October XX, 20XX
SUBJECT: Why is that?
Infinity Janine Ramos
Mahal,
I won an award. I don't know whether to be happy or annoyed. Because I was awarded the tragic writer award. Pipay and Robin made me stand up because they said that no one could win that category but me. They even say they will fly into a range if I don't win.
Actually, it's difficult to live without you. But every day, somehow, it gets easier because I have friends like them. Even though they don't know the full details of what happened to us, I know that they will not abandon me and leave me.
Tatay June is like a father to me, actually to all of us. It's sad because he's about to retire, but I know he won't leave us soon. And the next person who will be our editor-in-chief seems good and nice also.
I cried while giving my acceptance speech. It's crazy! I feel like I'm in FAMAS and my story won as best script. I honestly don't even know why I cried. But while I was talking, I remembered you. I thought, if you were there when I received my award, you must be very proud of me.
You are the first person who didn't belittle my ability, my desire, and my little dream. You have been my light, my guide in life. So maybe you know why I'm like this. Since you left, I've been groping in the dark. I didn't know which direction I should walk. You are gone, you are not beside me, my light is gone. So even if I try to stand up and walk on any path, I stumble. It hurts so badly, and now I'm all bruised and scarred.
I hope we can turn back time, right? I wish. If only it's possible.
After the awards program, there was a party. There is a bit of dancing and fun.
Did you know, out of all the songs that can be played in that program, our theme song was played? I think fate has a plan once again and they are trying to play with me again.
I don't know why, out of eight billion people in the world, I am fate's favorite plaything. Can they choose someone else this time? The one who can also play and crack a joke with them? Because I am already exhausted by their silly and painful game. I don't have anyone to hold onto. I also don't know where to hide from their silly games.
I miss you.
I miss you so much.
I love you and still miss you.
- Infinity