Ever since that day, Life has not really been the same. Not like it has been any different either.
"Hey where are you looking at?" I hear a soft voice.. I look beside to notice a girl. I speak nothing, as I've barely ever spoken a single word in college. "You okay?". I look at her in her eyes. "Quite the eyes…..Aqua, blue". I responded by immediately regretting what I just said. 'Ah sh*t I didn't even know what I was saying'. I think to myself.
The girl laughed. Surprisingly, "What's so funny?" I responded. The girl said laughingly "Quite the reader aren't you?" "If I was, I wouldn't be at the bottom of the class". A strange yet enjoying feeling, it gets tiring getting bullied daily that you almost forget what it's like to have a normal conversation. "Don't you have any friends to accompany you at lunch?". "No". Now that I notice she looks prettier than the other girls in college. "Well can I be a friend?". I was surprised as I didn't expect this to go so well. I just stare at her with a blank expression. "Hello you there?....." "Oh, right" I got back without even knowing I was lost in my thoughts. "You seem so gloomy, what are you always thinking about?" She responds smiling. "I don't even know". She chuckled a bit. "Such a goof, now finish that sandwich fast, We've got Mr. Connor's class next". "You know my schedule?". "We're in the same class, you seem so lost you don't even know your own classmates!" She walks away laughing. Wow, What an experience..
As I walk down the hallway, I realize I'm quite delighted. 'Is it because of that girl?' I think to myself. 'Wait I don't even know her name yet, ugh. Well I'll ask her next time I see her'.
I enter the classroom, I do the usual. Get behind everyone in the last row near a window. And sit down, in my own world. The bell rings, 'The teacher is late today?' I think as I look out of the window. 'Last class of the day I can't wait to go back to my apartment'.. I notice a sudden drip of water in the window. Another drop. From one to two, to two to four and before I realize it's raining.
POW! A sudden slap is felt behind my head. My face gets launched into the mirror. 'Sh*t it's him again'. "You thought you could just sit down here? Get out I want this seat" I look behind to see Jolle. "Did you not hear me? Or do I have to repeat myself?" He says holding up a fist. "Hey but this-" I get a clean punch right beside my chin 'Holy f*ck that hurt'. "Hey! Leave him alone" I hear a familiar voice, Oh it's her. "Hey, leave him alone or I'll complain to the council!" 'It's the girl from lunch, she's in my class? Oh right she told me during lunch' I think to myself. :"Tsk, fine" The dude goes along . I get up. "Th-thanks, Oh right, what's your name?"
She bursts out in laughter. "You didn't know??" "Haha, seems like you didn't" "You seriously are such a goof, I'm Avana Heather. You're Aver Hollin right?" I nod. "Ah well, don't let these types of guys bully you, your college life would be miserable about this, Haven't you told your family about this?" 'I wish I could' I think. "Ah, forget it, thanks again.". She smiles. 'What a delightful smile, I wish I could see it more often,' I thought to myself.
The teacher enters the class, The whole class stops what they're doing and goes to their desks. "Oh well" She says and goes back to her bench. She sits on the first bench… I never noticed.
RRRINGGGGGG!
The bell rings. As everyone rushes out , I realize the rain has gotten stronger from the window. I quietly wait until everyone has left the classroom. I open the window, and a fresh yet heavy smell enters my nose with a loud noise. ;'The smell of the rain sure is nice' I think to myself as I keep on watching.
I get up from the bench and go to my locker. The sound of the rain is getting louder second by second. I scramble against my bag in a fit of panic. 'Sh*t, I forgot to bring my umbrella, Damn it how am I going to go back to my apartment now'
I run across the main gate in a hurry, Running down the street as I realize the rain will not stop anytime soon, but will get even heavier. 'I have to find somewhere to cover myself from the rain or else I will get a fever tomorrow.' I think. I run across the street seeing that no one is walking or even driving due to the heavy rain. 'No one is even driving? The rain must be heavy then' I think as I try to find some place to take shelter. 'If I remember correctly while going to college somewhere around here is a supermarket that has top coverage in its parking area, I could use that'.
