Regressor's Instruction Manual Episode 907
Sera (7)
- You said you would share everything... You promised that.
Conflict flickers in her (Jung Hayan's) expression. It seems like there's a battle between whether she should tell Han Sora about her current state and whether it's better not to say anything at all.
She continues to breathe heavily. As time passes, Jeong Hayan's complexion starts to darken.
When she was on Earth, she wonders how she, who was useless back then, became what she is now...
'It seems like she's deep in thought.'
The values that shaped the current Jeong Hayan don't seem to be solely my responsibility.
'Those family members who abandoned the adorable Hayan and ran away. Heartless humans. Damn it.'
Even though I may have worsened her condition, the mindset of being discarded if you're not competent seems to be inherent in her.
According to her description, when she was on Earth, she was always an outcast. She might have faced communication problems and not excelled in any other field, receiving the feeling of being an outsider within her family.
The eldest sister plunged into the front lines from a young age, and the second sister was said to be intelligent.
Though she didn't say it directly, I know there weren't any people she could call friends during her school days. I heard she also experienced bullying...
'This part is different for me and Yul-Ha.' (Again, his sister back on Earth.)
In a sense, Jeong Ha-Yan found her self-worth shortly after arriving on the continent. She became good at something, and people around her started to admire her. The grandfathers and grandmothers of Magic Tower all adored her and always praised her.
Although she had a personality that didn't care much about others, magic became the gift and blessing that made the current Jeong Ha-Yan.
She might even think it's fortunate that she landed on the continent.
"Maybe I should have asked her more about her time on Earth."
I couldn't help but feel this way, even though she seemed reluctant to talk about it.
Even in the midst of her internal struggle, Ha-Yan remains silent. She stands in front of Han Sora's room, hesitating. When the waiting becomes tiring and she's about to give up, she reaches for the doorknob with her hand.
However, she loses courage and lets go.
-*Sob*... *Hiccup*...
Only the sound of sobbing can be heard.
-I will never leave you, Jeong Ha-yan-nim.
-....
-Jeong Ha-an-nim also said we should stay together.
-Uh-huh...
-Open... the door, please.
These guys seem like they're shooting some kind of youthful drama... You know, where the wounded protagonist receives comfort. No, it's like those dogs with wounds at the animal farm opening up their hearts to humans.
Though she can enter the tent on her own, she asks for the door to be opened.
There may be some symbolic meaning behind it, but she seems to want Jeong Ha-yan to open the door to her heart.
Han Sora's sincerity must have touched her, as Jeong Ha-Yan slowly lifts her head.
She opens the overly heavy door of the makeshift tent and welcomes Han Sora in front of her.
Though she subtly shows her vigilance, she quietly gazes at Han Sora, who realizes that this is Jeong Ha-Yan's own way.
Even in her troubled expression, a small smile appears.
-So-ra... I...
-Yes, Jeong Ha-Yan.
'No need for words. I must hug her tight.'
Hugging comes first. Tears start to well up in Han Sora's eyes as she looks at Jeong Ha-Yan's messy appearance. Honestly, if she had shown this side to the Han Sora who ran away at first, she wouldn't have believed it.
You said you'd become close friends with Jeong Ha-an. You probably would've said not to say crazy things.
-Why, why are you biting your nails again?
-Uh... well...
-Your neatly done hair is a mess again. You shouldn't keep biting it like that. You said you wouldn't do that anymore, right?
-Uh... yeah.
-Why are you crying so much? Your eyes are swollen. *Sniff*... What made you so sad?
'Gosh... You're doing so well.'
Considering how much you know, you're quite good at acting. Actually, you even joined in. You're pretending not to know anything. You're acting. (He's talking about Han Sora...I think.)
Although she felt sorry for ruining the atmosphere, she was still glad to see Hayan calm down.
-Why are you acting like such a fool? Jeong Ha-an-nim... really...
The tension is so high.
-Why do you keep being lost in thought every day?
-I-I'm sorry... So-ra.
-It's not that you should apologize to me. You should apologize to yourself, Jeong Ha-Yan.
The situation was dramatic, but it wasn't a bad situation. On the contrary, it seemed like she was giving peace of mind to Jeong Ha-Yan, and it felt good. The hyperventilation that occurred a while ago seemed to have subsided, and her breathing became calm again. The initial anxiety also disappeared. She had gained the leisure to look back at herself once again.
- So. What happened?
The timing of Han Sora's question is not bad. However, there is still fear lingering in Jeong Ha-yan's expression.
For a moment, there was hesitation, but eventually, she starts to speak.
