"Man, It's too much to take in."blabbered Rose.
Rose lit up another Cigarette, and threw the almost completely burnt one.
Arun and Rose were now Sitting on the ledge. Looking towards the distinct Vast Starlit Sky. I was quiet as usual, like a Big Sea of Secrets, An eternal being that witnessed an infinite amount of shit; happened on this planet.
Arun Tried to inhale, as much as his lungs could store, He inherited that Oxygen and Turned it into a Tale of Tragedy. The Monstrous things he and Priya went through.
Rose was ready to listen to him more, she wanted to know how Priya died.
"Did he ever stop?" She asked calmly.
"No"
Arun asked Rose to pass him a Cigarette.
"Oh my! Have you ever smoked before?"
"No, But I've seen in movies it helps you get over things."
"It doesn't, Writers know how to exaggerate things." She doesn't wanted to let him smoke."There are several others things which can help you get over"
"You don't have to give me if you don't want to. I'm Going to die tonight anyway." Arun murmured.
"Ah…" Rose Fumbled,"You're Fraught. You're an epitome of sadness. You saw too much at such a young age… I think it's okay for you to smoke a little."
She gave it to Arun… He tried to inhale and coughed miserably. The Cigarette fell off his hand.
"Bitch Please! I knew you can't smoke, You just wanted an indirect kiss." Rose Scolded him cutely.
"Huh… No! I didn't even think about that." Arun Justified.
"Okay, Okay, Fine! Tell me everything soon, Don't you have to die?"
"Hmmm…" Arun Continued.
''After that Rain, Next day when she came to school… I had no idea about his dad raping her. I tried to Communicate her, but she ignored me. Again and Again, in Lunch time I asked her directly, "Is it because I touched you inappropriately?"
But She didn't answer me and passed like I never was there.
Few days passed in a blink, I started to blame myself for that. Only if I hadn't tried to have sex with her things would've been the same and I wouldn't have lost my reason to live again.
Her face started to look Gloomy like the sky before a rain. With every second day, she started to have more bruises than ever.
Like those scars on her neck which might've been given by her Stepfather when she would've been tried to rebellious.
Nehu gave up by then, She became a puppet of her husband who once was her biological father. She started to support him raping priya. And at that time, Nehu was pregnant with his child so priya was his only prey, unless Nehu brings another life to get devoured by that monster.
My every Effort turned to failure. She even stopped coming to school for days, Sometimes weeks. And whenever she came, her answers were pretty basic. I fell while playing and got this swelling.
One day, When she saw me in the library… I started to cry. I let myself break into pieces, She came to me and asked, "Why are you crying?"
"Why are you doing this to me?" I asked her.
"What?"
"You are avoiding me like I don't exist. You don't talk to me, You look more gloomy by the minute. Why? Was that so inappropriate that I fell so low in your eyes? There's no way you can forgive me? are you all right? You don't seem fine at all, Priya!"
"I don't deserve you!" She whispered.
"What?"
"Haan (yes)... You deserve so much better than me."
"Why?"
"You don't have to know that."
"Why?"
"You'll start hating me the second you find it out."
"Why would I?"
"You Will."
"I won't."
"Arun, you did nothing wrong with me, I'm not angry or mad at you. Listen Arun! You'll surely find someone beautiful, smart and Pure!"
"I only want you."
"I'm not Pure."
"I'm filthy," Said Priya"I'm a corpse who breathes."
Those words shocked my Existence, The books fell off the table.Wind blew curtains away, Time faltered for a Second, and I kissed her. Without giving a thought that tens of students were watching us or how Librarian is Reacting after seeing us. She let me take the hold of her. And when we stopped, we saw students Staring at us. I grabbed her hand and We ran… We kept running until we reached the terrace.
I asked her, "What do you mean by You're not pure huh?"
"I don't want you to hate me."
"I never will."
"Alright!"
She told me everything, everything she went through. It was enough to wreck me up. We both held each other in our arms and Cried. We cried as much as we could've… We let ourselves break and scattered in pieces. There was no Reason for us to hold, I never in sleep thought that this Motherfucking world was that bad for her.
"Oh poor, Love!" I grabbed her face in my hands and Cried.
And the fact that I still couldn't hate her, made her feel guilty. She stood up, And Looked at me.
"You still Love me, Arun?" She asked gently.
"Yes, and I always will." Arun said.
"I see… "
"Let me guess, Let me Guess,"Rose interrupted."So you both Helped each other and Went to fight that monster. While fighting him, She died and you're blaming yourself for that?"
"No!" Arun Exhaled.
"She was desanitized with everything anyway. Nothing meant anything to her, I guess Even me… she had lost faith in This world, She had no dignity to Protect, She had no Reputation to care about, She had no one to rely on… me? I was just a teenager. Even her own mother couldn't help her, how could I?,
"So you love me that much huh?" She asked with a smile on her face.
"Yes!"
"Find me on the Other side then."
She jumped off the terrace, and Flew like an Angel. And I, I was just too coward. I couldn't shine like her. I couldn't Jump.
I couldn't hug her for the last time.
I did what only a coward like me would do…
I cried.
I was expelled from school immediately. She died for no reason. Her family didn't come to retrieve her body. They ran away.
In the autopsy, Everything became crystal clear and my Statements were proved true. I kept on asking, Why does it have to be her? Why did I lose everyone whom I loved?
And That's when Priya came back to me…
I don't care if she's a rape victim, I don't care if in eyes of Society she's impure, I don't care if she's a Ghost. Fuck the society, Fuck Everything…
I want to always be with Priya."
"Why are you not Dead yet? Why didn't you killed yourself?"
Arun had no answers for that…
"Because, It's hard to Die," Rose said,"Brave people do not kill themselves. It was not you who was a coward, It was Priya."
"Stop!"Arun said while crying," You've no idea how hard Life was for her."
"Kill her and Come to me." pret priya whispered in Arun's ears.
"No! I don't want to kill anyone." Said arun.
"You're Brave after all. Brave men can forgive people easily" Rose said.
"No, I'm the most coward person ever."
"I see."
Rose took out another Cigarette, and In the blink when Lighter clicked, Arun Took a Leap of Death.
He was falling with the speed of ten meters per second.
And He was Only Seconds away from meeting priya on the other Side, He closed his.
She was Eleven years old, when he first saw Priya. and Thats exactly when he decided, She's the one he wanted to protect at any cost.