If only I had used logic more than emotions, I would understand my parent's situation, I won't feel so betrayed by them and feel proud of them, I won't hurt them. If only I had been more in the present moment. Would I have lost so many friends?

Maybe it would've been better to try and graduate peacefully, not make any friends nor enemy, be a shadow. Be an observer, not the actor.

"Do you think, the observer don't have feelings?" I heard someone spoke, "Being an observer is probably the worst feeling ever, Being able to see what happened, what will happen. Guess what might happen. But can never change what happen, you gotta experience the pain of knowing what could happen. You understand everyone struggles, and you understand their goal." The voice softer towards the end, "It sucks.."

"Keir, you ain't perfect. No one is. Stop blaming yourself, stop avoiding everything! You don't want to see how that turns out, do you?"

I.. I don't know anymore