Where do I begin ? A person who lived so little has so much to say because life has taught her so much at a very young age . She's an old soul with a young and youthful heart . She lives in confusion at times but at the end she figures it out . She's lived in books more than she's lived anywhere else . She takes vacations in books . This world is too noisy for her ,so she made it her deal to become best friend's with music . Music is the closest to her heart and protects her from the noises that she constantly hears . It's the same thing's over and over and she's so tired of it all . She just wants to grow older because she thinks by then she would have collected all the tools in order for her to fix each and everyone's damages . But she doesn't realise that everyone else is damaging her too ...or maybe she does but shes pretty good at avoiding herself so that others can be comforted . It sucks because she wants to get rid of that quality but shes already used to it . Putting others above her is what shes done all her life and maybe thats why shes always suffering . She's extremely exhausted , but not the type of exhaustion that sleeping can fix . She tried to get rid of it , but after sleeping she still feels tired . She's tired of lies , empty promises , fighting to survive and sometimes she's tired of keeping herself motivated . People have always tried to clip her wings since she was young and she often wonders why .... She has nothing at all , her life isn't even that interesting because if she could she would swap lives with anyone except herself . But people are never content with themselves and even though she had nothing to even offer herself ...they still picked on her as if she was walking around with a million dollars . She never understood this . Its difficult to understand because it came from people who was supposed to be her biggest support system . People who's supposed to cheer for her , but no...maybe people forgot how to be people . Maybe she is the million dollars because even though they tried to break down her walls many times , she rebuild it over and over again . She did it broke , tired ,injured ...but she did it anyway because shes not one to give up easily . Shes iridescent . She fell more times than she could count on one hand but each time she falls she gets up . She learns to stand tall and start again . There were countless times where she just wants to throw in the towel and give up , but she already came so far and she believes going back will take longer than moving forward . So with bruises, she moves forward because its the only sensible thing to do . Her life is on repeat . She keeps herself sane with the little things in life . Reading books and often getting lost in them , writing books ,listening to music , going to church , going to school , taking care of her little family and sometimes when her social battery has some power left she'll enjoy some online games with two of her friends . The oceans and skies keep her going . She resonates with the characteristics of the moon , because she's gone through so many phases and a moon is only a quarter or half because its transforming or working on becoming full. She allows the stars to show her why darkness is necessary , because its the only way shes allowed to shine at the end she guesses ,to be a shooting star thats out of reach for everyone else . People who don't understand her often asks why she creates so much trouble for herself ...but gosh . She laughs instead because they just don't understand. What human on earth would want to create trouble for themselves ? She wishes she can chase trouble down the road , maybe throw trouble in a wishing well and wish for it to never come back . She motivates others and wants the best for them . She motivates herself and shes not too sure whether she believes the words of wisdom she speaks to her soul or not. But she tricks her brain into believing that she believes it just so she can have the strength to move forward . Shes so busy helping herself get lost in music ,words ,books ....much more that she forgets that she shouldn't lose herself . So she finds herself just in time everytime . Those beautiful brown eyes of hers are much deeper than what it looks , because it holds so many stories untold . She stitches her torn wings back everytime because shes stubborn ,she won't allow the wishes of others to ruin what shes worked on . She's tough even though its tiring because she knows that all the stitching in those wings will one day make an aesthetically pleasing pattern when she raises them to fly . She wants to start over in a new place , with a new identity and new dreams , with happiness and new people . But she's afraid to let anyone else into her life because shes used to people leaving ,but her door is always wide open , for them to enter and for them to see themselves out of it because running after people is something that she's done with . She promised herself to let people go because the real ones will stay . Shes her own support system because shes learnt that the hard way . She knows shes not weak , maybe just a little weary but broken crayons still color right ? so she'll continue colouring her future . Shes getting impatient because she knows just how short life is , the past few months showed her this . But she's working on it ...and if its too late she'll still have a beautiful life ,even better that what her original plan is . She lives in a house but she wants to live in a home . There's a huge difference in things people don't usually take note of . She doesn't care about what people think or say anymore . She's had enough . They might find the new her weird but she's totally fine with that as well . Why is it that when you don't allow people to treat you like garbage anymore they suddenly put the blame on you ? She had to learn everything the hard way but believe her when she promises to break all the generational curses . She refuses to lay under the concrete walls that others have build with materials that weren't of the best quality because they chose quantity over quality . She will , with no doubt use all her strength to lift those walls and built something better . She won't become bitter because of other people , she'll show them better . She doesn't play the same cards they play , she remains humble because stooping to their level of lowness is not on her agenda . She's working on herself, for herself ,by herself and whoever is too immature to witness and accept that is more than welcome to leave . Maybe there's power in being alone . Barking dogs are too busy barking to bite . So she ignores the dogs and focuses on her wings so she can fly with confidence and know that she did it all by herself . She craves independence . Is she a strong woman indeed ? I'm sure she is , but she's yet to see just how strong she can get . She'll do it differently though , while being down to earth and humble because what's given to people can also be taken . She's looking forward to reap the fruits of her labour , to enjoy it with the right people this time . Wait for her to pop off and don't be too surprised . She's busy setting the highest standards of all existing standards. She is the standard . She has responsibilities , so many but shes mature and wise enough to handle it all .
{"Shout out to all the strong women and men out there . We see you , we notice. Hard work always pays off . Remember to clap for yourself if nobody's clapping because haters are too busy hating but they'll eventually give up. Be your biggest cheerleader and never give up because nobody's weak . Remember your success shouldn't be measured with ANYONE ELSES measuring instruments . Let them talk , while you practice your actions because actions speak louder than words. You so near to an amazing life that you will look forward to waking up to . There's beauty in pain . And when that day finally comes don't forget to pamper yourself ... dont forget about me though 😁😃😎😇 Remember you're beautiful ,beautifully created in the image of God .
#YOU ARE RARE AND RARE IS THE BEST THING TO BE . KEEP SHINING GOLDEN HEARTS 💛💖🫂💐"}