Nigel:
Past ...
I was madly in love with her the moment I set my eyes on her .
I was certain i still loved and needed her even when she had tears fully told me how much Lucas
had screwed her and how many rounds they went that night
I can't believe I wasn't a bit worried about it ,I was willing to take all of those just to have her ..
Lucas was known to be a jerk that he truly is...
He doesn't give a fu-cking damn about women...
he sleeps with whomever and does whatever he wants ...
Tentatively I got mad most times ladies he slept with came to him and when he doesn't seems to
remember whom is whom ....
How do I get to explain that to her ...
How do i get to explain to Celine that I tried bringing up the topic on the girl he slept with two days
back ,
And there we almost got into a fight with his reply ...
"I can't remember her skin color man ,, is she white or black "
Just there I knew all possible hope for Celine with him was lost ...
Although for the likes of her I wasn't willing to let her meet with Lucas but
Lucas himself was a monster ,I hope she understands that...
It might be crazy but to save her the humiliation ,, I blocked all possible ways whatsoever she
might likely have in meeting with Lucas..
Hard as I tried even when she had fallen on her kneels and cry on why it seems so hard to see
Lucas thereafter ..
I couldn't make myself regret in seeing her suffer..
I just needed her to understand so she could set her life straight before it gets too late ....
A week after coaxing and convincing her to move on ,,she resumed college ...,guess the constant
visiting and phone calls got something between us ...
Unfortunately I was just a kind of prey who fell flat into Celine charms ..
The moment I got the chance to get in between her legs it felt so odd cause ever since then I
wasn't really interested in tasting any other woman except her ...
Right there I knew I wanted more of her than her body ...
As time progressed I stopped by more and more ,I made sure I got her a very nice apartment so
sometimes, I spent no longer than two or three days a week ..she wouldn't believe if I told her
though ,but ever since I made love to her I haven't been to bed with any other woman ...
During our lonely times together I noted that she rarely speak about herself or any friends
whatsoever or dig deep about her parent whom she said was living in the state, but I seldom talk about
myself so that makes us even ,,I was fine with it..
What made her special even when I realise she was still in love with Lucas was her intelligence and
s*xual aspect ...
This was where she excelled ...no one needed to tell me she's a rare breed..she titillated me verbally
,,she seduce me with words even before she kissed me ...
Sometimes she makes me so hard without having to say a word ,, her smile , her lips soft and s*xy
got me heads over the sky even before I got to attack her skirt...
Thought things was going well between us until she told me she was pregnant ,,
"Am pregnant Nigel" and there she went on her kneels and wept ...
And all I could just do was stand like some zombie in the middle of dessert ...
Eyes huge, lips stuck ,throat working convulsively
I was so sure if I hadn't been that young or healthy I would have been struck by an heart attack .
right!!!
no one needs to tell me it wasn't mine but Lucas...
It kills me inside ,,I got so heartbroken and angry... got so exhausted and heart wretch ..
Each time I see Lucas laugh,or flirt with girls I feel like strangling a tie he so hated around his neck
,,
it got to an extent my friends wasn't bothered about asking on my mood anymore cause all I sent
them was an wolf glance ...
I remained silent ...
Those times ,,opening my lips to speak always got me so scared to the extreme ..
I spent days without picking her calls or visit her in college , I found myself drinking and smoking ...
Gosh will it solve anything ...I knew it won't ...but I just needed some space from her just to clear my
head..
She bombarded me with messages which I got to delete without reading..
I spend days in my room until I decided to play back a message in my answering machine twice .
certainly I had missed something it was Celine voice alright ...but I had a difficult time in believing
what she was saying ...
By heaven ,,how can she think of going for an ab*rtion...
That night I had ran like a mad man into my car and drove out in super speed ...
I got to knock on her door in college exactly 12.o clock in morning only to see her looking so frail
and exhausted
Immediately she opened the door I scooted her into my arms ...
"Celine ,," I said almost shouting
"Nigel " she said weakly ...
I shook her cheek but she was gone ...
Gosh what the hell is this ,, she was burning up like hell ...
I locked the door behind me,,before striping her naked ,,
I carried her to the shower,,run a cold water over her head ,,feed her some soup before chewing an
aspirin ,
It was so bitter but do I even mind ,,,
We talking about someone I love more than my life here
I drew her weak lips closer to me and poured all the content into her mouth ..
She almost vomited but I set her in with a cup of water ...she stayed like this for days, vomiting ,
sleeping and crying
It wasn't long for me to realise it was the pregnancy nausea...
I was just so scared to the wits ,,but I was brave to promise her I'll take care of the child ,
So I came to the conclusion ,,Lucas has to know about this ,,
He got her pregnant, he made her this way ...he got to be responsible for it ...
He needed to know about this no matter how much I so hate him right now.
Guess i end up hitting my fist on his face,
"Nigel ,,I do not know who the hell you are talking about ,, just tell her to come get some cash and
get rid of it ,,okay"
"Bastard,," I shouted almost pouncing my fist on his lips once more but tom and Elliot was just
some damn Obstructor...
I stubbornly wheel away from them and raced after him ...
I hit my fist on his face but he was fast pounce back at me....
"Stop this Nigel " tom shouted ...
"The f-ck is this Lucas" jack roared
But never am I listening ,,I kept shouting at him with teary eyes..
"You are an animal ,, you want her to get rid if it and die like Whitney did right .
. Huh" I shouted
He wiped the blood on his lips and glared at me with a huge eye
Gosh that was a secret between us..
of course that's because I was the closest to him, but right now I do not seems to care if it leaked
out or not ..
I did remember calling him a jerk ...cause truly he is a jerk....
Whitney was the girl he impregnated back in college...