Contrary to what Han Sora expected, Jeong Ha-yan calmly continues the conversation, shedding tears and sniffing.
-It's... not a big, big deal... but...
-Still, please tell me.
-My... my... my magic... suddenly disappeared...
After uttering those words, she starts to gauge Han Sora's reaction. Han Sora must be curious about how she will respond.
-It's... It seems like it's a temporary phenomenon... I think...
She seems anxious and adds reassurance, as if placing insurance.
It'll be fine... It'll come back soon...
So... don't leave, okay?
-I'm... I'm searching for the reason right now. And it's a temporary thing. So... it's fine, right?
-Why are you asking me if it's fine?
-I... I... I don't know...
-Are you okay, Jeong Ha-yan?
-Uh... yeah... I-I'm just... like... it's just temporary... and even So-ra can keep using Magic Angel. So...
-It's not about being a Magic Angel. Jeong Ha-yan, I don't care whether you have magic or not. What matters to me is Jeong Ha-yan herself. Undoubtedly, it's the same for the Vice Guild Master."
-D-Don't... don't tell Oppa... I... I can't... really... I really don't want to say it... please...
-It's okay. Oppa will understand.
-Don't... don't say that! Don't say it!
-Even without magic, Jeong Ha-yan has many good qualities. You have a kind heart... and you're so pretty and cute. Magic doesn't define your existence, Jeong Ha-yan. The Vice Guild Master also sees those aspects of you. Look at this. How can anyone not find you adorable?
As she tidies up her messy hair, the conversation continues. Just like usual, Jeong Ha-yan entrusts herself to Han Sora and gazes quietly into the mirror.
-You have a sweeter voice.
-Really? Where?
Your eyes... your odd eyes. You're the one who made So-ra an Odd Eye. Hayan-ah.
-I... I am...
-No, you're not. How beautiful you are, Jeong Ha-yan-nim. And it's not about appearances. The Vice Guild Master likes the person Jeong Ha-yan, not the magic power you possess. You and the Vice Guild Master have been together since the day you arrived on the continent. You've been through many things together, grown together, and made promises for the future. You've formed a bond by dedicating yourselves to each other. You can have more confidence in yourself.
-Still... I... still don't like it... h-hic... I really don't want to... please...
-Then how about giving it some time?
-I... I'll do that, then...
Dealing with Jeong Ha-yan is truly something else. They've lived almost as one, and she seems accustomed to herself. Perhaps the time spent with Sera has helped, too.
By calmly talking and expressing what she wants and doesn't want, they can find common ground.
It seems like an easy thing, but if it's about Jeong Ha-yan, it's not an easy task. It feels like she's already halfway through this conversation, flowing like water.
-As you said, it'll come back soon, right? So, let's observe the situation for now and think calmly. There's no need to rush. How about that? Are you feeling a little better?
-Uh... yeah. Thank you, Sora. Then, what should I say to Oppa?
-I'll explain it well to him. If there's any magic-related matter, I can handle it for you... and there's nothing urgent for now.
-I... have to do that too... the work I do with Oppa...
-You mean managing the continent? I'll explain that well too, Jeong Ha-yan. So don't worry. You are the Magic God, after all. You've been through a lot of difficult and tiring things recently... Yes, I think you're under a lot of stress. Even if I tell you to relax, I know you can't do it easily, but it would be good to rest without any thoughts. No, you should do that.
-Yeah... Sora is right... Recently, I've had a headache and felt frustrated... because of Sera... I wonder if Sera will be alright?
-Yes, Sera will be fine. I'll keep an eye on him. Jeong Ha-yan, focus on yourself. That's how it should be... I'll act as usual and help you.
-Really... Are you sure?
-Yes.
-You won't leave, right?"
-Why would I leave? Even if you get married, I'll stay with you.
-Really, really, you won't leave, right?
-Yes. I won't leave.
She has her traumas, sure.
- The Contract of Magic. If Sora leaves me..., will she... explode or burst into flames?
'Damn. It's a good thing I didn't go in first. Thank you, Han Sora.'
-What? D-Do I really have to do that?
-It's a contract magic. Then I can be at ease. I can't do it, so... Can Sora do it?
-Ah...
-Will you do it like that? Can you do it like that?
Han Sora nods unconsciously, and at the same time...
"Vice Guild Master."
"Huh... Hyejin... What's going on here?"
The sight of a friend I hadn't seen in a long time comes into view.
"There have been abnormal monsters appearing in the capital."
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YAY, this chapter was super easy to translate. I actually enjoyed it.
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