At the age of 42, I am... With a serious illness and on the verge of death without a job, I have decent job experience but still no money. Even if I get sick, no one cares. I am happy what I need are dreams, and also the family is given a choice. I love it so much. "lov... me?"

Lying down with an oxygen tank and moving like a person who fought in a war for life, never gave up, and still is waiting not for his death but for his family,

"They will come..."

He is not lying in the bedroom; the bed is in the living room and next to the door so that if his family comes, he can talk to them as they come into the door. He has a very successful career at the same time, not because he is not considered to be part of the family.

As they say, "As you grow older, family is everything."

Because the more you age, the closer you are to death, no one will stay with you. It was such a scary thing to be swallowed by the night forever.

"I wish I hadn't forced it; I wish I hadn't said it; I wish..."

Those who would have regretted it because of the short-term material needed would have exchanged everything for the devil's bargain.

"But why, on time and in need, make me useless?"

I almost wanted to ask God about the mistakes he made when he was still strong.

"Did I do something wrong? What was my fault?"

I'm thinking words, and I can't say them, but... just in the last prayer and the first.

"Lord, I always pray to you, and this was special because this is my last prayer to you. But you know that I have lived a true and good life, but if you forgive me, Lord, the test you are making me do, I will not pass it; I can't do it anymore; my body is just bones; I'm in debt; my family has left me; my days are numbered; I have many things I haven't done; I still want to do a lot; Jolina, Minerva, guide them; I hope they meet a good man; if not, they imitated their mother and made a mistake for me."

When I was getting weak, I fell asleep in no time; even when I just woke up, I fell asleep...

"Praise you, Lord, in the name of..."

creeeeeek*

The poor old man opened his eyes with happiness at the sound of the door. It's been two years since I last saw them on a visit.

A young man dressed in black and in an American style, wearing a mask and holding a cane in his right hand and a suitcase in his left hand, also wearing a tophat covering his eyes,

'They say people who have passed away—parents, family members, lost souls, angels, and animals—will be human guiding instruments when a person dies, who is also better known as a fetcher.'

the myth of the small country called the Philippines, where I was really from.

"F-fetch...er" in a low voice

I can't go back now.

'When I'm happy, I see a big smile like a cloudy mouth'

"Now, are you going to pick me up?" asked the sad old man, a smile visible under the hat that seemed to have won a huge prize.

"No, but it seems like that," he replied, as if he wanted to make the old man guess what he went to.

The old man couldn't answer and just smiled.

'Why, my families, I want to talk to them even for the last moment'

"HAHahahahHAH, okay. Because you want me to answer you, and because I got you, I'll give you a little gift." The young man raised his hand, and a ball formed in the air.

television andThe ball was white like a diamond anthatacreatedaan image,t create immovedthen they move like a television a fortune-teller.

restaurant, many people, and expensive dishes of food, and I see you. The color of plates, spoons, forks, and so on is very different from ordinary things because it is gold.

Two beautiful young women—I know them! Two sisters expression is grim, and a man hugging a woman in front of my sisters, who? what! is... My mother has a man; on the other hand, there are four people at the table, and I can see... also not heard; sadly, they are talking about an old man, but it can be seen on his face that he has been abandoned by the world.

my sisters and my mother? why? They are at the bar!

why? Are you consuming that money? That's for my sister's college!

"Hahaha, you can take care of him."

"No, you can take care of it."

My mother said that as the man in the suit heard it first, he was laughing so hard due to the situation.

"I forgot to say! This is life! Hahaha. You have been denied!" the fetcher said happily.

But even though he looks old, he is not really old; he is 42. He is in the middle of the golden age of a person, but because of his illness, he looks 70 years old.

'Now that I'm suffering in my life, no one even supports me.

He was no longer able to cry for what he saw because he was almost crying for hours every day.

"Okay, alright! It's alright!"

The ball disappeared when the young man closed his hand, and he didn't care anymore; otherwise, he wanted his work to be over.

The only thing an old person does is cry.

"wahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die, i want to die."

He pulled his oxygen hose into his nose, where he breathed, but the fetcher was happily watching him.

"Alright, alright, I'll give you a choice."

The suitcase was thrown and opened, and suddenly the cards flashed. Variously painted paper cards, ten cards appear in the air and have different images.

starting from the left end to the right end.

First: sword

second: crown

third: shield

four: carriage

five: books

six: fire

seven: cross

eight: glasses

nine: closed fist

ten: full and the closest card in sight.