I run around and see the supermarket in a distance. I stop to catch my breath. Pant. Pant. I check my watch. "6 pm, I gotta reach my apartment soon". I slowly start to move again as something odd catches my eye in the distance. I stop again, trying to get a closer look at what this.. Yellowish silhouette like thing was doing in the streets. Not even cars are around what is this- I get surprised as I realize its a little kid in a yellow raincoat.. slowly crossing the streets. "A kid .. where are his parents?, its not safe for someone like a kid to be roaming the streets right now". I try to ignore and keep moving to the supermarket. I suddenly hear loud sounds coming from across the streets. A loud frequent repeating sound mixed with the sound of the heavy rain.
Sirens??? Why at this moment?. I see something else in the distance. Its moving.. fast. .A speeding car? A Car chase?! The car seems to be moving fast. "Stuff like this doesn't happen so often" I keep running towards the supermarket. I suddenly realize something…I look beside in horror as I realize the speeding car is headed right in the direction the little kid in the raincoat is slowly walking… I stop and look beside just to make sure. "Oh no…" If I dont move now the kid will get hit. From the speed of the car if it hits the kid.. The kid has no chance of survival. "HEY!. HEY!" I scream towards the kid. "Sh*t the sound of the rain is too loud for the kid to even hear me". "Well the kid will hear the sirens and move out of the way of the car right?". I wait in the rain..Just waiting for the kid to stop slowly crossing the street. "What is this? The kid is not even stopping." The car is nearing the kid in a dangerous speed. If i don't do anything now.. The kid will get hit. I try to run towards the kid. I immediately stop myself. I can't make it in time.. The car will get to the kid before I do. I try to run again towards the kid. But my body isn't moving. My body is completely frozen in the heavy rain. The car reaches the kid.
BAM!
A loud thud is heard.. I shake in fear.. I take a step… The rain is getting heavier each second.. Another step.. The police cars finally catch up.. Another step.. The police cars try to stop but are unable to do so from the slippery streets due to the heavy rain. "A-another brake failure?". I say while I stop again. The memories come flooding.
BAM!
THUMP!
BOOM!
All 3 police cars crash to each other.. One of them catches fire.. I run towards the first car. The smell of the rain is getting into my head now as I've been standing in the rain for almost 15 minutes straight now. A slight headache. I run towards the first car. I get a shiver when I see blood near the wheels. "No…" Nearing the place slowly, wishing what had happened had not happen. I approach the car. A small leg can be spotted. The leg previously covered by a yellow raincoat. Now a red one. Tears start to blind me as I realize I could have prevented this from happening. I approach the body slowly. Trembling. I open the hood of the raincoat…. A little girl. "P-please.." I shake the body. No signs of movement. I put my ears on her chest. No signs of heartbeat. I look at her pale eyes… "Oh god".. "SOMEBODY PLEASE CALL AN AMBULANCE" I scream forgetting no one is near. I can feel the rain getting stronger and heavier.
BOOM!
I get flung behind by the explosion with the body in my arms.
"What the-". The car that caught fire exploded. Blood dripped in my arms. A strange yet thick scent enters my nose.
I hear more and more sirens surrounding us. I can't help but tremble as tears fall from my eyes. "I could have prevented this" "I-I' ..
I hear car doors open and close. Officers run towards me talking to a walkie-talkie. As I hold the body in my hands. My arms are fully red. I cry out more and more. Not being heard though, because of the rain.
"HEY KID YOU ALRIGHT?!" The officer asks but stays silent after seeing me hold a dead body. And my helpless face. More and more officers enter the area. Ambulances..My headache is getting stronger.. "If only I had moved then would all this not have happened".
