Prologue
I look coldly at the woman sitting across me, beautiful and delicate is obviously what you can describe her. Yung tipong isang tulak lang ay mababasag na siya. She looks pure and gentle, smiling even if being treated badly and smiling and forgiving even if someone criticizes her in front of her, smiling even when being stimulated, smiling, smoling, smiling everyday in front of all people nahaharap sakanya. Smiling kahit inis na inis na siya, and I hate that smile so much that I want to strangle her pretty delicate neck everytime I see her smile. Hypocrite.
I smirked when I remember what my brother told me a day after he saw me 'bullying' this little bastard.
"Be good to her. She is so kind and still smiled even if you bully her everyday. She is aalso forgiving and see people in light"
My poor brother being deceived by this little b*tch just like everyone else. If she is really kind how can she be together to a guy who already have a fiancee. Hindi ko alam na ang pgiging kabit na pala sa may nagmamay ari na ang basihan nang pagiging mabait.
This b*tch is just a poor girl who wants to climb up as someone's mistress to have the same status as me. And I won't let it happen.
"Marga, mahal namin ang isa't isa, kaya nagmamakaawa ako sa'yo, hayaan mo na kaming maging masaya kasama ang isa't isa"
Love? Totoo ba ang pagmamahal. It''s just a useless feeling na mawawala rin naman pagdating nang panahon. How can love give people a profit? How can love make people happy? Love is only an emotion that can distract us in our original life trajectory, love will only destroy people. Love can only make people helpless and desperate.
Ano naman kung mahal nila ang isa't isa? Magiging masaya ba sila habang buhay? Love is only a four simple leters but people like her is making it complicated.
Can they really be happy until the end because of their feelings despite his family being against them? I don't know. I didn't know how they ended because before I saw their end, I first saw his smiling and arrogant face, her face full of sympathy before they finally ended my family and... my life...
If I come back to life I will make sure that I will let them pay for all the grievances that I suffered. Every bit of it. That' s what I promise before I finally close my eyes without the peace that I believe I should have.
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I am originally a typical young lady, spoiled and loved by everyone, I can have everything I want, can get rid of everything that I don't want arrogant and unruly. I can complain for full 8 hours without getting tired, can scold for a whole day without anyone stopping me. But it all change in my 18th birthday when I found out that a b*tch from a countryside came and seduced my fiancee, I don't love him of course. I don't really know how to love and what is truly love bit I sure am that I like all the benefits he can give me once we get married, and now a b*tch came to seduce him? I naturally don't like her. A hypocrite smiling face and a gentle personality. I know better that she is just a poor scheming vixen who want her life to be improved. Everyone who spoiled and adored me turned into her. Even my family and my most beloved brother. But in the end? She became the reason of our destruction.
And now, I'm back. Di man kapani paniwala ay nabalik ako sa taon kung saan hindi pa siya nag- e- exist. I was 24 when died. Too young to disappear in this horrible world but when I wake up I becae my 17 year old delf, again. 2 months before the start of the change in my life trajectory. Hindi ko na inisip kung ano ang dahilan kung bakit ako muling nabuhay, ang inisip ko ay kung ano ba ang gagawin ko sa paghihiganting gagawin ko.
I closed my eyes at sumagi sa isip ko ang apoy na lumiliyab, ang kotseng unti unting nasusunog kasabay nang kapatid ko na inunang iligtas ako. ANg ina kong unti unting sinasakop nang sakit dahil sa trahedyang yun hanggang tuluyan niya nang tinapos ang sarili ang ama kong malakas ay inatake sa puso ngunit hindi kayang insuko ang kompanyang pinaghirapan niya para kung sakaling mawala siya ay may maiiwan sa akin pero tuluyan ring namatay. Hindi dahil sa sakit kundi dahil sa taong bumaril sakanya. I was left all alone. Remember my father words before he died.
"Take care of yourself, I left all my properties for you. DOn't give up, and don't let our deaths affect you. Yun ang huli kung hiling para sa'yo"
I tried. I... tried. Pero hindi ko kaya, kinaya ko, sinubukan kong kanyanin para lang tapusin nang dalawang yun dahil sa kasalanang hindi ko ginawa.
I opened my eyes again, and stared at my pink ceiling. This hatred... I will make them slowly pay for it. I will make sure of that.
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