Used to hang by a thread . The thread is now completely broken , or atleast in my opinion. Now I'm just falling , but I've been falling for too long . Will I ever land ? When will I land ? or am I supposed to wait on someone to catch me ? Deep inside I have a doubt in that . Nobody ever catches one in life unless you fall while landing and get hurt . Maybe we always just meant to save ourselves all the time . But no , I have to land , I have to land safely because even though nobody catches me or whatever the scenario is ... I have people in my life who doesn't know the truth , they depend on me to catch them while they falling and I cannot disappoint . I'll catch them even while I'm falling . They cannot get hurt , I'll catch them before their feet even hits the ground because that's how precious they are to me . I try to get rid of the mindset of myself failing to catch them . I think a try is good enough to save someone . I know what falling feels like ...I know what it feels like to overthink whether or not you'll land and get hurtš , land and be completely safe² or have someone catch you before you land and gently put you down³ . I want to catch my loved ones before they land , whether I know they'll be safe or not , atleast when I catch them I'll fulfill their expectations and I won't feel as useless to myself . There's no excuse in this , I cannot give up , I need to be strong because I have people depending on me to catch them . I just hope I'm not too late , because if ever I am I won't forgive myself . I'll land and not feel a thing when I get hurt . It would be the least of my worries. Time...... positive and negative . I just need time . How can one get time when time is timeless . Maybe God has me on that one .
#Holding on