My eyes slowly opened watching the all-white gaze with nothing. This place is like a vacuum filled only with white, there is not even life and it seems that I am alone here.
I raised my body lying in this void. Not whether this is lying around, or not even I'm not sure. The foothold is not clearly visible here, it is completely empty.
[Finally you wake up]
A deep voice echoed in the empty room, I turned my head in all directions and got someone, no more appropriate if it is said to be a human-shaped light, he only has a white color without a face and shaped like a human he was seen sitting in front of me.
Who is he? Wait for this plot, don't tell me!
[It seems that you are confused, alright will I-]
Before the human-shaped light finished speaking, I had stretched my arms forward, refusing to know this strange fact. Because I am aware that this plot is..
"Stop! I get it."
[Huh? Are you sure?]
"Of course." I breathed in for a moment to set the tone of my speech.
"Looking at this plot, I must be dead, and you must be a god. You must want to take me to that obscure world, right? And surely you want to say something like this 'Hello young man, I am a god, now I will take you into that world. Fight the demon king and survive the world.' you must want to say that, right? Do you think I'm my a otakku to expect that plot to happen?"
The tone I used was large enough, so that the human-shaped light, no i will call it a god. The God became surprised.
[ha.. Hmm, yes you're right. But not a-]
"Huh.. Old school knows, nowadays play another world. Is it sane? What's so good about another world? At most I will fight the demon king Satan, save the world. Or like this, I will find friends to form a circle and fight the dark organization, the plot is too mainstream. Stupid ah I don't want to go to another world. I'm going to sleep here."
I've had enough of all this nonsense, after all, this kind of genre I hate so much. Reincarnation then makes up for the regrets in that world. Such a thing where exists, in the end it is a way for weak people to escape reality. Sick of it, I decided to lie down at home and use a blanket that came out of nowhere. My eyes slowly closed, no matter if there was a in front of me, I would still sleep.
[....]
[Anu]
[Don't tell me you slept for real?]
"...."
[Woii say something!]
With no intention of responding, I still pretended to sleep with my pillow and thick blanket. I didn't feel guilty at all, even in a few seconds I would fall asleep.
Go Night—
The God looked a little emotional, he raised his tone.
[Woi, you've joked enough! I'm a god, at least give me respect or-]
I threw a pillow at the bully hoping that his mouth would fall silent, but it pierced through the god's body instead, causing no injury. Damn, I'm disappointed.
"Noisy! I can't sleep, right!" I shouted so big, that my voice echoed very strongly.
The god looked even more angry, the veins in his light were clearly visible. I don't know what made him this angry, but I was no less angry with that god.
[Sleep? So you really want to sleep in front of a god, are you crazy?]
I didn't care and lay down again. Closing eyes and preparing to go back to sleep, Seeing me the God hissed irritably and threw a pillow.
Sick! I could feel something being thrown hard in my head.
[You are serious? Was given a chance to live again, but you refused before I even offered. Are you really the main character?]
I got back up from my lying down and looked somberly at the god. "You're fussy huh? Are you on your period, or something? Speaking of gods I guess will be a bit authoritative, but.. Never mind it."
[Huh, you please be serious!]
The light I call God sighed, he held his head. Maybe it was proof of his fatigue for talking to me, but I don't care, he is also guilty of making me suffer all this time.
[Don't you have any regrets, or something?]
God asked, the atmosphere this time was a little more serious, honestly joking like that was not my nature, but somehow I would be open with people I felt close to, so I would answer seriously as well.
"No, I don't regret it at all. I managed to protect the girl I loved, I have no regrets. So let my soul rest in peace in heaven."
I didn't lie at all, I managed to save Nana, and maybe the upperclassmen wouldn't bother her, because of my death they would have been arrested. This is a happy ending, there is no need for any extras in my story. But if only the second life were a reality I would want-
[That's a lie.]
This God smiled, as if aware of what was in my brain. I guessed that at least he was a God, although he was a bit stupid, but how could he possibly be fooled. But I still deny that fact.
"I have no regrets! So let me calm down in heaven, or whatever it is."
Once again God smiled, I don't know what he was thinking. That smile said that I still have regrets and failures in that world.
[Don't lie, I'm a god. I understand everything, without you saying I know what your heart is, you want to-. No, you're too embarrassed to say that yes, so I'll let it]
Stop laughing, the God looked seriously at me.
[Ayato, I could have taken you to heaven or wherever, but are you sure? Before you die, don't you want to feel the way you want? hehehe, without me saying you should understand what he means.]
I guessed that he was indeed a God, what he meant must be the desire to feel love and normal life. But he said as if he knew everything he was a God, but I was a bit upset about this. I fell silent and lowered my head as a way of holding back my anger.
[And also Ayato, there is one interesting thing. The soul of someone who has regrets will only float in heaven, meaning that even if you go to heaven now you will not have the pleasure that you humans think, you will only become an empty soul without physical, feeling and floating in heaven, it will continue to happen forever.]
[In order to avoid a soul full of regret, I created a world suitable for each individual. The reincarnation is not only you, I have done this several times. I created a world that suits them and is different. They will continue to be reincarnated and until the regret is gone then I will take the soul to heaven.]
The god continued to explain and paused to give a fact that was a bit difficult for me to accept.
[I can take you now to heaven, well. That's if you just want to keep floating and become an empty soul. So what's your decision now? After hearing the explanation at length what do you want to do?]
So like that, I do want to go to heaven as soon as possible, but if there I only have a sense of emptiness, without emotion, anger and so on then it's the same as my first life. Maybe this is a bit like my chunibyo or brain, but this offer of reincarnation seems promising.
"Huh, well, I will accept the offer. In the next world I want to feel the sincere love given by the Nana once again and I want someone to accept me. That's enough."
The gods smiled once again.
[Nana, huh? You really like that girl.]
"Yes, in my lifetime there has never been such a good thing for me, it's only natural that I like it. Not confessing my feelings and marrying her is also my regret."
The God laughed out loud, he said loudly that I and Nana are very interesting people, he also said that he hadn't laughed this way for a long time.
[Well I'll do everything you want. May you like your second life]
The god grinned, after finishing saying quickly something like a magic circle with blue under my legs. The light was getting brighter and brighter. The god once again smiled, saying that I hope I am happy there. And then my body disappeared in that vacuum.