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Chapter 4 - A lil lie to mom..

After that mom asked me why he left so early I replied that he has some business to do that's why he left early. After done talking to my mom I go to my room because its almost time for me to go to bed I lay and thinks that I just said him one time and he just left I'm in a deep thought when my mom said don't you want to sleep why are you awake at this time then I replied I am about to sleep after that she left my room and then I slept and wake up next day for school and I feel like a little weird and also I hesitate to go to school and I think if I tell Emelie all that then she will keep teasing me and also her thoughts will come true that he have some feelings for me and I don't want to show that I'm feeling weird Infront of him then I go to my bench as usual and literally Harvey looks at me and started waving and Emelie noticed that and said what's going on between you two and also said is there anything that I don't know I replied that I'll tell you everything that happened yesterday nut please don't disturb me right now already I'm feeling weird and don't make me feel embarrassed with your words then Emelie said ok but you have to tell me everything for sure I nodded my head in agree then I started study and after taking all classes Harvey came to me and said "Should we study" I replied "Okay". Then we got out of the class room and Emelie just watching me that what I'm doing because she doesn't know about our commitment that we made yesterday and she like blank mind. I make her understand through my actions that I will tell you all things after that and she is like angry over me that I didn't tell her anything. Then Harvey and me Take seat over our school's garden and started study but when I started to explain him, he said "wait introduce yourself first then i'll introduce myself because we don't know each other" and my face was like what he wants to do he's like so much annoying and I replied him "okay I'll introduce first" then I said "I'm Malissa and I'm your classmate and now I'm going to help you with your studies that's it". He said is this your intro it's very short and all those things I already know that then I replied "if you want to study with me then you have to focus on just studies not anything else and if you want to then you can find someone else". I just said that straight forward. His face was like a little angry but I think if he's angry then I don't even care about it because I'm here just for study and nothing else. Then he just nodded and said then start with the first topic. After that we study for almost two hours then leave for our way to home and in all this time he didn't said anything to me and I feels like he's really angry with me and I thought I was so mean that time I shouldn't said that to him and I already feels guilty after saying all that and what I said is never going to be reverse then I have to let it go and I try my best not to repeat these type of things after some thoughts I left the place and go to my home for some peace in my mind and when I enter home my mom said is there something happens to you I nodded in denial then she said "Then why your face is like that". I replied "Nothing just I have a bad day today". Then she said ok have some meal and relax yourself I nodded and go straight to my room then mom come in my room with some meal with her after I had meal then I start thinking that I have to apologize to him for what I have done but then I think that if I said sorry to him it makes me too embarrassed Infront of him and I don't want to feel embarrassed then I make a decision to go with the flow and not to say sorry to him after all it's not all my mistake he also said such type of thing that couldn't bear and in reply I said those things. After all those thoughts running in my mind, I feel tired and want to sleep then I go to bed for sleep peacefully.

In the morning I wake up early and my mind is really very fresh from last night and I think that today is going to be a good day for me after I get up from bed and go to restroom and ready to go to school after getting ready I left home and reached school by self then I entered to class room and its very early that no one is in the class except Harvey and me and when I realized that we are all alone here then I feel embarrassed for what happened yesterday and for the situation right now I just praying in my mind that "Emelie please come early and save me from this embarrassed situation". After those thoughts I looked at Harvey and at the same time he looks at me and our eyes met and then I feel a little shy and then I turn around to look somewhere else then after some minutes passed I look at him and then again he looks at me with smirk on his face and I was like what's with that smirk why is staring like that then he catch my attention while saying why are you feeling shy the way that you don't even looking at me I said it's nothing I'm not feeling shy i just reached early and waiting for Emelie to come why the she is not coming early then he replied "If you came school early then why are expecting her to come early it's just you who is early today". She come school on time not too early Then I replied "You are also early I'm not the only one who's here early". He said "yes of course because I have no idea that you are also early today". After saying all that he suddenly stand up from his bench and started walking towards me then I think why is he coming here where I'm standing what he wants to do when I'm alone. Thoughts are coming on my mind side by side and when I feel someone s close to me then I turn my head up the I realized he is front of me and so close that I can even hear him breathing but when I look into his eyes his eyes seems too scary his dark grey eyes are like a horror movies ghost eyes and also he smirk towards me and my eyes froze in the same direction of his face and when I gathered my strength to push him away then he held my hand and come more closer to me and his other hand is up to my shoulder and then I feel some noise of tick tick closer to my ear and I heard him saying very close to my ear that "I'm just here to turn on the fan button". After that I pushed him and sit down at my bench and my face was all red because I'm blushing so hard from this suddenness then I feel so much warm and then dink water to calm myself and cooling down myself then he started laughing and said that why are you blushing then I replied "I'm not blushing it's just so warm here that way my face was like that and there is nothing else you are just assuming things yourself". He replied I'm not assuming it's your condition that makes me think that way after that Emelie entered in class and I said "why are you so late today don't you know what the time of our school why are you so careless" the she said "Malissa I'm on time I'm not late I have arrived 10 minutes before our class and why are you like that what happened to you and why your face is too much red was something happened to you". Then I looked at Harvey he's just smiling toward me in a teasing way and I was like going to kill him right now. Then I replied to Emelie "Nothing happened I'm just feeling a little warm" She replied "Are you okay Malissa you are feeling warm in winter season". Then realized that I act like a fool in front of him and Emelie I have to be confident I didn't do anything wrong and also, I stared at him in such a cold way. Then he smiled at me in replying to my stare. Then I thought do whatever you want I have a time when I'm teaching, I can make it even there with that thought I left the class room alone and go to the library to study after some time passed Emelie messaged me that today our all classes just cancelled because of some fresher's event and I was thing that it's such a waste to come to school today. I replied her "Okay". Then continue with studies alone.