Sitting in my office, wondering how long it has been with no results of finding her keeps killing me. I have detached from the world and the only thing that is keeping me going is my little babies. A knock on the door brought me back to my scences, when two little babies with there bags coming in you could tell how tired they were especially Elain. It's been four years since there mother went missing, I tried showing photos to them of how she looks like but I ended up stopping, not because they did not want to but because I got so busy that I hardly see my angels. Arsinoe would have been upset if i had missed any dinner with the kids, I can't say they got used to it because that would be false, they are only three and in play group but I could tell that missed seeing me, this is not the first time they have suprised me at work. I can't believe that I, who would have given up everything to bee with his family is the same person that has forgotten about that by indulging in finding his wife who could be dead and hurting himself with work. What happened To me i keep asking myself now and then but i fail and maybe thats the reason why I wouldn't want my kids to see how miserable there father is. "Daddy, daddy we came to visit you to day" wow its been a while since I heard there childish voice. They both rushed to where I was while there Nanny making sure they don't trip and fall. "Ooh my sweet angels, Daddy missed you alot, so much." Emryn was way up ahead, you could tell she is just like her mother "lie, how can you miss us when you don't even come home to see up daddy, you come late and leave early or you don't come at all!". In my head I kept thinking 'how did they grow up so fast, she talks just like her mom' I knew for a fact that what she was saying was correct but how can i justify my actions as an irresponsible father "I know my queen, Daddy has been a really bad person but daddy promises that he will make an effort". While I was saying that I made her Sit on my lap as a soothing but she was so sturbon just like her mother. Elain wasn't that much of a talkative, or we could say he did not care whether I was there or not, thats the vibe I got from him every time. "Come here son, I missed you come give me a hug" "where would you like daddy to take you this weekend then?, Paris maybe or maybe Miami, Hawaii, pick a place and will go there." Maybe Idid expect it from Emryn but not Elain "No thanks dad, you would end up cancelling last minute anyways so its Okay." That really did hurt, not the fact that I was turned down but the fact that, I have dissapointed my children over and over again and they are still young, this must have been hard on them then. I should try my best to show up in there lives, they are so young yet they have learnt to survive on there own with no parental care. With that thought in mind I found my heart breaking even more.
Its been a month now since my children came to my office and since then i have tried my best to come home every day before they go to bed. Read them bed time story and i feel like they are happy about it, I did not know how much I was missing while I was away from them. But now I will make sure that i spent each moment of my life with them untile my last breath. We would go picnic at the garden every weekend just to get back the lost time, Seeing them smile made my day even better.
SOMEWHERE IN AN ISLAND
"Mother, I am home, Mr Samuel gave me this to bring to you, didn't I tell you that he fancies you." "Silly child, I told you that you should not take anything from home so why did you do it?" I got a smack on my head from her, well I deserve it since each time I keep doing the exact same thing that she told me not to do, but I see how they look at each other. "Luna, I already made lunch can you serve the food I'll just get the pepper i made earlier today when you were busy running around the entire island." Now I know she will start blaming me so let me just serve the food, I know that its always going to be rice and fish just like everyday I even got used to it. "Mother, I brought friend eggplant from Mr Samuel, I will serve with that too" she tries to play hard to get but I know deep down she loves him.
I don't really remember much about myself, when I woke up she was the first person I sawand since then she treated me as her child. I did not remember who I was or where I came from all i know is that I had a head injury and two bullets were removed from me, she told me I was asleep for almost a month everyone in the island thought I would not make it. From what I know is that I was found at the shore thank God no animal had eaten me, hahaha that's what she says every time. Ever since she took me in and treated me as her child. "Okay mother the food is ready, if you won't be coming then I will finish it" I always joke with her just to hear her say "such ungrateful child, how can you finish you mothers food, look at how unmannerd she is." It never gets old.