- RAYA -
There is an abyss that has opened in the earth, and it's located back at the crosswalk. I'm still there—frozen helplessly and staring into it while the world jerks and jangles off of its axis. It's like the universe split at that location—right between where I was standing on the sidewalk and where the SUV hit. Time pauses there.
If I could go back in time, I could change things. That's what my mind wants. My mind wants a do over, and it's waiting until one is granted.
I don't know how long we've been at the hospital. After I pooled all of my remaining strength and sanity together to try acting fine and convincing Dex that I was okay, he insisted on staying. So my strength dissolved, and I stopped trying to act perfectly fine.
But I'm still acting. I'm acting calm. I can't scream like I want here. I can't cry like I want. I can't completely dissolve into hysterics and hyperventilate and try to scour the depths of my soul for the reason as to why this happened.
