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Chapter 22 - Acceptance

Master stopped the car in front of the house, I got out and he drove off. I headed up to the door and knocked, I waited until dad opened the door and saw me, and I smiled at him.

"Hey princess, what are you doing here?" Dad asked as he hugged me.

"Hey dad, just thought I'd stop by and see you, Master dropped me off, as I requested to be alone," I said.

"Why?" Dad asked as he allowed me into the house.

"I just need some time alone," I said.

"You can take your dress off if you wish," dad said as I knelt down.

"I'm good," I said.

"What's going on? And don't say nothing because I know you princess" dad said.

"It's a long story, and it's the first time I've ever wanted to disobey and run from Master," I said.

"Why?" Dad asked.

"Short version, I'm 19 weeks pregnant, and Master decided to have an abortion," I said.

"I would congratulate you but there's nothing to congratulate on," dad said.

"I knew it was a possibility that he'd have a late abortion, I just wished he'd have decided earlier before I started to feel her move because now while I know I have to I don't want to and it's killing me. I love her but there's nothing I can do to protect her, I'm a slave and what my Master wants in the end he gets. I already tried to get him to allow me to have, to give her up for adoption, but I just earned myself a punishment for directly disobeying an order. I had to try something but now he's mad at me and that hurts more than failing to protect her, I hate when he's mad or disappointed in me, it feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest and what's worse is that he knows it, and he'll use it against me. He won't forgive me right away for breaking two rules and having a big request when he was already mad at me" I said as tears fell down my face.

"I can help you if you wish," dad said.

"No, I won't go against Master, as much as it will hurt to have to give her up, he has authority over me and it's his decision, I can't fight him, I don't want to," I said. When a naked female came in, she had a collar around her neck carrying a glass, she gave the glass to dad.

"Here you are, Master," she said.

"Thank you, Greta, Greta this is my daughter, Jessica, Jessica this is my new slave Greta," dad said introducing the two of us.

"Hello Mistress," Gretta said.

"Nope not happening," I said.

"Call her Jessica, she's not free," dad said, she looked at me with pity.

"I'm sorry," Greta said.

"Why?" I asked.

"For your slavery," Greta said.

"Don't be, I love being a slave and it doesn't hurt that my Master reminds me every day where I belong" I said.

"Greta, go make Jessica a junior spice with ginseng," dad said.

"Master?" Greta asked.

"Did I stutter slave?" Dad snapped.

"No Master, I'll make it right away," Greta said before leaving the room.

"Since when did you get a slave?" I asked.

"A few months ago, she was usually out shopping when you're here," dad said.

"Would've been nice to know," I said.

"I don't have to tell you anything Jessica, I'm above you I'm your father, not the other way around," dad said.

"I'm sorry it wasn't my intention to insult you," I said, lowering my head, I hated that I was submitting to my father, but Master trained it into me to submit whenever men use a certain tone, one that basically says I'm in charge and you did bad and you better make up for it. When Greta came back with the drink, she passed it to me.

"Did you put the ginseng in it slave?" Dad asked.

"Yes Master" Greta said, I started to drink it, it tasted off, but I didn't think anything of it chalking it up to the ginseng since I've never tried it before.

"I'll be back I have to use the bathroom," I said, standing up and leaving them, I went to the bathroom when I started to feel dizzy. I grew wary and went to a spot I always hid when I was younger. When everything went black.

I woke up, still in my hiding place, "Jessica where are you?" I heard dad call out, and my blood ran cold and my instinct was telling me something was wrong. I stood up when I heard the doorbell, so I headed downstairs when dad saw me, I kept my head down. "Greta don't answer the door," dad said.

"I have to go, I'll see you later," I said, making my way to the door.

"I'm trying to help you, Jessica," dad said.

"I don't need help, and if you ever try to do anything to Master consider me dead, because I will be," I said before I opened the door.

Master saw me and saw the tears. "What happened slave?" Master asked.

"Let's just go home," I said, I just wanted to leave, Master knew something was off, and that it must be bad. He nodded and we left, we got in the car and I just broke down, Master tried to get me to tell him what was wrong but I couldn't answer him not right now.

He just held my hand and occasionally brought it to his lips, when he pulled up to the warehouse, we got out. "Tell me slave what happened," Master said, and I knew I had to tell him because it wasn't a question.

"I was telling dad about everything, and he got his slave to drug me, I think they were trying to kidnap me, to make me give birth, but I felt something was off when I went to the bathroom so I hid somewhere I knew he wouldn't look because I always hid there when I was younger, and I passed out. I woke up and then heard the bell so I came down and opened the door" I said.

"I'm sorry that happened to you, slave," Master said.

"No Master I'm sorry, it wouldn't have happened if I never requested to go alone, I just wanted to vent my frustrations to someone I thought I could trust and wouldn't punish me for it," I said.

"Don't you dare blame yourself, slave it wasn't your fault, I let you go alone, I should've been there to protect you. If you wish never to see him again it's your decision, we can relocate with the gang and the slaves, transfer the horses and he'll have no idea where we are" Master said.

"We can't Master," I said.

"Why slave?" Master asked.

"We have no idea how he found me in the first place, if we leave he'll think we are up to something and may attack, we have to look out for the gang, transfer them and the slaves somewhere else, I'll stay here, protect our place while you're all safe, he'll find me but he can't hurt you if he doesn't know where you are," I said.

