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Chapter 4 - Worthy of his love and affection

MARIA

I am joking here I don't mean I wanna go out to the streets at this time of night he is the last hope and he is taking too long to react and act according to how he should react is open the bathroom door very fast and say "No baby I didn't mean that way you misunderstood me"but no he is still talking his shower like he never heard anything coming out of my mouth.

I decide to come clean "Babe am joking i will just Head to the guest room I will sleep there and Babe have a goodnight "after a long pause "I love you ".

Getting up from the bed intending to leave the bathroom door open with Pablo coming out with his still wet body he doesn't come to the direction of bed but walk directly to his amazing walking in closet After some short time he comes out fully clothed in his navy blue pajamas I just stare no talking and he is starring at me too slowly without breaking eye contact he comes directly to me pulling me another passionate kiss and here I am kissing him back like he controls me am supposed to be mad am I not?.

We stare at each after we break the kiss and Pablo talks that moment "Babe am sorry I acted that way I was almost losing control, argh kissing here in my bed make my body want you badly and I know I have to wait that why I left I didn't want to break my promise to you love" patting my cheeks he continued laughing "Babe you are so bad at joking I advise you to try harder that was not funny at all" I joined him laughing too continuing he said "I love you never forget that right Babe, about waiting for marriage let get married soon I wanna mark and make you mine forever"saying that he kissed my forehead and pulled me for a hug . Thanks for this hug he won't notice my blushing face at all.

pulling me up Pablo took my hand and dragged me to the guest room saying in a low voice more like a whisper " if I sleep near you I will break the promise and you beautiful body " ''mmmm? I didn't hear you enough"he shrugged saying "go to sleep Babe tomorrow will be a long day and you are tired already" he pecked my lips and left closing the door after him.

I replied "goodnight love you Babe".

He leaves shutting the door after him living me alone In super big room I don't why people chose this massive houses with big room living alone,according to me this kind of house should be lived by a huge big family something like six kids, three dogs and the parents.

My Dream family? I assure it's gonna be big I want a family of eight me and my husband and our six kids three girls two boys an d include a dog also not a dog, Dogs three dogs same breed all of them German shepherd hmm perhaps a Huskies dog I will see that in the future but one thing am sure of I will be there.

Me in this room make me think of a lot of things one is my family I mean my real or biological parents do they know I still exist maybe have siblings out the ot maybe I look alike with my mother or my dad or maybe they are dead God forbid.That part of me thinking my parents are dead I push it away from my thoughts I believe my parents are alive and one one time we will reunite together and become a happy family.

Thinking of having a family it will really be nice if I have a family with Pablo I see and feel how he really loves me and love him too more .Pablo will be the best husband and great dad too , sometime I am so insecure about him how he will leave me after he gets what he wants my body that why I insist on sex after marriage,I wanna trap him to be with me forever.pablo seems to a big shark I mean he rich this house and those cars that's what makes me scared I mean am poor , number one on unemployment list, unknown identity, hahaha Maria Smith really? really that name does not even belong to me I don't know who my name belonged all I know she was anun and nothing else,This guy can get any girl he wants by just a snap of afinger yet he chose Maria unknown creature it's sounds funny and fishy .

The question is am I worthy of his love?

All this thinking will give me a free ticket to a mental hospital or not that even better make me insane like they call in the orphanage.

My eyes weighing I drip off to slumber land where this beautiful man of mine is waiting for me the church alter smiling was for us to be wadded but the wedding gown am wearing is so heavy making hard for me to walk down the aisle all of a sudden Pablo is vanishing making me screem his name Pablo!!!....….

I wake up immediately finding myself in this strange room heaving a breath of relief and a loud sigh I identify it's Pablo's house guest room.

That was a really bad dream or a nightmare I just assumed and went back to sleep.