I didn't even think twice, but I pointed at the closest card to him, and suddenly I fell asleep.

My mother was a victim of rape when I was born. I want a mother's love, but I know she can't.

That's why I have to work so hard! effort! effort! will never betray you! but sometimes it was too late to bloom!

"Ohhhhh, thank you for your patronage! That's the place you'll live again."

what? What did the fetcher say?

I couldn't see anything; it was so dark, it didn't finish, and I fell asleep, and in my dream, it was as if I suddenly entered a dark room and... I couldn't move... but it was very comfortable; I didn't feel hungry. Maybe a week? Four months...

I feel like I've been here for six months, but sometimes I experience the shaking, and I'm scared sometimes because there's an earthquake. I'm scared because maybe this is the name said in the Bible—is that Armageddon? All people are in heaven and hell... right? but I still think about my memories of my previous life.

'But I feel... The earthquake is getting stronger... Wait, the light—is it heaven? '

But if that was an earthquake, then I'm already dead.

I can't open my eyes too much, and I can't move properly either; it's like I'm being lifted up; this is what it feels like in heaven... Thank you, Lord...'

'I believe there is a god; even now, I wonder if it's not true because the fetcher is true... I've experienced it'

'And I'm ready to open my eyes. And 1,2,3... light after light... light? '

Is there a light? So, this means this is heaven! Heaven!

I can see! I can see! Slowly but....

'My eye is in pain; I see black and white'

Wait, who is this old woman?

What happened to me? She picked me up without a problem. Wait... wai-...

I don't remember that my body was so thin, but I lost weight—wait, but not to this level! to the point where others could lift me with one hand, am I too light? w-what! It turns out that his hand is as big as my head. and his finger is as big as my whole arm.

'What, my hand!!!!!! is like the size of this old woman's nail.

Why are my hands so small?

Wait—what are you doing raising your hand? Don't! Don't!

pak*pak*

'I can't wrap my head around it; I'm sorry... But I'll remember your face if I see you next time, and I'll charge you with physical assault...'

Wow, I can feel you are changing my position. Why are you giving me to her?

Wait... there's more! Who is this girl? She is so beautiful!

Are you lifting your hand? Wait, I know that gesture... I can feel deja vu!

pak*pak*

'Who doesn't want to be beaten by a beautiful girl?

Ahhh...ahh... It's not bad; just go ahead...'

pak*pak*

'ahhhh... I love it! ... ahh... more... more... ahhh! '

Wait... It seems to hurt more. I feel like it was an overkill slap! ... wait... If you hit me like that... I'll break a bone in my ass... It hurts, but it's good!

then this beautiful girl stops! why? this oldwoman?

Wait, don't do that! dont! 

Don't take me back to the old man... He said yes. Why is this? Why did you pick me up and put me down? Put me down...

I don't want a shaggy old woman to hold me!

"Wahhhh! Wahhhh! Wahhhh!"

because this is how I always feel sorry for myself; to be violated by an old woman is a very bad thing for me! Put me on a woman! On its chest, wait, little hand, didn't I reincarnate? That man is a fetcher, right? He reincarnated me! Is he a god?

"Wahh, ugahhhh, wahhh!"

I can only see anything in black and white.

That means reincarnation is true! If this life is my reincarnation, is she my mother?

She's not beautiful, but she's not ugly either; she's just right but not bad. Gentle bosses, kind eyes—does she seem afraid of me? I feel like he's going to dump me.

My mother's past life was just hurting me physically, not mentally. I remember when she threw a bottle at me; they were the same as my father. So sometimes I didn't go home and just slept on the street... She even yelled that when she was a child, I was a rapist.

"I could not look at her face; it was so fierce!"

So I focused on her. I gave her what she needed—money, food, and things she wanted. Just think of me as your son for once, even with just a hug. Acknowledge me as your son'].

I would die without my parents visiting me, but they visit me for money.

Is my sister okay? I think yes! [She favors those two more than me.]

'I've been told that man said I would reincarnate! '

I'm afraid it might happen again. I hope in the future I'll be rich even if you don't love me, "mother," anymore. You can still visit me, even just still for the money.

"Wahhh, wahhh! Waaahhhh!"

I look at her, and she hugs me.

I can't control my crying.

"wahhh, wahhh!"

And she hugged me tighter, but very comfortably, making me sleepy.

'Maybe God is really giving me a chance... That old, sad life is over; I will cherish this life and create a new, happiest version now!'