I just couldn't get it. Why does he hate me that much? What have I done to him? Does he love someone else? Maybe I should ask him. What does he want? If he doesn't want this marriage I won't force him. He doesn't want to marry me in the first place, but, It's my fault that I lost myself in that delusion of mine and let myself to fall into the deeper pits of the abyss. If he wants to end this marriage, I am fine with it. I cannot take it anymore. I have tried to love and be loved by him, I have tried to know the reason for his hatred, the reason for pushing us away but not anymore.
His hatred is far too much to handle. I am losing myself in his hatred day by day. The burning rage of his for me is breaking me.
