Ever suffered from limerence?
A foreboding curse in a form of love.
You never realize when it happens.
All you know is just it happened.
And by the time you do it'll be too late.
It just happens like 'poof'.
Just like that.
You are TRAPPED.
You become a slave of your own emotions.
A slave to your own self.
If I have to describe that feeling I have to say its… terrifying.
Its like you have fallen in a bottomless pit.
It never ends.
The more you fall, the deeper you are enslaved by your own self.
All forms of escaping are annihilated.
Unfortunately for me, I just had to be its primary target.
My life, chaos.
My humanity, diminished.
I have become even lower.
Lower than a normal human or any form of sentient being.
Which is the reason why I have to do this.
The only way to escape.
My salvation.
I could hear the footsteps gradually coming closer and closer to the top, and for a moment, I thought to just call it quits.
To be honest, I really want to.
But if I don't do it now, I'll plunge even further beneath the hole I dug for myself.
Tap, tap, tap!
Tap, tap, tap!
Tap, tap, tap, tap!
Tap, tap, tap, tap, tap!
'Ehh! Is it just me or is that person walking at a relatively high pace.'
For some reason, the louder they get, the more nervous I'm becoming.
Well, its normal, isn't it.
I do hope so.
I could now see everything in slow motion, as if time had been stopped or I've gotten faster perhaps, I wish! The handle of the door started turning slowly.
'Oh God , I feel like I wanna die.'
True that.
Until finally, the cause of my weakness who will somewhat change how my life will proceed from this moment on, arrived.
My skin began to react to the slight gusts of wind, as my skin became more sensitive, making me feel the wind a bit more.
I'm overreacting.
But I just can't help it.
There she was, as pretty as she always is, Ichinose Shizuki, second year class 2-C beauty, standing right at the opposite side of the venue, with a cheerful expression as always.
And when I say beauty, trust me, I'm the best guy out there who you could possibly ask for!
My tastes are over the top.
Obviously that's what everyone thinks pertaining to their own self.
She has smooth perfectly tanned-skin which matches perfectly her natural beautiful shiny blond hair which was suspended in form of a ponytail adding to her vibrant nature and glistering bluish-green eyes which sparkled like jewels enough to draw any guy in.
And I'm suffering because of them.
Her long eyelashes further attenuated the beauty of her eyes and those rosy lips which look so soft added by her perfectly sculptured face…I didn't find any reason for not drowning in such a girl.
'I wish I can kiss em one day if it's possible.'
Her shapely bountiful breasts which had manifested due to the start of her puberty, which slightly jiggled with every step, a perfect slender waist, followed by her slightly curvaceous hips hidden beneath her skirt to her plump thighs.
Urgh, just the sight of her is enough to make me react like this.
I'm just an absolutely average normal teenage guy, so it's not my fault to have these types of fantasies.
"h-h-hey!", I stammered as I squeezed out a greeting.
"Oh, its just you!" she replied seeming a little disappointed.
'Hey! At least you could've given a better reply than that, not that I care too much about it since it's you.'
Oh!
Another little detail I forgot.
She a gal type.
And I have to admit I particularly don't hate it unlike other people as everyone THINK they KNOW what all of them are like.
Well guess what, not everyone thinks the same.
Her blazer was wrapped seductively around her waist as if its the most normal thing in the world, whilst the sleeves of her shirt where neatly folded slightly over her elbows and her shirt was buttoned up to the upper part of the mid-section of her breasts and I slightly took a peek since its like she's begging for me to look at them.
'Oh God , my heart is pounding so hard right now, I feel like its gonna explode out of my chest. I bet she can hear it from there, cant she?'
"...!"
'Ooops! She caught me staring. But was I staring too hard though?'
'Ehh , what should I say now. I bet I must be looking like some creep right now. Gotta find something interesting as a basis topic, what? Argh geez! I should've prepared a note and memorized it through and through.'
Damnit. I'm paralyzed from my sickness.
She is just too breathtaking.
"So what's up." She said as she was approaching me.
"Long time no see, heh heh heh." I said as I simultaneously scratched my cheek and averted my gaze as I could feel my cheeks turning bright red.
"I don't believe we have ever met before." She replied bluntly as she showed a confused expression on her face tilting her head slightly a bit to the right.
'How cute!'
"Sorry about that."
'Congrats for making such a dick move me!'
"Why apologize all of a sudden?"
"Ummm… cause it just felt right for some reason."
"And what reason might that perhaps, be?"
"I'm afraid I cant tell you that!"
"Why not?"
"Because…."
"Because…?" She tilted her head the other way.
'Because you are making this WAY too hard for me than it already is.'
Her presence alone is already a bomb.
How can I keep myself straight when I'm facing her.
"Because you're cute!"
"Ehh!!!"
This time she was the one who got flustered.
So I guess even a guy like me can make beautiful girls fluster huh! Pfft!!! I wish. If I had the talent to do that, I wouldn't be suffering from love sickness right now.
"Did I say something wrong?"
No , you didn't. I just figured out that you are someone dangerous after what you just said." She replied whilst deep in thought as she stopped dead in her tracks.
'Now I cant understand if she's being sarcastic or not.'
She started wiping out the sweat on her forehead with her handkerchief.
'I guess with the speed she must have been using whilst climbing those steps, they must have taken a toll on her. Too bad she found me!'
"You think I'm d-a-n-g-e-r-o-u-s." I put more emphasis on that word as if to clarify something.
'And why did you stop?'
"Don't take it personal okay. You just looked that way and said that way.", She said that as she laughed it off.
'Looked that way and said that way? What the heck is that supposed to mean?'
"Looked what way?"
"I said its nothing personal okay. Sorry." She said as she clasped her hands together and lowered her head. And then she opened both her puppy dog eyes whilst peering at me with those.
I almost fainted from happiness when she did that to me.
'Why are you this cute? Spare me, please!'
"Sorry about that." It took me a moment to realize what I had just said.
I wish I could take back those THREE words right this instant.
"You apologizing again!!" she groaned whilst saying that.
"Sorry, I guess its just out of habit."
"And again!!!" Now she looks perplexed.
"I'm sorry I'll try not to do that again next time! I promise!!!" I shouted as I bowed my head my body taking the shape of an 'r'.
I think this is the reason why I fell for her. She's always cheerful despite how she looks. I think its suits her very much.
I knew it.
Luck is on my side today.
Finally, a glimpse of light out of my darkness.
Phew.
I'm glad she isn't a bad person. She even talks to me as if we're old friends despite it being our first time talking together. Me among all people.
An average guy like me!
This is our first time interacting and yet we appear close.
I'm so happy.
"Okay, enough games. If that's all, I guess I should be taking my leave now." She said as she tried to turn around to go back where she came from.
'Is she trying to escape? Oh yeah, I almost forgot. She said I look dangerous. This hurts a lot you know.'
Nop.
"W-wait a sec.."
"I'm waiting a sec.."
"So about the reason why I called you here…" I inhaled all the oxygen I could muster at this particular moment…
I felt adrenaline rush through my whole body as it took over me.
SAY IT!
SAY IT!
SAY IT, DAMNIT!
HERE GOES!!!!!!!
"Would-"
"Look if you're about to confess to me right now, I suggest you better drop it." She said with a serious tone.
With those mere measly words I lost my momentum.
Ehhhh!! WHAT!!