I hide this feeling only because I know you don't feel the same and I can't let you go.
-Alexus Brinkley
Jay's point of View
"Dude you gotta ace your game." Fahd chastened catching the ball in mid air.I groaned in dissatisfaction as he gave the ball a light bounce and sent it flying through the air.It went smoothly through the hoop and he threw it back at me forcefully.
"Damn that was good. "I thought looking up at him wearily. I could make better shots but my mind wasn't in practice today.
"If don't want to be benched in the next game you need to ace your game . Right now it sucks."
I looked up at him and smiled as the ball went smoothly through the hoop after hitting the target.
"That was nice ." I said throwing him his towel.Mine dangled over my neck.
I picked up my phone from the bench and swiped it open.
Messages came flooding in.
I replied Mum's message to be on time for dinner and answered the rest in order of priorities.
I didn't fail to notice how my home screen was flooded with messages from Jessica asking me how practice had been.
I had no option than to reply.
I picked up my duffel bag ,phone in hand as Fahd zipped his up and we progressed towards the car park.
"You looked tensed,you cool?" Fahd asked dumping his stuff in the backseat.
"Ugh! Camilla is driving me crazy,you know, with her whole outburst last week " I replied finally relieved it had been lifted of my chest.
"Well then come clean to her.Tell her you just kissed her because you wanted that effing assignment over with."Fahd suggested climbing into the passengers seat.
I bit my lip in frustration as my hands tightened on the steering wheel.
"It's not only that is it?" He pried.
"I want to break up with Jessica." I said quietly.
"You guys fighting?"
"No.I just don't feel anything when we touch."
"Well then what's holding you back?"
"I don't know but perhaps her clingy attitude."I sighed.
" That's messed up."He said as I pulled over at his place.
"See you later bro." He called out slamming my car door shut.
"Sure." I said driving off my mind preoccupied with my own thoughts.
"Jaaake!"Mike screamed throwing himself in my arms as soon as I opened the front door.
He smiled happily as I ruffled his hair.
" Can we watch a re run of Teen Titans Go?" Mike asked as I progressed upstairs.
"You go on and have a nice time,I'm really tired Pet." I explained.
"Um hm."He nodded uncertainly when he realised that I was at the top of the stairs already.My mind wasn't really in anything else.I felt really tensed and just wanted to lay down and relax.
School wasn't any better the next day.My thoughts were a mumble, nonetheless I sat at my usual table with my teammates listening to them drone on about parties and engage in the like buffoonery eyeing anything in a skirt which passed by.
" Dude,you should have seen the way Audrey swayed her hips to the sound.Soo sexy."Troy whistled recounting some party his brother hosted last night.
"That girls unstoppable when drunk.She's kissed me one time." another droned.
I wasn't really listening to their conversation since I wasn't interested in senior girls.
My eyes remained glued to the entrance of the cafeteria waiting for someone to make an appearance.
The cute girl finally walked in laughing with her friends.She didn't look disturbed at all considering the fact that I spent most of my nights thinking about her.She wasn't even bothered about the rumors flying around that she had a fling with one of the most hottest boys in the school and that doomed misery considerably since I had a girlfriend .
Other girls would never have tried resisting my touch or ignoring me but she seemed to do that with unmeasurable ease.
I looked at her my eyes not once leaving her radiant face.
I felt someone tug at my sleeve but I was suddenly pissed to the brim that I didn't bother to see the perpetrator.
My eyes remained fixed on Chad as he said something to the group of girls making Camilla, especially giggle at his ways. I stared on wishing that my gaze could actually burn holes at the back of his neck.
He suddenly had the bright idea to bring his lips unusually close to her ear and whisper something to her making her flash him a nice smile.
Dang! Was it necessary for her to give him such a priceless smile?
"Catch ya later." Fahd announced picking up his lunch tray and walking towards his girlfriend's table.As if by cue,I got and followed behind him.
"Sup Ladies." He announced taking a seat by Harriet.
"Hey," She smiled placing a kiss on his cheek earning him a cheeky grin.Her two friends exchanged winks.
I sat directly opposite Camilla and she looked up at me in the act.My gaze bore into hers as she shifted it quickly to Rachel who and Chad who were laughing about something.
I looked blanky at Chad as he engaged Camilla and Rachel in conversation.
It was obvious, Chad stood a better chance of going out with her.
"Hey," Chad called as I trudged on,hands in my pocket to my
next class.
"Hey." I responded stopping to acknowledge him fully.
"Sorry for being an ass last week ."
"Yeah, no sweat,I got you."I responded with a smile.
" Sure?"
"Sure."I clarified with a nod.
I didn't hate Chad,I only hated him when I saw him with Camilla and that was often.
I don't know but it just sort of always pissed me off to have him all over her.
"What was all that hell about?" Fahd asked after catching up with me in class.He came in a few minutes after me because he insisted on walking Harriet to her next class.
"What's what all about ?" I repeated peeling the last layer of wrap off the mentos in my hands.
"You and Camilla."
"Mm!"
"Yeah,you and Camilla."He clarified making me nearly bite my tongue.
" What's up with me and her?"I asked trying to sound neutral.
