As I find myself here, contemplating the words that are being formed from my thoughts, I'm met with a sense of dread. I believe in authenticity, in the raw expression of emotions and feelings, and it is with this ethos that I'm compelled to admit that writing this novel is not bringing me the joy that I had anticipated.
Having been an avid reader of the erotic genre, I've always found a certain appeal in it; the intimate details, the unspoken desires, the electric passion, all carefully woven into a narrative. It is with this fascination that I embarked on the journey to create a piece of literature that could mirror my interest. However, the more I delve into the depths of this novel, the further I feel I'm straying from the path I intended to tread. This dissonance is leaving me more disappointed than impassioned, an emotion I never imagined I would associate with writing.
This is especially true as I explore the relationship between Li Feng and his mother in TMBM. I wanted to create characters that resonate, characters that would leap off the page and pull you into their world. But somehow, they're turning out more as static figures, reminiscent of lifeless dolls, devoid of the vivacious essence I aspire to capture. This is not what I had envisioned for my novel, and it is indeed a turn I regret.
I value the connection with my readers, and it is this connection that's urging me to come clean about my sentiments.
It is with a heavy heart that I've decided to halt the writing of this novel. I owe you all an apology and humbly request your understanding. The blame undoubtedly lies with me, but I hope this experience will serve as a stepping stone towards a more satisfying future.
Now, I'm excited to share some uplifting news. I've recently embarked on the journey of creating a new novel. One that promises to deliver a balanced narrative, incorporating system and harem elements. This novel will not be as languid as TMBM, nor as rapid as BMHS. The training aspect, a feature you've appreciated in my previous works, will be a prominent part of this novel too.
Despite the unexpected path my current project has taken, my fervor for writing remains undiminished. I am confident that this new endeavor will serve as an exciting and fulfilling exploration of creativity, and I hope it will provide you with an immersive reading experience that resonates on a deeper level.
Thank you for staying with me on this literary journey; your support is invaluable.