The red veins keeps on spreading on my body, it went up to my neck in just a night. Early in the morning, before even my grandparents woke up from their sleep, I hurriedly covered the veins using make up before many people see's it, I better visit a doctor fast. 4 am, I hurriedly left the house with full jacket covering my body well. I went to the nearest and a close adult friend who is a doctor, she happily invited me to her clinic for examination even though it was 4 in the morning, she was a kind and gentle woman. When I showed her the veins, she also could not determine what it was, however, she said that it seems like, something was growing inside my body, when she did an x-ray, results shows a growing plant in my stomach and it was growing and spreading pretty fast.
She asked me to go to a professional doctor out of concern but I refused, it scared me, I didn't want to involve more people about this, so I desperately pleaded to her not to tell this to my grandparents, I don't want them to worry more and she agreed, I trusted her.
Attending school very late, as I casually walk towards my classroom, people were staring at me with anger in their eyes, not knowing the reason, I bumped into Gemma and asked her of what was going on, she then bought out her phone and showed me a video of myself kicking Theon off the bridge which was posted on a social media site with a caption saying "attempted murder". Gemma was staring at me like I really was a murderer, she was scared of me, she didn't want me to touch her.
Before I could explain everything to Gemma, I was purposely pushed by another female student, then she poured a cold red paint over my head and calling me a murderer, this time, their pranks were more harmful than before. I saw Zaire and Aubri looking at my appearance now, they ignored me and left me, of course, I don't expect for their help or pity, I hated people looking at me in a state like this, I look weak. I went straight to the bathroom to clean up myself, even there, the staring didn't stop, the girls who were just laughing changed their mood with a dissatisfied face as they saw me, they left the comfort room in a rush. I was used to it, their bullying, their pranks and spreading bad rumors about me, so I wasn't severely affected by it, I won't deny the attempted murder after all, I did plan on killing Theon myself and I don't feel any remorse with what I did.
Based on the video, only me Theon and Aubri was at the bridge at that time, before Theon approached me, Aubri was already recording us in a video. Why in the world is she doing this?. The Aubri, I know wouldn't harm me like this. I have to do something, I can't always just be kind.
I didn't attend class and was only waiting for Aubri outside the school, I covered myself with a cap, mask and sunglasses. Finally, she showed up, walking alone the road as she was busy playing with her phone, I approached her and she already expected for me to show up in front of her, she see's me as an annoyance. I directly asked her about why she was doing this.
"Don't act like your innocent, you purposely left me in that forest", she said with an annoyed voice, not wanting to see my face.
"What?, I never left you, instead, weren't you and Quin the one who left me alone in that forest", I answered back but she was being sarcastic, she kept on saying that in the middle of the night, I woke her up from her sleep saying Quin was missing, we keep on looking for her but failed, she said that I took her deep in the forest then pushed her off a cliff which left her injured. Why couldn't I remember all these things, I couldn't determine if she was actually telling the truth, I don't know what to believe, why would I do that to her?. I kept on explaining my side on Aubri but she didn't want to listen or understand. She just bumped me and was about to leave, so I held her wrist to stop her and asked one last question.
"What is your relationship with Theon?".
"Theon saved me from that place", she answered, then pulled my shirt and approached my face in anger, she was strangling me.
"I will make your life a living hell, I missed a year of college of my life, I missed my friends who are already a year ahead of me, I will take everything you dearly care for as a payment for deceiving me", she angrily warned me.
"Don't talk nonsense, I didn't do any of those sh*t that you are accusing me with", I overpowered her and grabbed her wrist and pushed her away from me, we stared at each other as if we were going to kill each other on the spot.
"If you're here then where is Quin?", I shouted as we were pushing and fighting each other at the road.
"How should I know, didn't you kill her, YOU MURDERER!!!", she shouted back, a tear came out of my face, those hurtful words, she would never say those things to me, she wasn't like this before even if she was angered by me. Aubri didn't care anymore, all she cared about was her anger and my misery, she left me in the road crying.
As I sat down the road alone and in misery, Theon appeared again but I couldn't do anything, if I moved one more step without any thoroughly thinking, my actions will always have consequences, it always backfires on me. It was cold and foggy outside, Theon lended me his jacket, putting it to my shoulders and he sat down beside me again. I laughed sarcastically, why is it that when I'm alone, he was always there, I was reminded of what he said to me days ago, to always rely on him. Was this what he wanted, to rely on him after he hurts someone, he's crazy.