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"Just as fast you fall asleep, I fell in love...
I finally realized....
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It was him all along, it was truly him...But he would never be mine...
I hoped it could have lasted longer...
I hoped wrong....
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"Get some sleep as well" I whispered again, but I guess she didn't hear, either way it didn't changed anything, I was dying and I knew it...
Slowly I could feel my legs slowly moving away, it was shaky, but I tried holding myself, I tried preventing it from falling, as I kept on climbing the stairs that looked like a thousand, before I finally disappeared, before I finally did faded away into thin air...
Slowly I could feel my shaky hands locking the room shut, as I could feel it immediately flowing down my cheeks...
It was there yet again...
No!, not again, I mumbled as I confusedly tried wiping it away, but still it kept on raining down my cheeks and I just couldn't stop it.
I just couldn't....
"What am I doing?" I whispered, as I kept on staring at my stressed reflection through the mirror...
I looked like a trash, but there was nothing I could do about this shit, as I kept on watching as my eyes rain down tears, but all I could do was keep on wiping the tears away, as I splattered water to my face one last time...
"What the hell is wrong with you" I yelled madly at my reflection, as the tears kept on falling yet again, but I just fucking couldn't stop it this time...
I was in no control anymore, I was running mad...
"Why?" I yelled out again, as I looked away from my horrible reflection, only to place my face on my palms the second after, as I finally let go, letting out all the sorrow in my twisted heart...
"BOOM!....That was all I could hear, as my confused eyes slowly drifted up away from my wet palms, as my heart grew caution immediately...
My heart kept on beating fast, once again
Quickly I felt my fingers moving towards the silver shelf, as it immediately got a grip of my little sharp knife, as I stared at my fearful reflection one last time, before immediately rushing out of the bathroom, as my eyes slowly drifted to the windows, where the nosie came from...
Yet again my legs kept on failing me, as I could feel my shaky hands slowly letting go of the pathetic knife, as my eyes quickly ran straight to his...
It was him, it was actually him, as my mouth slowly grew a gap...
He was here and he was standing right in front of me, all this words rang into my beating heart as I tried speaking, but no words came out...
There was nothing to say yet again, as my head slowly grew dumber with every passing minute. All I could do was stand still, hoping my legs don't fail me now...
His blonde hair shone bright through the moonlight, as his ocean eyes kept on piercing deep into mine...
There was nothing at all, there was complete silent between us, as I kept on watching him come close to me, as I kept on trying to prevent my heart from exploding right out of my chest...
"Wh..at.. I try to speak, but he didn't let me, he didn't give me a chance, as he drew me closer to him, staring into my soul, as I could feel a teardrop slowly falling off my swollen eyelids...
My heart kept on beating, as all he did was kept on bringing me close, yet I didn't move away one inch, I don't want to, no I really don't..
His eyes stares into my soul, as his hands slowly lifted up to my swollen eyelids, as he wiped the tears away, before placing a soft kiss right on them...
He moved a little bit backwards letting go, as my shaky eyes kept on staring into his...
His lips curved a little smile, as he brought me closer yet again, placing his lips right on my forehead, before staring back into my eyes, as I could feel my heartbeat doubling up two more times..
I don't want to feel this, I don't want to fucking do, but my damn heart won't just let me be, as I kept on staring into his bright eyes...
Slowly I could see his lips slowly parting away, as he opens his mouth to speak...
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"If you leave me, I'd die"...
He whispered, as my shaky eyes kept on watching his scream feelings that kept on making my heart beat more and more, as I tried looking away, but still just couldn't..
Still my heart kept on beating and I just couldn't stop it, not one bit, not at all.
"Am in love with you" His voice echoed out yet again, as I could feel my heart slowly tearing into piece...
You can't love him back, even if you want to, my mind reminded me yet again of that damn fact, as I could feel my heart sinking, as my eyes slowly drifting away...
"Please stop" I whispered silently, as I tried suppressing the tears with my hands, before slowly turning around back to look at him, but he was gone...
There was absolutely no one here, as I could feel my heart sinking...
The windows was still opened wide, as I looked closely, as my heart kept on sinking me into my misery yet again...
No one ever did came here, I finally realized, as I could feel my weak legs finally failing me, falling right on the floor, as my heart kept on racing...
I am afraid... I am losing my sanity and I know it too well, my fearful heart spat out, as I could feel my vision getting blurrier by the second...
My head did me no favor, as it kept on spinning with only one thought pounding hardly on it, as I could feel the tear drop raining down my cheeks....
"I love him" My heart whispered fearfully to me, as I could feel my blurry eyes slowly closing....