November 25, 2022: before college enrollment day
I've often been told I am too friendly by my family and that one day a strange guy will take advantage of my naivety and rape me… they were right unfortunately. As I was sitting outside the local coffee house and doing some research on a local college to join… I look over to my left and see a strange young man looking at me and he walks over to me. He says hi and we begin to make small talk… I thought nothing of it since my therapist told me that to get over my social anxiety I must communicate with people openly to get over my fear. But when we parted ways thing got weird as I walked home. I lived in a very small faming town and people know each other here…. So when I felt like I was being watched I went into a public restroom that was in a park across from the police station and was planning on dialing 911… but that's when he appeared. I cant say I lost my innocence since I was far from that at the age of twenty-nine… but I was indeed violated by a young man of only nineteen years old at the time. I fell on the stone floor of the bathroom somehow and lost some memory of the incident but when I came too he appeared before me and lied that we were dating so that he could see where I lived. My mother met him and he had the nerve to tell my mother that he loved me… a day later I was bleeding from my rear end and memories of the event came flooding back along with bruises on my wrist that looked to be suspiciously close to bindings.
My mother and I reported it but it was a he said vs she said incident and when I got home my aunt, who in this book I am going to call her Aunt Tracy for certain reasons… she knows who she is, laughed at how dumb I was for getting raped and that it was all my fault to begin with for being so trusting. I'd like to point out to the peanut gallery that I have several forms of childhood PTSD and I for sure did not want adult PTSD so what made her think even for a second that anyone in their right mind would want to be molested by a complete stranger?! Aunt Tracy can be so infuriating at times and she just loves to bully me any chance she gets. She once called me an evil spirit then proceeded to tell me to take out the trash… I of course completely ignored her request since a person should be kind when asking someone to do a favor on their behalf… it's only common sense, or at least that's what I believe.
My nightmare with the molester was not over yet as unfortunate as that sounds. Once I decided on enrolling into the local community college, my worst nightmare came true as I walked into the campus cafeteria for some lunch. For all intended purposes this man shall be known in this book as the puffer man… on the account of his uncanny fish like appearance. The worst part was that he was seducing another young girl and was apparently in relations with her… her name in this book shall be The Witch, on the account that she can lie and manipulate people on a whim to think anything she wants, plus she has the temper of a Billy Goat. When I tried to warn the people around them they called me a liar and that I was just looking for drama. I even found out that puffer man doesn't even go to the college and was just going to stay next to his girlfriend. The witch has, and even her friends on occasions, threatened to kick my ass on campus.
As I am a good upstanding citizen and will not take threat of bodily harm laying down, I go directly to the campus police to file a complaint…. They weasel their way out of it thanks to the Witch's Silver tongue. The next time it was her friend who threatened to kick my ass and I sat calmly in my seat and said, "If you hit me, you'll be kicked out of school, and I'll file charges.." I might have acted brave but I hate confrontation and was literally about to pee myself. She the states that I would be that type and to just keep running my f#$king mouth… I was actually shaking in my chair but I tried my best to remain calm. As soon as the bullies left I went straight for the school dean's office only to later be told it was my fault for… and might I say that this excuse was complete Bull Shit… staring at them.
For starters, I was in the common area at school and a lot of student were there too. Second…. I WAS NOT F@$KING STARING!!! I was people watching to analyze the affects of toxic mindsets in people vs the healthy mindset and to test a theory that a toxic mindset can be contagious to a healthy mindset individual. I was looking at a lot of people and I could not have been staring since I was always changing who to look at every two seconds… five at most. I would then look down at my tablet to write down my finding and when I felt someone staring at me I looked up and that's when… lets name this friend of the witch, perrito… means dog, their as yappy as a corgi and just as short tempered. Perrito then threatens me, I stand my ground, dean blames me, then I go to Mother and she does not like this at all. Mom then drags me to the campus on a day when I don't have a class, and we sit down with the dean. Mother gets down to the nitty gritty and calls the dean out for her clearly giving a bully a pass when she should have found a better way to resolve this. Long story short Mother is looking for an attorney if the school doesn't kick these bullies out for harassment of a disabled student…. My mom does not mess around.