"You looked pissed when Chad was with them."
"I like her." I announced simply.
"I know that."
"Wait,what!" I exclaimed looking up at him in surprise.
"I just wanted you to admit it." He added airily .
"Is it that obvious?" I asked in a worried tone.
"To me, it's a huge yes since I'm your closest friend and know you fairly well."
"C'mon, you think I don't know why you always follow me when I'm going to Buttercup's table?"He added.
"Oh,"
"I notice you moods Dude." He added.
I sighed in relief as a smile escaped my lips.It felt good on having let that out .At least I wasn't feeling suffocated any more.
I felt at ease as I lay on my bed
glancing through a Wuthering Heights paperback .My phone chimed with a message making me look up from my book.
I skimmed through the notification and flipped it over.It rang the next time,violently.
I ignored it after putting my phone on do not disturb.
After jotting down some notes and mapping the page I had left my last review,I finally picked up my phone which was flooded with texts and calls from Jessica.
I knew I was supposed to be on a date with her but apparently I found out that reading a classic was way better than that.
I did feel guilty for not replying to her texts but I didn't want to lead her on.
It was one of my many hints of telling her that I wanted the relationship to end ,maybe she'd figure that out and break up with me instead.Probably ,she wouldn't feel too heartbroken that way.
Urgh! Why was that girl shitty at getting hints?
I had no idea why I was her boyfriend in the first place but the only thing I remembered was seeing Camilla flirting with Chad and the next instant saying yes to her proposal on the spur of the moment.
I let it slide thinking that maybe
I'd grow to like her and try forgetting Camilla since she was on my mind 24\7.I instead found myself falling deeper for Camilla and me kissing her on that stage actually sparked things up.I couldn't help but crave more for her kisses which made everything undeniable,I liked Camilla Annabelle Parker but did she give an effing care?
"Girls are fucking difficult to figure out." I thought to myself clearing Jessica's messages from my home screen.
I sighed at my failed attempts in giving Camilla hints that I was attracted to her but probably she didn't notice.Or maybe she did, but ignored them because she didn't like me back.
Was I that bad at giving hints?
The next time I had to worry about girl issues was during Basketball practice.
"Uh Oh," Fahd deadpanned noticing Jessica's silhouette marching into the gym,her friend Anna or something similar following suit.
Fahd gently started progressing away from me as her figure approached .
I looked at her,a sense of uneasiness overpowering me.
She finally stood in front of me crossly studying my undeniably handsome features.
Her gaze softened as she got lost in my face.Typical,all girls couldn't be angry with be for long.I was too charming to resist.
Well except for Camilla,she could keep that up for days.
"Are you okay?" She asked snapping me out of my thoughts as her hands grabbed my face to look at it closely. I winced at her touch and gently pulled my face out.
"No,I'm just tired...."
"Of you and your constant whining" I added under my breath.
"Aww,my baby's got bags under his eyes." She coed.
I looked blankly away wondering how Camilla's touch would have felt instead of Jessica's cold touch.
"You look sleep deprived. " she stated .
"Um?"I asked not actually sure if I had heard her right.
" I'm mad at you."She huffed going back to angry mode.
I looked at her expressionless .
"Why didn't you come yesterday?"
"I waited for hours. "She complained.
"Fahd held me up after practice.He really over worked me." I lied.
Fahd who had been observing the scene from a safe distance muttered a "What the fuck!" before giving me a glare.
Jessica turned her steely gaze at him folding her arms across her chest waiting for an explanation.
"I am sorry Jessica,You know he was lagging behind during the previous game and I just had no option than to whip him back into shape."
Phew
"But...."
Wait, why was Fahd mentioning a fucking but.
"He's so sorry that he organised a make up dinner at MacDonald's, tonight ,eight sharp,he won't be late." Fahd ended with a nice smile.
Curse that boy and his mischief.
"I can't help but spill." He mouthed innocently.
My eyes widened in surprise after his confession as I glared at him in despair.
"Aww" He friend coed as she wrapped her arms around my neck and placed a wet kiss on my lips.
"Let's finish of later." She whispered into my ear trotting off,her minion following closely behind.
I resisted the urge to wipe my lips.
"Dude you know I want out!"I complained turning to Fahd.
" That's for dragging me into your little game of lies. " He retorted obviously proud of him self.
"Ugh"I groaned giving him my middle finger.
Author's Note
Yip yip yip ,I am getting myself a bottle of coke right after this.
I am so proud of myself for finishing this unplanned chapter_It was brutal.Writing it actually gave my head cramps.
But I had to release this chapter because of the undying hate on Jake, my PM's can confirm.
Yes,it's a claim that he lacks no emotional intelligence but
Like I mean I actually see no problem with his attitude.It's okay in my eyes.
Like I said , writing his point of view was hectic since it was obviously unplanned and I suck at boy slang.Hope you will all put in some little effort to and voice out your opinions on this.I hope it wasn't too shitty and I would appreciate some feedback.
I tried all this for you since you ace and make me
smile through some of the healthy comments I read so why not I do same?
Get me 1k and I promise you'll be getting more hookups drama and jealousies. Oh, and I almost forgot,lots and lots of kissing,stay tuned.
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