"You know, it doesn't have to be this way,"
"What?"
"I mean-"
"I know what you mean. I just think you're a fool for wishing about something so...unattainable,"
"That's a bit harsh,".
"As harsh as you putting a gun to my face, forcing me to kneel, and shooting me in the head?"
Only when she said that, did I finally grasp what I was about to do. My grip around the gun tightened as my pointer finger hovered over the trigger.
"Fair point.'' I say, looking her in the eyes for the first time all night. She looks...well, she looks defeated. I can't blame her, really, after all I'm about to kill her.
oh god, I'm about to kill her.
She, who I love with my entire being, is about to die, and it's my own fault. She, who has loved me. she, who I cherish, is going to decay and rot and be forgotten now and forever by everyone. Everyone but me.
"If you going to kill me, just do it- you beast,". She spat.
"Beast?"
"Yes, a beast. A creature lacking humanity, a creature being you,". She's trembling as she speaks, but her eyes remain fierce. I can't tell if that's brave or idiodic- at the very least it's admirable. I push the barrel of the gun to her head.
"I just want," even my own voice stutters now, "I just want for you and i...for you and I to be HAPPY- that's IT,". I try to look deeper into her eyes, to try and understand what she thinks. But, of course, she is impossible to read.
"happiness? that's the waterfall you choose to chase? The only way you and I could ever be happy together is if we both reunite in hell,".
The venom in her words, I admit, hurt me.
"Why must you say such awful things?" I sigh, dropping my arm with the gun to my side. I see her body relax, just the slightest bit, "Don't relax, I still have to kill you,". She's staring at me now, the only expression on her face is pure hatred and regret. A dangerous combination.
"I hate you. I HATE YOU. I would be happy without you. Hell, i WAS happy before I met you. But there you came into my life- and look what you did- you FUCKED EVERYTHING UP. I hate you. I hate you. kill me, kill me- if you love me truly the way you say you do, then kill me. my dying wish is to be gone from your company. permanently,"
*sigh*
"If that is what you wish, then who am I to deny you, dear?" I touch her trembling face one last time, and cupping her heated, tear-stained cheek, I bend over to kiss her. Then, with the vitality of a woman who's killed before, I lift my gun.
BANG