it's been thirteen months since mum died and dad hasn't been self, I really try my best to get him of his episode but he keeps looking at your pictures and taking drinks after work, sometimes I even think you forgot about me well tomorrow is going to be my PTA meeting, and he is expected to be there as my parents but I don't think he could make it cuz he might be on his drinking episode or something else, I was in just eleventh grade.
I don't think he has any chance of changing I just wish my mum never died what's there to say again he keeps looking at her pictures and muttering words to himself. I saw him standing at my bedside muttering something till I woke up. that's not himself anymore mum wherever you are I hope you read this and come home I'm tired, I'm tired of watching father change and change and change he's not himself anymore he's not the happy man is to have as a father just depressed and taking drinks and drinks I hope you find your way home mother I just hope.
I wrote to my dairy that I and my mum shared we always wrote what bothered us for us to read it at night,
but since when she died I shared the diary alone.
I held the diary close to my chest and cried it's really hard for me to process my mum's death and dad's depression .
the next day I came to school feeling tired I had to make breakfast and lunch same time and pack lunch for dad and come to school early so can give an excuse why dad didn't show up, school was almost empty so I had to go take a seat in the school bleacher and kept thinking of my life I saw Julie my best friend walking over beaming "you won't believe it", she started saying words I wasn't hearing faster than a type writing I was making my head spin,
"calm down girl what happened? I asked as I tapped her to help her calm down and me listen,
"you know my favorite band, she said in a hurry,
yeah, yeah we all know about the girls band you wont let our ears rest about, I said sarcastically,
you won't believe it, they are recruiting new singers in their group, she said as she squealed and hugged me,
ok it wasn't big news for me cause it obviously doesn't bother me.
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