, a burst of sadness suddenly surged up, and the intensity of the sadness made her almost unbearable, even with all her strength, the tears still couldn't help falling down.
She put down the bowls and chopsticks, covered her face with her hands and kept crying. Anshi was frightened and asked, "What's wrong? My child, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying all of a sudden?"
Xiangrong shook her head while crying, choked up and said: "I don't know, mother, I don't know what's going on, it's just so sad, it happened suddenly, there is no reason. Mother, my heart hurts so much, why does it hurt so much ?"
How could An's know why, if she wanted to cry, she could only help her gently comfort her along her back, comforting her from time to time: "Perhaps this period of time is too depressing, Yunfei empress refuses to leave, you still have to make up for it." I went to her yard every day to say hello and plead guilty. Although she didn't say anything, but you were aggrieved in your heart, and your mother could see it. You can cry if you want to cry, but you have to think about yourself after you cry , It is impossible for a person to die alone in this lifetime, mother always wants to leave this world before you, if you never have anyone by your side, never have one or two children under your knees, how can you let mother rest assured? "
Listening to An Shi's words, Xiang Rong tried very hard to hope that the reason for her crying was as she said, but no matter how she leaned against her, something was still wrong. She was helpless, and finally shook her head, "No, mother, it's not what you said, I will cry, not because of that. Mother..." She was stunned, and suddenly asked: "If one day I die you won't cry?"
An Shi was taken aback, then nodded: "Yes, I will cry and feel distressed. Even if you are far away in the world, I will still feel distressed, because we are mother and daughter, and our hearts are connected."
"That's right!" Xiang Rong thought for a while, but wiped away his tears vigorously. Although it would still bleed out when it was dry, she no longer just covered her face and wept, but picked up the rice bowl again, stuffed two mouthfuls of rice into her mouth forcefully, and put a chopstick of meat into the bowl, and then Said to Anshi: "Then I can't die."
An was confused by what she said, and she didn't understand Xiangrong's hard work eating, so she kept staring at Xiangrong until Xiangrong filled the second bowl of rice, and finally couldn't help asking: "Why did you suddenly say What's not dead? Why do you have to eat so much rice? You always only eat a small bowl, and these days you can't even eat half a bowl of rice, what's wrong?"
"It's nothing." Xiang Rong shook his head stubbornly, "I just want to live healthy, for mother's sake." After speaking, he stuffed another big mouthful of rice into his mouth. But as he ate and ate, the tears in his eyes flowed even worse, and finally flowed into the food, swallowing it mixed with tears, faintly salty. "Mother." He said, "Although I will not die for my mother's sake, I don't really want to live. What should I do?"
What should I do? She was asking An Shi, and she was also asking herself. There is a kind of uneasiness in her heart, which comes from a person she hides deep in her heart, once out of reach, and once close at hand, only one step away from being with her forever, but in the end she chooses to retreat to the original distance. In this world, there is only that person who always touches her heart, just like An Shi said, no matter where she is in the ends of the world, she will feel it. But so what? There are thousands of rivers and mountains, and she can't walk by his side no matter what.
Xuan Tianming took Feng Yuheng and led the army back to Bincheng. Feng Yuheng suddenly realized that there seemed to be someone missing. She asked Wang Chuan: "Did you see Feng Zhaolian?"
Wang Chuan shook his head, "I didn't see it, it seems like I haven't seen King Lian since the accident this morning."
She asked others again, and the news she got was that she hadn't seen Feng Zhaolian again this morning. Feng Yuheng frowned, after several speculations turned in her heart, she finally sighed helplessly. Forget it, that person can't just come here for Xuan Tianhua, he has his attachments, he has his hatred, since Feng Zhaolian did not hesitate to stay in the palace and live in the queen's house in a way that was almost rogue. She should have understood when she was in Jingci Palace. That person followed her to the capital, after all, it was impossible that he just wanted to start a new life. He has a blood feud with Duanmu Anguo, and he must do everything possible to get Duanmu Anguo's whereabouts. Now that there is hope, how could Feng Zhaolian stay in the capital safely.
