I am tearing into two
And I am not sure what to do
My heart is screaming I love him
My mind saying I hate him
What do I do?
I love him but I hate him
I love everything about him
I love how he smiles
I love how he can make me smile
I love how no matter whatever happens
I love how he will always be there
But all the same
I hate him
I hate everything he mean for
I hate how he can makes me laugh
No matter how hard I try not to
I hate how he can make me cry
I hate how he can make me feel sad
I hate how he can make me feel
I hate how he looks at me with his eyes so kind.
I hate how all of this makes me love him even more.
I hate how I can't hate him
Most of all I hate myself
I hate myself because
I can never hate you, my love