*I don't know why, but if I must become like that overdeveloped, crowned pig I saw during the tutorial to win, so be it. *
His thirst for freedom and victory had always been more important than any near-absent self-esteem.
However, now the other side of the scale weighed even more because of the probable psychological damage he would have really suffered had he decided to continue experimenting with ways to beat the whole system altogether.
*I don't want to see her blood again. *
His thoughts surprised him as he sighed blatantly.
*How stupid can I be not to want to see suffering the person that stabbed me to death…? *
Even though his cold, logical side told him that, at the same time, he thought that something didn't seem natural in the previous trial of the simulation.
*Assuming this simulation to be realistic, why would my future murderer try to protect me, first with her words, and then die while waiting for my help?
