Takashi yawned as the early morning sunlight filtered through the curtains of his bedroom. He blinked groggily at the alarm clock on his desk, which read 6:30am.
It was time to get up for morning practice. As usual, he felt tired at the ungodly hour but also a spark of excitement at the prospect of seeing his best friend Kenji. They had known each other since the first year of middle school, bonding over their shared passion for soccer and staying up late gaming. Now in their second year of high school, they remained as close as ever.
Takashi got dressed in their school soccer team jersey and jogged downstairs. His mother was already making breakfast in the kitchen.
"Good morning, Takashi," she said with a warm smile. "Excited for morning practice with Kenji-kun today?"
Takashi blushed slightly at the mention of Kenji's name. "It's just regular practice, mom. Don't be embarrassing."
"I can't help it. My son has finally found a nice girl he likes spending time with," his mother said cheerfully. If only she knew the truth, Takashi thought with a pang of guilt. That his feelings for Kenji were more than just as friends or teammates. But he could never tell his traditional parents that.
He ate his breakfast in a hurry and rushed out of the house. Kenji was waiting for him at the usual spot, leaning against the wall with his hands in the pockets of his school trousers. His tie was crooked as always and his shirt untucked, rebellious as ever. Kenji's messy blonde hair and lopsided smile made Takashi's heart skip a beat.
"Overslept again?" Kenji asked with a grin, pushing himself off the wall to fall into step beside Takashi.
Takashi shrugged, adjusting the strap of his duffel bag on his shoulder. "You know me too well."
They made their way to the school field, chatting and joking like they always did. But Takashi couldn't help sneaking glances at Kenji's handsome profile, and found his eyes lingering at the curve of Kenji's smile. He had been doing that more and more recently. It felt so natural to just reach out and grasp Kenji's hand, swinging by his side as they walked...
"Spacing out again?" Kenji snorted. "If you keep daydreaming like that during practice, coach is going to bench you for the season."
Takashi blinked, realization washing over him in a hot rush of embarrassment at being caught staring. "S-Sorry, I was just...thinking about something."
"Well save the deep thinking for class. I need my best striker in top form." Kenji shot him another infectious grin that eased Takashi's awkwardness, even as his wayward heart insisted on beating faster.
At soccer practice, they ran through the usual drills and mock matches. When it ended two hours later, Takashi's limbs felt pleasantly worked, his earlier anxieties faded. There was something about physical exertion that helped clear his mind and dull the worries that crowded his thoughts lately.
After showering and changing, they walked together to class, grabbing snacks along the way from the school canteen. It was shaping up to be another ordinary day of classes, soccer practice and gaming at Kenji's place into the late hours. An ordinary day of enjoying each other's company while ignoring the truth in his traitorous heart.
When would things change between them - for better or for worse? Takashi wondered if he even wanted things to change when he feared losing what they already had. Their comfortable friendship was a haven, a place of familiarity and warmth to return to after facing difficulties in the outside world.
But deep within, his heart stirred with the first awakening of a longing that threatened to disrupt everything. And he knew nothing would ever be quite the same again.