The police questioned me for what I had witnessed. The rain is still as loud as ever outside the police station. I just stay silent, not answering. My eyes are not concentrating. As that same moment repeats in my head.
I walk outside the police station, In the heavy rain I slowly walk towards my apartment. Thankfully I knew the way since this police station was across the street from my college. If I had not known the way I knew I would not have reached my apartment, But somewhere else.
I reach my apartment and immediately reach my room. "GAAAH!" I scream in rage as all I see are tears ``IF ONLY I HAD MOVED I COULD HAVE PREVENTED THE DEATH OF A LITTLE GIRL". I scream as I scramble and throw things here and there, breaking everything in my sight.
3 HOURS LATER
I just sit in my bed. Staring at the rain through the window. I try to fall asleep. But can't. As the moment keeps on repeating in my head
I open my eyes as my body seems lighter than usual. I try to move but immediately feel something sharp in my back. I open my eyes to be greeted by an odd sight. 'Am I dreaming?' I question myself as I look at the dark green sky. I can smell something burning. I try to get up and feel something sharp lingering in my spine. I try to move once again and I get stabbed by something long, longer than my entire body on my spine. "AGHH!" I scream in pain. "Where the f*ck am I". I look at my stomach and gasp in horror as I see a long needle coming out of my stomach. "How am I not dead?'". I look at the ground and notice something oddly familiar. Sunflowers.. "Sunflowers?". But these don't seem normal. So pale, so dead. So sober that if I would touch them they would turn into mere dust and break apart. I look in the distance and find out what's causing the burning smell. A large fire around me. I stand up slowly in pain with my needles.
A sharp headache enters my mind "AGHHHH". I put my hands on my head and fall down. I scream as the headache gets bigger and sharper. The same place I was in when I had that dream. I was in the same place. This time is different. I try to get up. I run towards this fire. A big needle stabs both of my legs. Multiple different strings of spikes wrap around my arm as I keep on moving. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA". I fall down and suddenly I get pulled to the sky.
I fall down again in a different place. I fall down to a road, A strangely similar road. "IT'S THE ROAD I USE TO GO TO COLLEGE!". The place changes to a part of the road I oddly recognized. It started to rain. With no patience the rain got heavier and heavier until I recognized the pattern. The same memories flood again. A sharp headache "AGHHHH". I see something moving in the distance. Its me.. I realize what is happening. I look at the other side of the road and see the speeding car. "THE LITTLE GIRL" I ran towards the other side of the road. Wait what? "I'M NOT MOVING". I'm getting held back by the large strings of spikes that feels like getting stabbed every time I try to move. I see myself in the distance running towards the supermarket. "NOOO NOT AGAIN" "NOO" "NOOOOO" "AVER" "AVERRR:" I scream in the distance. "AVERRRR GO" the girl gets hit by the car as I see myself just standing there. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" I scream once again. I collapsed.
I wake up in another place. The place seems calm. I am tied by the same strings of spikes. The scenery is calm. I remember. The place breaks like glass. I fall down. "AAAAAAAAAAAA" I hit the floor. I again feel spikes in my arms. "Am i in hell?". I open my eyes as I'm tied by the same strings of spikes. I see someone lying on the floor of the gray grass. It's raining, calmly. The person is lying on the floor breathless. I try to get a better look at the person's face, As i'm tired of everything that has happened. I see the person's face. My mind goes in a race of memories. Another sharp headache. "AGHHHHHHHHHHH". 'Wow you're just a kid, how old are you?'. 'Damn no need to panic your safe'. ' You'll find out soon you're just a kid right now'. My mind recalls that voice.. And that face. My mind scurries through all my memories as I finally realize what I withstand upon. The same man that was from my previous dream. Is he dead?.
"Hey" I slowly say as I'm worn out from all the pain. I'm tired. "Are you alive?". His body keeps on lying there. "He's dead" I hear a voice from behind and suddenly smell a cigarette smoke.