Cathain's Pov~
Noah's words kept repeating on my mind as a cold shilver spreads across my body.
How could her powers awaken so early this time?
I thought with an worried face before my eyes moves on her sleeping body.
Everyone in the room was astonished too, but I was fearful to be exact.
The past is changing to much.
In the first timeline, her powers unconsciously awakens at the age of 16; during the battle with Kingdom Republic.
I still remember how beautiful she looked among hundres of other girls during my coming of age ceremony.
She had taken a break from the war just to attened the banquet, but those bloody nobles ruined her mood.
Yeah, she wasn't all delicate and soft like those useless noble woman's.
She had tough muscles in that slim body of hers; her hands were not soft as they had calluses frusing the sword too much.
But she was still the most beautiful in my eyes, which I found irritating at that time.
They called her tough and manly.
Just how dare of them?!
She was still the crown princess I had known.
Whose white cheeks turns pinkies when I get close; who averts her gaze another away whenever my heated gaze falls upon her.
She is still that tiny girl, who can't even reach up till my chest.
She had just grown more beautiful, and they were just jealous.
Why didn't I understood it back than?
Maybe I did, that's why I went to look for her in the corner and as I had expected; she was hiding there.
I reached up my hands towards her and I felt like my heart has stopped It's beating when she looked into my eyes clearly for the first time.
Her jewel blue eyes sparkled brightly as her cheeks flushed pink.
She put her hands over mine as she was still surprised that I had asked her for a dance.
My first dance after coming of age, which is considered as an extremely important dance in our empire.
Her eyes were admiring me, and I liked that.
But for some reason I felt angry.
So, she finally noticed me now after I have been acting like a creep, keeping an eyes on her every movements for years?
Then a devilish idea came in my mind; how about letting her taste how it feels like to be not noticed by the person...
My mind couldn't complete the sentence as that 18 year old Cathain didn't knew when he had fallen for her.
And I regret it.
Why didn't I realized it earlier?
I had fallen for her long ago, that I can't even tell which was the exact moment.
My eyes never left her as we danced together under countless heated gaze.
I loved how she was getting shy and embarrassed; finally she was reacting because of me.
Most of the time she used to remain expressionless, like nothing affected her.
But there was an exception; Duke Alexander De Xavier Dalton, her father.
Each time I saw any major expression on her face, all of them was for that man.
She would have a genuine smile on her face whenever she would catch a glimpse of him.
It was ironic; He used to hide from his daughter, where his daughter would follow him, and then there was me who used to stalk his daughter.
She and I, could be count as the same type of person.
We both wanted to be loved by people we love.
Either it was our family or, us.
We wanted to be recognized and prove ourselves.
But why did I understood it so late?
My messed up and unorganized emotions finally made me gave up in front of the vengeful spirit of the first emperor during her coming of age ceremony.
The 22 year old me couldn't control the jealously he felt when he saw her getting approached by several young man's.
They didn't interact much except a short greeting but the sight of her smiling so politely with them made me jealous.
And that Cedrick Raven was even standing by her side as the duke told him to watch over her.
That blonde dog didn't even had much magical powers!
Couldn't he just tell me, her fiancee to look after her?
I knew that the duke never liked me as his daughter's partner and I was in blame for that.
And by the time the 22 year old me finally realized that he had given up to the darkness, he started to struggle.
This darkness which was hunting me for years, trying to possess me almost succeeded that day.
As I couldn't let the people see me struggling like that, I rushed to the balcony to shut myself away from the world.
But I shouldn't have gone there.
~Your Majesty?~
She called for me with an surprised voice and my red gaze darkened dangerously.
The headache I was struggling with seemed to finally found it's medicine.
Which was her holy powers.
I was unaware of this fact, but her holy powers was the reason for my filthy desires for her body.
I want her- that was the only thing repeating on my mind as I launched upon her; pulling her into a hungry kiss.
And as my mind had expected, the headache I was feeling was gone as I embraced her.
It was feeling like I was in a deserted area and looking for water to quench my thirst.
And by the time when I returned to my senses, it was already morning and she was under the same blanket as me.
Her silver hair shattered on the bed as her head was placed over my upper arm.
Her eyelashes was wet and my mind froze with horror when I saw my marks on her body.
What have I done?!
The 22 year old me was extremely horrified with the thought that he might have force himself upon her.
She was only 18 and we wasn't even married!!
How could he do this to her?!
From her neck to her feet, it was full of his marks and showed what a beast he had been to her that night.
Her screams, her pleas and beggings to stop started to flow in his mind; and the more he recalled, the more horrified he became.
His body was full of her nail scratch and bite marks to endure the pain he had bought upon her.
He was supposed to stay sane by embracing her, but he ended up behaving like a beast with her.
He was ashamed on his behavior, he knew how precious a girl's first time is; but he just took it from her like this.
Under the influence of craziness.
Unable to process his thoughts anymore, the 22 year old me just left from the room; leaving her all alone as I couldn't face her right at that moment.
But I shouldn't have left; I should have stayed and explained.
Because that was all she wanted from me always.
An explanation, which I never gave her...