Realizations...
Me, the writer 1 bsc, speaking 2 foreign languages. Fairly good at sports, no fix job, lazy as it can be. Ill but able still.
A rather stunning person if looking at the ratios...
My brother, a miracle, speaking 4, learning 1 language, making 2 degrees simultaniously(if it is said like that). Still a scholar, competitive swimmer.
Which would you choose?
There was no options, I was lost, became a ghost in just 1 second. My parents only spoke my name, when the hospital bills came, what happened only once. Once...
Turned out my lungs are no problem, the problems are in somewhere else, on paper I was @%£& textbook of health.
The fee of the hospital, one CT scan 150 in dollar, I had 3.
I calculated, one more week here and we sell the house. How? Why? WHY DOES LIVING COST MORE THAN I WOULD MAKE IN MY LIFE? It was absurd... I mean it can not happen, can it? Yes it could...
Next day at the visit i called the doc to speak. I want to go home. He said there are options, he got it, money.
I searched the net and found a hospital what had a too good logical explanation. Even the next day, 1 drawback, I had to be fully examined, then be at a surely not suspicious experiment for 1 month.
Called my parents, I did not even care about tone, next day I will be off, they said with the same tone, I was not even dissappointed. They got the jackpot, I go on an adventure, just do not come back, their reputation can go down from one small flaw. They said, that my brother goes to America to university next, thank you. THANK ^@:#^ YOU? That was a good bye of the world, I was no longer their family. I called the suspicious hospital, did not care, I did not realize, that after that call, for a while, I stopped being a person.
I had no girlfriend, my "perfect" family abandoned me, it was not real, like what, who, who reads it does not believes it, that %££% like that could happen.
I was smiling though. They had my brother. I wished them luck. At least I said that, the smile was in my head only and the gesture was empty.