"That's not happening, slave, I will not leave you," Master said.

"Then we all stay here, tell him to stay off our territory and that he's no longer welcome unless he gets an explicit invitation, and until further notice we won't see him," I said.

"Sounds good slave but he may retaliate," Master said.

"Not if he wants me to live, he knows I'll do what I can to protect the ones I care about even if it means I end up in a shootout it wouldn't be the first time, and I won't sit around as my family is killed around me," I said.

"I would expect nothing less of you," Master said. I took the dress off once again, "let's go slave" Master said heading into the punishment room after I put the dress back in its spot. I hated that I earned the punishment, and also to pay up for a visit I wish never happened. We went in "stand at the wall and do not move" Master said and I went to a wall and stood there. "You have disobeyed slave," Master said, I closed my eyes. "You have broken your rules," Master said, and I bit my lip. "But most importantly you have disappointed me, I expect better of you and you disappointed me today," Master said, and despite my eyes being closed tears fell down my face.

"May I speak Master?" I asked.

"Okay slave, make it quick," Master said.

"I'm sorry Master, I shouldn't have asked questions without permission, I'm sorry I tried to manipulate you into allowing me to have our daughter, I'm sorry that I tried to overrule your order after you said it. Please forgive me, Master, I shouldn't have done it and it hurts that I did, I hate that I did what I did and I do feel bad about it Master" I said.

"I won't slave because you truly disappointed me," Master said, when he walked away, tears fell down my face as I stood there but I did not move. I started to see black spots, but I did not move when I felt my body fall, I hit the floor and everything was black.

I woke up and I could feel bruises on my arms and ribs but I stood up and immediately got back into the position. I hated disobeying Master and the fact I passed out meant I broke position. I continued to stand there, when I heard the crack of a whip and shortly after felt the pain against my back. I screamed out at the sudden pain, not expecting it but the strikes after the first one I was able to hold the scream since I knew someone was whipping me. I was shaking when they stopped but my feet did not move from their spot. "Your forgiven slave, you may move," Master said.

"I truly am sorry Master, if I could go back in time I would never have asked questions without permission, but I had to try for her. I don't regret that. I did as much as I could but it's not my decision I have an order to follow and there's nothing I can do now" I said.

"That's right and if you ever outright disrespect an order I've given as you did yesterday I will not be happy slave, and I may even think of freeing you," Master said.

"Please Master, I'm sorry and it won't happen again just please don't set me free, I can't survive that Master don't say things like that please I beg you not to Master" I whimpered.

"If you don't disrespect an order then I won't have to slave, it's on you, not me," Master said.

"Yes, Master," I said.

"Good now I'm hungry and you can't eat anything," Master said, I nodded my head and followed after him. I accepted that in a few hours, I won't feel her movements anymore, and it saddened me. Master sat in his spot and I knelt at his feet. I didn't speak as I had nothing to say, Master and his men talked business and I zoned them out but I listened for words that I would be called upon. I could feel her move and kick around as I knelt there, and I felt the tears fall down my face. "Slave, what's wrong?" Master asked.

"I'm just being emotional Master," I said.

"What about?" Master asked.

"Just knowing that I won't feel her moving around anymore, it just made me a little emotional. I'm sorry Master" I said.

"Do you want to have her slave?" Master asked.

"No Master," I said.

"Don't lie to me slave" Master hissed making me look up at him, I noticed everyone was watching up.

"I'm not Master, I swear I'm not lying, I have never lied to you Master not once. You decided that I am to abort and I have no choice but to accept it Master, I'm a slave nothing more. I don't wish to defy you Master, I was just saying I was going to miss her movements, but I understand why you wish to abort her it's not my decision it's yours you own me, you own my body so you decide what happens and I accept it. I wish it not to change" I said, it wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth, I wanted her but I knew it wasn't my decision to make so I've accepted that I won't have her.

"But you didn't yesterday," Master said.

"And that will always be the biggest regret I have Master, I knew it was a possibility and when it was confirmed I grew sad so I acted out, I hate that I did that, it's not me Master I'm an obedient slave all the time, yesterday was a mistake, it was the first time since that first week where I disobeyed a direct order from you. I accepted it before we even left the hospital, there is no choice for me not to accept it, I don't want to fight back, or try to gain control, I am and can only ever be a slave, I don't want control, I want to be controlled, owned, dominated, and you've decided what will happen and as a slave I have to accept it, it's all I want is to accept it so I did. While I'll be sad to lose her, I will be happy because I am doing what everything in me is telling me to do, to give in completely to give up total control" I said.

"And if I decide to keep her?" Master asked.

"It's your decision, Master, I will accept it. I don't have a choice but that's how I like it, Master. I enjoy not having a choice so don't think about what I want, because what I want is to obey, I want what you want" I said, Master nodded letting go of my face, he continued eating and so did everyone else. I was confused about what was going to happen but I didn't have a choice but to accept whatever he decides. As they finished they got up and left the room, and when Master left the room I followed after him. He went to his office and I knelt in my spot. "May I ask a question, Master?" I asked, he nodded, not looking away from his computer. "May I sleep? I didn't sleep much last night. Please, may I Master? I asked.

"Sure slave, just curl up and sleep," Master said.

"Thank you, Master," I said, I curled up into a ball and closed my eyes.

"You're welcome my pretty little slave," Master said, I smiled and allowed the darkness to take me.