I slowly started to gain consciousness. My arm was feeling slightly numb, but I could still tell I was holding something soft.
As I opened my eyes, I realized the soft thing I was holding was Becca's waist. She was still sound asleep. While we were sleeping, some of her light brown hair had gotten on me and one of her legs was to top of mine.
She was so cute. Waking up like this every morning would be pretty nice. I leaned in closer to her and lightly rubbed my nose on her neck . Once a rubbed her neck, she seemed to feel it and wiggled a little.
I thought it was adorable that she was moving in my arms, but unexpectedly, she moved a little too far back and her butt ended up rubbing on my crouch. The feeling was intoxicating, but I was not prepared for it at all.
Unluckily or luckily, depending on how you saw it, when she rubbed against me, my lower area was "standing at attention", since I had just woken up.
I quickly let go of her and moved to the other edge of the bed…
'Oh my god! I want to wake her up and ask her to sleep with me right now!'
I pinched myself hard to try to calm my raging emotions.
'Shit! I can't put her on the spot like that!'
Becca was too innocent. It would be stupid of me to skip steps in our relationship. If I wake her up now and asked for it, I would just scare her. She isn't ready to do something so extreme, when she hasn't even kissed someone before. I don't want to push her into something she isn't ready for.
The past couple of days, our relationship has become deeper. I could tell that she liked me now and wanted to have some skinship, but only a few days ago was probably the first time she ever even held a boy's hand.
Maybe I should start trying to slowly get more physical with her? In my world, plenty of people would kiss on the first date. However, I'm sure this old school kingdom thinks that kisses are something only a married couple should do in private.
'Damn it! This kingdom is screwing me over again!'
I took a deep breath. I just need to be patient. How can I call myself a good partner if I force my significant other to rush to do something they are not comfortable with?
Plus, if it's Becca, I would guess that she doesn't really care about the Kingdom's standards and will kiss me when she feels comfortable.
All signs so far, point to our relationship eventually getting to the point where we can spend as much time as we wanted enjoying ourselves in the bedroom. She has already asked me on multiple occasions to hold her, so I need to remember that everyday our relationship is progress bit by bit.
Someday in the future, she will be screaming my name in pleasure.
I slapped my face with both my hands. What the heck am I even thinking about?! I am really losing my cool today.
I ran to the bathroom to take an ice cold bath.
In the bathroom, I did the one thing I knew would definitely relieve my pent up frustration. I was as quiet as possible because I was paranoid that Becca would somehow hear me.
I felt a little guilty, but relieving myself like this was a whole lot better than trying to force our relationship to a point that was still far away.
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Becca woke up to a strange sight.
"Nick, why are you pacing in the corner?"
"Oh, good morning Becca! Sorry, I was having a kind of weird morning. Now that you are awake, I should be fine since I have something to distract me."
"Are you really ok? I can call a doctor over!"
I laughed out loud. All my struggles this morning seemed dumb now. Just having a small conversation made me happy enough. I might just have to relieve myself of my pent up frustration in the bathroom once in a while…
"I'm really fine now that I can talk to you. Hurry up and eat. I have a lot planned for us to do today!"
"Alright!"
After we finished getting ready for the day, we headed over to my office.
My plan for the morning was to have a presentation about the first laws that I want to implement in our path to reforming the Duchy.
We walked into the office and James was already sitting at the desk working on other important matters.
"How come you are always here first?"
"Good morning my Lord and my Lady. The answer to your question is that I wake up and start work at the break of dawn."
I patted Becca's back. "Ya, there is no way we can beat you here with her sleeping habits."
Becca pulled my ear playfully. "I get up as soon as my body is ready."
I gently caressed the hand she was pulling my ear with. "I know I'm lucky that my wife naturally gets so much beauty sleep that she can be the most beautiful woman without any effort at all."
Becca blushed and quickly let go of my ear. "Come on, no flirting in front of other people."
"Huh?! When was that a rule?"
Becca turned away from me.
"…it's not really a rule…I'm just embarrassed."
I rubbed her head. "Ok ok. The best way to make it not embarrassing is to do it so often that everyone gets used to it! Right James?"
James was clearly overwhelmed. "Whatever you say my Lord."
"See Becca, James is giving us his blessing."
"I didn't need his blessing in the first place!"
"Haha, fine. Let's focus on the real reason we are here. It's is going to be a little heavy so I'm glad we could bring up the mood like this beforehand."