Life is unpredictable that is my realization after how many times of seeing her, but was not able to talk to her and tell her what I feel for her. I was on my way to the library, my usual routine when I'm here at the academy, when I saw her on my favorite spot.

'It is really her.'

When I'm about to approach her, a teacher popped out of nowhere and dragged me along to help her and become her errand boy. After I have done running the teacher's errand boy, I came back to the library to take a rest because that's the only peaceful place I've known.

'I really hate them.'

On my way, again, to the library I saw her on the soccer field alone. I thought that would be my chance to approach her, but somebody ruined it. That somebody was another teacher who requested to transfer the pile of boxes from the faculty room to the storage room.

'I'm not really an active person, but I'm forced to be because of my scholarship.'

I'm not a popular guy, just like my cousin. I will talk to you if someone wants to talk to me. I'm just your typical nerd, an average guy after all; there's nothing special about me. When I arrived at my usual spot in the library, I saw someone who was peacefully sleeping.

'Should I ignore her? But that was my favorite spot.'

I was about to take a single step when she turned her head in my direction and I saw her face. I take off my glasses and wipe them to see if my vision didn't betray me. I wear it again, and there's no mistake because that was her. Is this my reward for being a hard worker?

I looked around to see if there are other people here, but it's so quiet, and they are not fond of the library. I tiptoed to approach her, not daring to make a noise, or I would be busted. I stopped when I was in front of her, and I kneeled down to see her face. She is beautiful, just like a goddess.

I looked at her, and I remembered that I always called her my Binibini, as if she were mine. A sudden hit from reality that she doesn't know me or my existence.

'What a sad life.'

I can't ask my cousin, Zefron, about her because I know he will tease me all day long until he's done. That's why I need to keep my mouth shut to avoid that kind of situation.

"Hmm…"

I heard her groaning, and I almost forgot that she was here. I scratched my head when I realized I was staring at her beautiful face. I felt relieved when I saw her sleeping. It will be embarrassing that I stared at her when she was sleeping; she will think that I am weird, or worse, a pervert.

I decided to sit on the opposite side, and I took off my glasses. Actually my vision is okay. It just happened that I like to wear it. I can say that this is part of my style, and that's all. I put my glasses beside me and fixed my hair.

I looked at her again, and she was still sleeping. I hope that she opened her eyes and talked to me. I guess she is tired just like me. Even though we're on the same campus, it's hard to find her. It's like she is hiding somewhere. I lean my back on the bookshelves, I suddenly remember the first time I saw her.

I think that was in 7th grade on the opening remarks. She's the one who aced the entrance exam. I still get the full scholarship despite being in second place, and I'm thankful for that. After all, Crane Academy is a prestigious one, and many people want to be students at it. That will be the explanation that this is the place for rich people, unlike me.

"Congratulations on being in the second place, bro." I turn my head to my cousin, Zefron.

"Thanks, bro. I sacrifice my good night's sleep for this hellish entrance exam." I said while massaging my temple to lessened the pain.

He put his arms around my shoulder and said, "Dad told you that he would take care of it. All you have to do is to tutor me, your cousin."

I slapped his hands, shook my head, and responded, "You're not a kid anymore, and I told you before that I'm not going to tutor you. You didn't even appreciate my efforts, so no."

After that, I walked away, and I heard him shouting my name. I just gave him a wave and didn't mind. Since I am part of the rankings in schools, I heard that I will sit in the first row together with the others. I saw my seat that has my name on it, and I looked at the first place name.

"Verena Nymeria Vantecord." I read it and commented, "What a cool name."

"Thank you."

I flinched and turned my head immediately when I heard someone's voice. When I saw who it was, I got starstruck and mesmerized by her beauty. This is the first time I've seen someone with the features of a goddess.

She's tall but not taller than me. I'm 5'9 while she is 5'7. She has white porcelain skin, a foxy eye shape, and her eyes are ice blue. The light hits her, and it shines in her eyes more. She has small face and a perfect nose shape, with pinkish heart-shaped lips.

"Can I sit down now?"

I almost bit my tongue when I heard her talk again to me, "I'm sorry. Yeah, you can sit now."

She didn't say anything and sat down beside my seat. I bit my lower lip to avoid making noise and not to embarrass myself. I hold my nose bridge and take a deep breath before sitting down.

'Dude, what's wrong with you? You are staring at her like that was your first time seeing a girl. That's so embarrassing!'

I keep talking to my inner thoughts and ranting like a madman while secretly stealing glances at her. Well, that's true because she's really beautiful and gorgeous.