Gave her 50million to get rid of it ,
Days after ,,, we found out she died right at her uncles place ...
No one really knew the cause of her death except us and her uncle whom you paid off with an
huge cash ..
"Right" I shouted at him while tom ,Elliot and jack kept gasping in shock ...
"Don't you use c*ndoms" tom and Jack shouted right at his face irritatedly ...
"You know I do not like c*ndoms dammit ,," he shouted back
....
Elliot was fast to lock him on the shirt with a gritted teeth
"You've got to learn how to use one Lucas or else you will spend the rest of your life in jail, pouring
that damn loads of yours in girls ,is that the best huh"
"Am sorry guys I'll and about Whitney guys am sorry ,, I knew I kept it from you ,, but whom ever
Nigel is talking about is just a wh*re ,,how was I suppose to believe the child she's carrying is mine
"
At the sound of that ,,my head sprang to an attack mode ,
What kind of kid brother is this
I raced after him all ready to kill him but was stopped by Elliot who got to receive the hard
clenched fist am about sending his way ...
"Bastard" I shouted at him not minding Elliot who was lying flat on the floor wincing in pain..
"What in the devil is wrong with you Nigel ,," he shouted with a huge eye ...
"My apartment tonight she will be there ,, " I sent him a warning finger before storming out
..
Right!!!!
Life could well have Its tail locked around each souls...but it seems this is how much I could take it ...
That was it ,, I'm just so ashamed Lucas and I could have such blood bond ...
We were opposite, Two different stunts ...
A quiet , cool guy whose dreams wouldn't stop colliding with that of the terror ,useless Lucas..
Did he came, of course he did ...
Seems Celine was just so happy with the news of meeting with Lucas that night ...
Jealousy could be an understatement ,, I was just so angry and boiling with the smile pulling on
her face when I'd disclosed the news to her ...
Before I could explode or scold her for smiling here and there , I had to excuse myself and left my
apartment to clear my head with a cool beer at a near by bar ...
Guess during those hour was the time Lucas arrive at my apartment ...
Talk of know ,,I knew he was gonna end up treating her the way he did to Whitney , guess
that's what I wanted exactly so she could get it stuck in her head that Lucas isn't just someone she
thought he could be ...I've warned her enough
He's a monster and a heartless fool ...I hopes she witness that herself ...
Celine :
Past :
I stare at the ab*rtion pills in my hand for a while after Nigel left ,,I can't believe I kept smiling when
Nigel had disclosed the news on Lucas visit..
I cursed myself for buying the ab*rtion pills at the first place before shoving it back into my bag ...
Ignoring the nausea pains threatened to overwhelm me I lean back on the sofa before propping
my feet on the stool ...
I was starting to give in to sleep when a shadow fell over me ...
I opened my eyes and stare up only to meet with the irritating gaze of Lucas who was staring at
me as if I have cow faeces plastered on my face ...
"Are you the b*tch Nigel was talking about" he sneered
...
As if not hearing him well I stare up at him and frown ...
"Am not a b-tch Lucas "
"Yes you are " he shouted ....
At the sound of his tone I flinched before sitting up straight ...
"I'm not" I argued
"Am carrying your child "
"A b-tch can never carry my child ,,you got that "
Then I got to remember Nathan words and Nigel's warning ...
This was a new twist, and even more ludicrous than I ever thought..., i cant believe i found myself
dumbfounded, staring at him in disbelief. When i finally spoke, my voice was puzzled and high
pitched.
"Why are you saying all these to me Lucas I love you?"
I realise his patience seemed to wane as he scolded me more
" love who??''
"Oh, come off it, what did you say your name was?did I even remember is it Honey, Kitty, Dolly?"
The disdain with which he mentioned those names puzzled me further
"but it's cel...."
He sent me a wolf angry look
"Shut the f-ck up okay, "
And there the tears that started strolling off my face knows no bound ...
"Please lucas" I pleaded,,if its the only thing I could do right now to get his attention then am so
willing to crawl on my feet ...
I was ashamed of my self ...
If I knew he had this monster part in him would I have think of lying to my friends and meeting with
him in secret .. ...
But yet why do I still love him so much in spite of him calling me a b-tch and humiliating me like
this
Gosh the thought of it disrupted my system ...and gradually
I was starting to fall and steeped in pain ...not just pain but an intense one, so encompassing, so
engross, I couldn't localize it ...
It was everywhere, inside of me, on the surface, it was a saturating pain ...
Just when I think I couldn't stand it any longer, I was flooded with a warm rush of numbness,
A magic elixer that washed through my veins ...
Soon after the paralysis of heart break, I went down on my kneels I reached out to him despite my
muzziness ...
I concentrated hard, but all I saw was cash ....
He sprayed the cash on me...
"Cash ,, that's it okay "
"Lucas please, don't leave me"
"Hey am used to one night stand okay, hundred million should be enough to get rid of it "
Then he walked right out ...
"Noooo you can't leave me, Lucas you can't leave me ...." I shouted and crawled to the door ...
My tone went weak now
.
Then Nigel ran right in an hour after I swallowed the drugs ....
I was in pool of blood and crying in pain now ,
"What did you do to yourself, god what have you done Celine .....why did you take the damn drugs,
told you I would take care of the baby, why did you take it "
I smiled weakly cause my words were meaningless now, if only I could love him and not that thug ...
I wanted to dodge from everything because they intruded on peaceful nothingness..
"I can't live with this .... am sorry, I already took the ab*rtion pill, its something I never regret doing.. I
don't deserve to live, Nigel " I choke on my breath
"Stop this Celine ,, stay alive for me please,, I love you please" he shook my cheek
"Emergency" he shouted with teary eyes and that's all I heard as my breath tightened and then
my conscious moment became extended....
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