I realized. Why did they made me go through this much horror. Wishgranting is not just granting something. They needed to want and wish something.
My dull days started feeling the best. I had a family, no pressure though. I did came out, they said, that the book and the pistol says it all. Also I really look ancient through the gestures. They knew, that I went through some hard shit.
My wife and kiddos accepted every single thing. It was absurd though looking too good, but we also went through hard times.
That is life. Not just good things, still there is the fear of lefting out or alone, but I was only lucky. Only lucky, do not think anything more.
Several decades passed, so did my wife, the cycle started again. I understand now. That is what I meant to be. Not to hold a hero sword, not to kill the baddies, but to the man who gives information from a side of the world. This is a rare thing if you think through.
That is me, the dull, but important guy, going on in life, things may happen or not, but I am doing it.
Also I am still waiting for that big first letter day.