If I had still been alive, soon enough the non npc would have switched lunch periods. The duo that played phone games would be no more. It became just me and the npc.
For awhile not much conversation happened between us.
If I had lived longer, eventually we would have started talking more I just never knew what to say.
Though while I was alive, from time to time he would reach for my phone. And obviously people don't let other people take their phone when its unlocked, because content on it is personal.
Whenever he went for my phone, it was usually laced within my hand. For him to get it he would have to pry through my fingers. Whenever his fingers touched mine, absolutely zero platonic feelings go through my brain.
I guess I should have apologized. I never meant to catch feelings for him over the years. It just happened and I kept letting it happen.
I mean I even once tried to get a girlfriend during the summer years ago, because I forgot I was gay. I don't understand how it was even possible, and it got even worse when I found out it was my friends cousin.
If I had stayed at the school where my old friends went, none of any of this could have happened. At least I was still able to be apart of the same primary classes where we adopted that manatee.