Words can't simply express how I am feeling right now.

Is it love?

Is it self-sabotage?

I wonder what we would look like right now.

Facing each other with our sins in our hands.

Asking each other for forgiveness.

I can't call our relation a relationship.

Was it love or sabotage?

I wonder, but for sure, I am more than certain that this is not how love is supposed to feel like or look like.

That is why, now, and for the tomorrow that will arise soon. I have to change something and act upon it. But I loved you for a moment and maybe you did?

I don't know. You are no longer here to answer me, anyways.