I hear the pack getting rowdy.
Of course, Dyani brought beer. She brings the party. Her laughter, I can hear all the way from my spot under the tree. I see Smoke making out with Enola and Aponi, I know he'll be taking them both to bed tonight.
I see Dyani walking towards me. She looks very sexy in her short black leather dress. I eye her and she moves toward me. I try to shake off my lustful thoughts. To say I didn't want her tonight was a lie. I haven't had sex since Zare left, and of course, that is difficult.
She climbs on my lap, straddling me. I look into her deep blue eyes, moving her hair away from her face.
"Dyani, this is some hello." I chuckle.
She brings her lips to mine and kisses me excitedly. I can hardly keep up, and she shoves her tongue between my teeth. I don't pull away, I kiss her lustfully.
I run my hands through her hair, and she grips my chest.
Closing my eyes, I get a flashback of kissing Zare. How she stopped kissing me to smile at me. How a moan escaped her lips before I even got her undressed. How she used to whisper in my ear she loved me, as I kissed her neck.
I pull my lips away, right when Dyani unbutton my pants. I see the disappointment on her face instantly.
"I am sorry baby, but I can't." I look into her eyes.
I see them fill up with tears, and I hate it, I do. I hate making any girl cry. Men should never do that.
I rub her face. "You deserve better than a man making love to you, pretending it's someone else."
She climbs off of me. She looks confused. "Wasn't Zare having sex with Ajay?
I let out a deep breath. I nod.
"Maybe you deserve better, Chetan," she tells me, eyeing me.
I watch as she walks away. I notice the whole pack with eyes on me, like I am such a fool.
******
I finally make my way to the fire. I just showed up for the beer. Dyani dances and laughs with Riya. I watch them. I drink down one can of beer in one gulp. I see Ajay's eyes on me, but I know he doesn't want a fight around our guest. I take advantage of the situation. I grab another beer and another until many cans were around me and I am fucked up. My vision is fuzzy and my world spins.
"Let Dyani relax you tonight, just fuck her. It means nothing," Dev tells me, sitting next to me.
I eye him for a moment to make sure he wasn't joking. "Why don't you just fuck her?"
"Riya would love that." He laughs.
I roll my eyes. "I am still committed to Zare."
"Is she committed or is she thinking about Ajay's dick?"
I feel my temper getting the better of me. I grab Dev by the shirt, throwing him down.
I see the pain on his face. Dev is my best friend, which is what spotted me from decking him in the face.
Riya ran up, placing her hands on my chest. It stops my madness. I look down at her scared face.
"Riya, what are you thinking, approaching Chetan in this mindset?" Ajay yells at her.
I gently wrap my arm around her waist. "I would never hurt her or any girl, no matter how mad I am."
I kiss her forehead. "Move, aside sweetheart." Riya moves over, but she grabs my hand.
"It's okay."
I hate being the one that scares the girls. I need to get this uncontrollable. I need to get my Zare back.