I stared up at him , my mouth open to voice out my response
But what could I say?
He opened his mouth to say something when the operating room door open and the doctor approached us with a tired but satisfied look
" How's he doing? James asked
"The bullet missed his heart by a few inches, he'll live"
At the doctor's words I let out a breath I don't know I was holding .
" When is he going to be awake ?" James asked again, I watch the tension slowly drain away from his features .
" I can't say for certain, your father called me up, his flight just landed, I think he'll be here anytime soon"
I had wondered how he manage to get Mark treated in the hospital without getting a police report, there had been no statement or whatsoever.
When he'd lifted Mark to the ambulance , he'd order the rest of the people I assume their men to clean up the warehouse and leave a trace of nothing behind.
It's turns out that they owned the hospital and the doctor's after all .
These were dangerous people, they were ruthless, they spoke about ending life as if discussing their next course of meal....now an opportunity has presented itself, I can finally escape this darkness, I shouldn't be debating about it.
I should be making a quick decision
The doctor left and he turned back towards me.
"I'll leave"
Mark obsession was too dark and dangerous , it wouldn't end until we were both scaled with flames
He want me...but that won't erase everything he's done to me for years , I know too deep down that I'll never be normal again.
He made sure of it, am far too gone for that.
Too currupted
I swallowed hard, meeting his stare
" But you have to keep your words that he never finds me...if he does..."
" He won't," he said with finality
I nodded slowly as an empty feeling wash over me, I felt as if something was draining out of me, my throat was clogged up, the corner of my eyes stung, I willed myself to blink them back .
" I want to see him... For the last time " I whispered.
I don't know what it was but something in me couldn't bear to leave without seeing him again , I guess I'm just too messed up.
He replied with a curt nod a d cast a glance at his wristwatch
"You have just until five minutes before our dad arrives"
I don't know why his words surprised me, he son was lying unconscious after been shot of course he had to come .
" You are the enemy's daughter who put his son in such a critical condition, trust me he won't be so please go o see you"
Five minutes would be more than enough....
To set everything to an end.
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He looked deathly pale from where I stopd
Mark Andrew
He always was so strong...so scary and intimidating...he had always made me look so tiny like he could crush me without so much as lift a finger , it felt strange seeing him lying there so still and pale.
His eyes were closed, I guess the sedative were still effective .
The doctor had said that he was out of danger but would take sometime before he would regain consciousness .
"I'm leaving Mark" I whispered
"You shouldn't have saved me ...but you did, now I'm going to go far away and you won't be able to stop me... I'll free us both"
I could have sworn I saw him make the slightest gesture but when I started again... nothing .
I inhaled deeply and exhaled aloud before I continued .
" I'm not an ungrateful person, everything you own me this past years are all over...we don't own each other anything, I won't be here when you wake up"
" You were right, this is all I've always wanted b... but..but right n..now" I choked on the words
I'm not sure what I want anymore...
" I really hope you make it" I averted instead
I wipe my face with the back of my hand and began to make my way to the door
" Don't g...go"
I froze midway in my step , all the hairs on my body stood at it ends
" Look at m..me" even though his voice was ragged, my body still obey his strained order , I turned around slowly to face him.
His green eyes were glaze and glassy, probably from all the sedative , his breath came out in harsh pants as he struggles to get into a sitting position
" What are you doing" I choked out , he no longer seems weak to me
He ripped the middle from his arm and staggered his way towards me .
His wound reopen, blood was currently oozing out through his shirt but he didn't appear to mind it nor the pain .
" What are you doing?" I yelled out in horror this time , he was bleeding profusely now.
" To hell with y...your forgiveness! I d... don't need it" his voice was rough with raw emotion
" I'm sorry Mark " my voice came out as a strangled whispered
Why I was apologizing, I don't know perhaps it was because of the look of helplessness in his glaze expression or perhaps the raw plead I heard in his voice .
"Stay p.. please " even as I shook my head a strained tears roll down from one of his eyes .
He was begging me not to leave.
" I'll find you" he managed out in harsh pants before collapsing unconscious to the hospital floor.
I screamed calling for the doctor's and nurses
*
The doctor's came , they ushered me out of the room as they sedated him...
I gave James one last look
Then I left, I ran as fast as I could into the cold raining night .
I was free...
Everything was finally over , I should be happy but I just couldn't stop crying, a heavy pit of sadness eat at my stomach .
Choked bitter laughter escaped my mouth, I was completely drenched to my skin but I don't care.
People star at me weirdly but they don't understand .
How conflicted and torn I am.
I had no one...
I don't belong anyway, where could I go?
I felt like I just lost myself...my only support...he has always been my enemy and I've hated him for so long , then why do I feel like my heart is been carved out straight out of my chest
He took away my childhood....
Took away my adolescence...
Tormented my life for ten years...
I hate him....I should hate him but I don't anymore
Maybe somehow the big bad wolf had stolen the hearts of the little bunny .
But I know he won't spear me , if I'm caught , he would consume the little pieces of me that remain until they was nothing left.
" I will find you"
His dark promise rang into my head as I disappeared into the night.