I remained there. I crawled to bed and put my chin on it. I set the flashlight to the wall and stare at it. My lips formed a thin line as I stared at it. None of your affection will affect me now Desmond. I am truly broken. I don't think I'll be able to trust you ever again. You have shattered me in such a miserable way that I can't even trust my delusions. You are successful in breaking my heart and soul. You even crushed all my optimistic facades- along with those dreams I treasured deeply. Everything is ruined and my heart is in an isolated place with no intentions of redemption.
I blinked and put my hand in the air. My hand shadow cast on the wall. I began to move my hand in random positions to cast different shadows. I chuckle to myself as I get lost in that. I formed a half heart because my other hand was holding the phone. I smiled a little at the incomplete heart, it's just like my dreams.. incomplete.