Let's try to calm down and act like nothing happened. The orientation begins until the speaker calls the name of the girl beside me for to give the opening remarks. Perks of being top one in the entrance exam.

"Let's give her a round of applause for Verena Nymeria Vantecord, who aced the entrance exam. She will give us the opening remarks."

The speaker gave her the microphone, and it's her time to talk. But she remains in the place; all of us are waiting for her to talk. The teachers and even the dean are confused until she taps the microphone.

"I didn't prepare anything; that's why. Study hard and enjoy. Thank you." She bowed a little before excusing herself and left us dumbfounded.

I almost let out a laugh if I didn't hold it; that's so funny and cool at the same time. I can't help but smile while biting my lips to suppress my laughter. I looked at the name on her seat beside me.

"From now on, I will call her Binibini." She's cool.

From that moment on, I fell in love with her. I know it's so random, but that's real. She's been living for free in my mind and didn't bother to leave. She's really a hard one to find, though, and I can't see her for too long. She's like a ghost; she pops out everywhere then disappears after I look away for a second.

"I don't know if you remember me, but I'm happy to see you again." I smiled when I said those words.

She's sleeping, and I bet she can't hear me.

"I guess heaven's pity me and heard my wishes to see you. I wish that I could talk to you again and confess to you. But here I am talking to a sleeping person because I know that I can't say a single word in person. Funny, right?" I laughed and continued, "It's been 3 years. I followed you secretly, chasing you, and stalking you. I really like you."

I looked at my watch on my left wrist, and it's almost lunch break. I didn't get to attend my classes because I was out of my mind and staring at her. I stood up, wiping the dusk off my pants. I grabbed my glasses and wore them, and to my surprise, I almost tripped because I got scared when I saw her awake! I looked at her again and my heart almost dropped when she stared at me.

'Wait, so she heard me?'

"Why are you talking to a sleeping person?" She tilts her head in confusion.

I gulped and stared at her, "D-did you h-hear that?" I stutter.

"Yeah, from the start you talk to the 'sleeping person'."

My eyes open wide when I hear it from her. My knees are starting to feel weak, and I sit on the floor while looking at her.

'What will she think about me now? Creepy? Pervert? I even told her that I stalk her, but that's only when we are in school. It's still the same thing! Dumbass! It's so embarrassing!'

"Why?"

I stopped cursing myself when I heard what she said.

"You mean why I do like you?"

She nodded and I respond, "Well, I really don't know. What I remember is that I have been attracted to you since the opening remarks. But, after three years of following you and chasing you, you've been in my mind."

My mouth keeps on talking because I'm panicking.

"I always keep checking every single day to catch a glimpse of you. It really made my day and keeps me fully charged. Cheesy, right? What can I do? I had never been interested in girls because I had my priorities. When I saw you, I broke my own rules." I looked at her, and I bumped my head against the bookshelves behind me.

I'm busy talking about my feelings that I didn't notice that she's approached me. I startled when I saw her face in front of me, one meter away from me. She's the cause of my death because of that.

'She is so close.'

"Then you should wake me up and then confess. It's rude to talk while the other person is sleeping."

"But... you look more tired than I am. I can confess many times, but I can't wake you up just because I want to confess. Your health is more important than my confession."

Binibini is not like the other girls and she's hard to read because of her stiff expression and gloomy atmosphere. She's quiet and always zoning out every time I see her with her circle of friends. She's like she's always in our world. That's the one reason I always check on her.

I don't know how long that passed because we were just staring at each other. Her eyes are so beautiful, they hypnotize me without doing anything. It's like she's trying to search deep within. My heart beats faster, and it's getting loud.

'Calm down! She might hear us! Are you going to keep me embarrassed in front of my crush?'

"What do you want now that you confessed?" she asks. "I want to know."

I was taken aback by her question. What do I want? Well, I just confessed to her after she asked me that kind of question. If my interpretation is correct, then...

'Do I really have the chance to be with her?'

I close the gap between us for an inch, and I seriously ask her, "If you allow me... Can I court you?"

I heard my own heart beat because of the nervousness after I said that. What if my interpretation is not about what she meant? Should I jump out of the building for being shameless?

"Ahm…"

She cut me off before I could take back what I said.

"Okay."

'Did I hear her right? Did she mean that I am here as a suitor from now on?'

The lips on my corner lift, and I can picture myself smiling like a clown now. So, what? I am beyond happy. I leaned on the bookshelves after the relief, and I am proud of myself.

"Thank you." I said while looking at her.