That's all, I hope he is safe! If not, then it is also fate. Who can escape the cycle of cause and effect?
The army finally arrived at Bincheng before dark the next day, Xuan Tianhua left 50,000 troops to garrison the city, when he saw that his own people had withdrawn, he hurriedly opened the city gate and looked at Xuan Tianming and Feng in puzzlement. The two of Yu Heng brought back hundreds of thousands of troops.
The army was stationed again in Bincheng, Feng Yuheng was always restless, since entering the city, he went up to the east wall, and kept looking in the direction of Jiancheng. It's a pity that after watching for half a night, she still couldn't see the person she wanted to see.
After Xuan Tianming entered the city, he deployed urgently, and the combat meeting lasted for three hours before it ended. Bai Ze told him that Feng Yuheng had been on the tower all the time, and when he passed by, he saw that girl's thin body standing at a corner of the tower, only half a step forward and she was about to fall, which really scared him into a cold sweat.
He hurried forward to drag him down, but before he could open his mouth, Feng Yuheng said: "Xuan Tianming, it's just in time for you to come, I want to talk to you about something."
"You want to go back to Jiancheng?" He knew this girl too well. If it was an enemy, this girl would never show any sympathy, and would definitely deal with it neatly with the most severe means. But if she really cares about someone, she will protect the person she cares about even if she risks her life. Even if her wings are not full, she still has to protect the person she cares about with her slender arms.
Feng Yuheng nodded, "Seventh brother hasn't withdrawn yet, I am really worried. Xuan Tianming, let me go back and have a look! I will definitely be fine, you should understand." She blinked at him, He shook his left wrist again, "Don't worry, as long as we find Brother Seven, we will return immediately, and I'm just looking for someone, and I will definitely not confront that Duanmu Anguo head-on." ☆☆.＄.
Xuan Tianming had no choice but to say, "Go! I can't stop you even if I disagree. Just be careful. Besides, you must not drink the water from Jiancheng, you know?"
"I know!" The little girl laughed happily, "Don't worry, I will go back as soon as I go, and I will be safe." While talking, she ran down the tower and shouted loudly: "Xuan Tianming, lend me your horse to ride on!" , I will hide the horse in a safe place and promise to bring it back to you." After finishing speaking, the man had already run down.
The gate of the city was opened a little, and Qian Li personally let her out, and then he saw their concubine riding a BMW and whipping away alone, so she couldn't help grinning. It's really tough! The enemy is still in the enemy's territory, and a little girl is so arrogant and single-handedly out of the hole. Her courage is really inferior to that of a man. Looking back at Xuan Tianming who had also come down from the city tower, he asked worriedly: "Is the princess all right?"
Xuan Tianming followed the gap in the city gate before it was closed to look at the back of the man who was leaving in a hurry, but did not answer Qian Li's words. This is not a question of whether there is something wrong, but knowing that it is not difficult for that girl to have space in her hands to save her life, but I still feel uneasy...
Ten miles away from the founding of the city, where the Dashun Army used to be stationed, it was already noon when Feng Yuheng arrived. Although it was freezing cold in winter, corpses were strewn all over the field, and there were still limbs and pieces of flesh that had no place to lay their feet everywhere. Even the air is cloudy.
She dismounted from the horse, and rushed into the broken corpses like crazy, staggered, and was almost knocked down several times, and once she put her hands on the ground, just pressing on a dead man's head. She also didn't care about the nausea, and searched hard in that piece of land, going in to check every tent that was too late to put away, but unfortunately, she still couldn't find Xuan Tianhua successfully in the end.
She wanted to shout, but she was afraid that there was an ambush all around, so she searched like this for nearly an hour, searched the remnants of the camp, but Xuan Tianhua was nowhere to be seen. However, a large pool of blood was found in the handsome tent...