Who am I?

Only a child is breathing fresh air.

Deliberately walking in a rather quiet hallway.

Sometimes I hear the whistling of birds that are singing.

"Son."

I was called by someone who was leaning against a dilapidated building.

"Uncle is a storyteller, do you want to hear uncle's story?"

"No." That simply answer and I know it sound rude but I do not know him.

"I have killed someone but so far I have not been imprisoned at all. However, sitting next to this old wall makes me feel like I'm stuck in the past."

I do not give any reaction, I just shock hearing that.

And then….

Without get my permission his tell me about the story

....

Mirror-mirror on the wall,

I have two heroes in life, on of my right leg and my left leg. So, I should use them with the right way.

I start to speak,

Language is the soul of a nation.

I'm not good at poetry. If it is sent to the Malay Language Club, they will definitely laugh at it.

I anchored myself lying on the fresh grass.

"You don't want to go home?" Someone asked. Yes, I am not alone here, but I am with my friend. His name is Thaqif. My best friend since childhood.

"I don't want to." I simply answered.

"Hmmm.'' He just mutter.

"You know I don't like going home. If I go home, it's the same feel. There is no one there. Being alone.'' I replied while trying to express my feelings.

"I know that, what I mean is that you don't want to go back to our school. We have been out of school for five years. If we follow this year, we will be in fifth grade.'' He said.

"I don't know, I feel like I have no ambition, no life, empty and something like that. I don't know what I want, after all, who cares if I don't go to school." I said.

"But at least you still have your brother."

"He is abroad, does he know about me here?. He don't care actually.''

"So you don't want him back home?" He asked. His style is as if he wants to dig into my secrets.

"If he comes home I don't care. It's not that I'm very close to him. Just knowing him as a brother and him always wearing a purple t-shirt."

"Wow, I didn't think you were any better than the frog under the shell." It's good that his mouth speaks in such a way? 'm too lazy to argue with him. What will be the result if I fight verbally to show who else is good at debating. Will end with sorry and friendly again.

Finally Thaqif lay down on the fresh grass.

"You really don't want to go to school?" He repeated the same question. Didn't he understand the answer I gave just now? Do I have to be patient to repeat the same answer.

It's okay Anas, isn't this one of the ways to strengthen the relationship between friends.

"You want to know something?" I asked him.

"What's the matter?" He asked me back.

"ONE.'' I spoke.

"Did you give me a riddle?" He asked me with a puzzled face while raising one eyebrow.

"One day you will definitely know.'' I said while carving a smile.

............

I came home a little late. I cleaned myself, prayed and ate before laying down on the soft sofa. My house is simple and ordinary. The level is not considered high, just simple to describe about my house. Where I get money ,I don't even go to school and don't have any job.

Yes. My brother make online transfer for his lovely younger brother.He is known as a student and part-time worker. That's all I know about it.

While I was lying down I remembered my conversation with Thaqif a while ago.

Ambition?

Hope?

I don't remember the last time I wrote down my dreams. 10 years ago? Wow that's really bad. Wasn't I seven years old at the time?

Hope?

I was surrounded by many hopes but it all ended in disappointment.

What about school?

Always got last number in tests.

My brother?

I don't immediately remember my memories with him. Is he a fierce person? Affectionate? Good boy? Bad boy?

But for sure, a brother must want the best for his younger brother right. If he finds out that I don't go to school, he will be very angry. I also miss creating memories with him.

Ah go to sleep, recalling memories as if I was lulled to carry my past self. The one who wears diapers, sucks a bottle of milk, cries, whines.

Please asleep, don't remember anymore.

Then, less than a minute later, I was lulled into a dream.

..........

Today I had an appointment with Thaqif to participate in a badminton competition at xyz. I quickly grabbed the badminton racket and rushed out so recklessly that I almost forgot to lock the house.

As I ran I called Thaqif. It took a long time for Thaqif to answer my call. It's not long, but it doesn't take my call. Has he reached the hall yet? I looked at the clock on the phone. Wow, I'm late. Five more minutes left. I feel like taking a taxi right now.

Hey taxi where are you now?

PIN!PIN!

A taxi appeared out of nowhere. I am thankful, my prayers have been answered. As soon as I turned around, this was not a taxi, it was just another car I don't know who is it. Ah, I don't care as long I arrives on time to my destination. I quickly entered to that car and..

"Xyz sir?" I said.

"Why Xyz? Don't you go to school?'' The driver asked.

"School ? '' For this time ? Why do I have a premonition that something terrible will happen.

The driver turned the face to me and and I terrible for a few minutes.

"I asked why?" asked the driver while raising his eyebrow.

Do I know him until I have to be interrogated why do I have to go there at this time? Could it be that he is someone who has a responsibility towards me to the point of knowing my destination? Who is he, the police? I have no criminal record so far. Or maybe he..

"Brother?"

"Why go to Xyz instead of school?"

Oh no, hurry up my brain cells , please connect.

"Thaqif he got lost at Xyz when he want go to school, we need to pick him up." I don't know what the answer, I hope nothing bad happens. I really don't like this.

"Oh.'' My brother formed the letter 'o' to show that he understood what I meant. And well he will pick up Thaqif there and that means I will go to school today.

Oh no!

"Which school does you go?"

Which school did he ask? His question like the cat lost their child. What is the answer I want to give?

"Which school? I can drop you at school.''

"The school is near the edge of Xyz."

"Huh, how can you get lost if the school is just next door?" My brother was surprised. Please don't ask any more questions if you don't want to pass out when driving.

"I've heard that something impossible can just happen, while you can forget your glasses that you wear yourself." I spoke before my wall of deception broke.

"Okay." That was all he replied.

After three minutes, I finally reached my destination and that's when Thaqif's face like had been waiting for me for so long. I quickly went out to cover Thaqif's mouth because there was a possibility that Thaqif would break my wall of deception.

"How long have you been safe ..."

I also managed to cover his mouth and pulled him to the side of the Xyz building.

"Why is this the wrong direction?" Thaqif spoke in amazement.

''Shh, my brother..''

"Your brother?"

"Back...back." I replied while tell Thaqif abouty brother right hand behind my body.

We whispering and talked while also slowly turning back.

I saw my brother's face there with a sweet smile on his lips.

"Good luck study" He said.

''Good.'' We answered simultaneously in a forced situation. After a few steps we walked, we looked back and it turned out that my brother was still there with his endless smile on his lips.

''I'll pickup you guys here after school.''

Oh no

"GOOD. '' I answered full of enthusiasm because of anger.

......….