Waking up early in the morning feels like a lot of work and it also mentally exhausts you knowing you have to get away from the comfort you needed for so long..but i have to check on jade and the baby. ..i forgot all of my exhaustion when I looked at the little rose sleeping beside me..*so cute, he looks gentle sleeping like this.*..my little rose is like the medicine i need whenever I can't control my emotions...when I feel sad I look at his face and knows i can't ruin myself when I have someone waiting for me even though the person himself doesn't show it .
In anger , or when I feel like killing every single person alive , I look at his and destiny face and i know they will feel scared of me so I calm down...when I feel happy I look at my childrens face i know this feeling is the most comfortable one...
Nobody pov
Ambrose got up gently,not to wake up Ambrose, he don't want to ruin his peaceful sleep.. entering into the mother's and the child room ,he saw they both are still sleeping, baby is still in the crib with her little hands on her chest and legs folded, she looks like a caccon ...jade is sleeping on the bed with one hand on his forehead and other on his hair that's falling on the pillow messily.. looking at his face , anyone with eyes can tell he is extremely exhausted..
Apollo sat on the chair beside the bed , looking at both , the mother and his precious gem he just gave Birth to , he was staring at the baby , but in no time he was again stuck in the past memories, he was laying on someone's lap , he looked up and saw gorgeous blue eyes..eyes that looks like beautiful peacefull blue sea ,big eyes lashes that makes shadow on his eyes..it does nothing but makes her eyes looks darker blue like a deep ocean where he can get lost with no one to found him again..her golden hair that flows when wind blows and with sun making a shadow of gold on her hair like she is a goddess that descended in mortal world ,he forgot to blink like , if he blink his eyes the person before her will disappear.
.the goddess like woman looks at him and her mouth curves into a gentle smile that gives a feeling that no matter what happens she will always be there for him , she will hold him when he's about to fall down."it's time to go back my love" she whispered, he had no time to say anything when he woke up , in jade room , he saw a frown on jade's forehead, he gently caressed his head when his eyes opened and jade smiled softly, he didn't want to make any comparision with smiles of both of them because he know both are different people, if one is his past that he can never forget then other person is his future he never wanted..he never wanted to betray his love but here he is caressing someone's else head , looking at someone else not her .
"You are here waiting for me to wake up" and Apollo like waking up from deep sleep nodded..* it was not his fault Apollo he deserves happiness* he reminded himself..jade looks happy seeing his husband beside him.. it's not like jade don't know that his husband will never be able to
love him , he can like him , and can be gentle with him but he will never be as gentle as he was or as happy as he was with his love, ..yes love, jade can call himself his wife but never can he be his lover..he only loved one person in his life and he was not that person..but jade is happy as long as Apollo is beside him, as long as Apollo is his husband and he is his wife... that's the truth and no one , not even his first wife or the person he loves can change it..
"See she is still sleeping so peacefully..but she made me so anxious when this little one didn't wanted to come out " he mumbled like he wanted to get praised and Apollo sensing his desire did just that. "You worked hard jade" said Apollo and like a child who got recognition for his achievement he smiled so sweetly, Apollo felt guilty that even after this man gave him his precious children,he still was dreaming of someone else .but he hold himself back ,hold any emotion that was crying to break out . He pet him gently and look at the daughter the man in front of him gave birth to..
"She's so small" hearing this jade giggled like a child "every child are born small husband". *Husband?* And like jade has heard his thoughts he asked "I can call you husband right" at this moment Apollo didn't know what to answer, he just don't know what was worse , the guilt he felt after he heard the man asking him this question or the scattering sound of his soul, who shouts to stop the voice who calls the word his love used to call him , used to say just to tease him , the word who would bring a rose like smile on his face. *Why can't I just forget her , you are killing me love, slowly but steadily, please come and stop this pain *, "Apollo" he hummed lightly, jade hearing the agreement was blooming like a rose not knowing his thorns are hurting the person he love.."husband" he called once again with such love that it's light hurted his beloved. *Let it be my retribution, i know for allowing him to call me this , Ambrose will feel hurt , he will feel betrayed but if this pain can be a reminder of you dancing in the flame of my memories then I'll be happy to burn in these flames with you , I'll be blessed to burn just to accompany you in dancing my love ,so let this pain remind me of my reality*
"Husband" jade called once again with gentle eyes looking at the person who is dying of pain hearing this word but he is happy enough to ignore the pain dancing in other person's eyes ... Apollo hummed once again, not trusting his voice enough to not break down in middle of the speaking...but as goddess has heard his pray ,the newly born child woke up crying as to making his presence known to the only people present in room