I heard about how Father called Marquess and asked him to take Vivian in as a knight under the name of in return for giving him 3 Mineral Mine of North and Jade Plaque. And for some reason, the memories of my past life came to mind.
It was when I was 19 years old and was seeing Atticus secretly but things reached to father's ear.
'' Father, You wanted to meet me?'' I sat across from Father who looked cold as usual.
'' I heard you are seeing the Second Prince. Is that true?'' He asked me. I was shocked hearing that from his mouth. I gulped down the lump in my throat. Should I lie or be honest? '' It's great if you are seeing the Second Prince, make sure he doesn't come after Vivian.'' He said. '' Huh! What do you mean?'' I asked him confused. Father looked into my eyes and honestly speaking, he looked frightening.
'' Second Prince has been coming after Vivian for a long time. So, if you are actually in a relationship with him, Make Sure he doesn't bother Vivian anymore. I don't want Vivian getting involved with that crazy Second Prince.'' He said.
That time I thought about something if he doesn't want Vivian to get close to Atticus then why he is so calm about me being in that relationship with Atticus? Maybe he is considerate because he knows how much Atticus means to him and maybe in future he will support Atticus to become Emperor. But he never supported Atticus. I did resent him for some time for not supporting Atticus for some time which didn't last long. After a while of Atticus's crowning Atticus started going after Vivian again ignoring me and even then he tried his best to stop Atticus despite being at the frontline, I wondered why he never stopped me when I was getting close to Atticus.
'' Tia,'' I heard Vivian calling me. I snapped back from reality. I saw Vivian smiling brightly. '' I can be a knight finally Tia, free from Atticus's. And that's all thanks to you,'' She said happily. I clenched my hands tightly. I always knew father loved Vivian more but to think for her he is giving up on the 3 mineral mines and Jade Plaque, I felt unfaired. So, he was always capable of doing this for her but never bothered to warn me about Atticus when he was clearly aware of his intention. Would things be different if he warned me? Would I have a different ending?
'' Are you happy for me, Tia?'' She asked me. Am I happy for her? I guess, I am happy for her but at the same time,
I Am Not Happy For You.
'' Of course, I am sister. You can walk your dream path finally. I hope you the best.'' I smiled, which wasn't sincere. I felt Sebastian's gaze on me. I turned my head to meet his serious eyes staring at me. Did he notice my fake smile? He probably didn't after all, none ever could do that, nor in past or in present.
The day went away in the blink of an eye and Vivian was also gone with Marquess Erars and Sebastian. Valmud cried while saying goodbye to Vivia, Waren gave Vivian his favorite Sword, and Father kissed her forehead. Vivian wished me and thanked me before going. And it was nighttime already.
I was looking at the night sky which looked clearer than ever to me. Moon was shining brightly making it look romantic but was it romantic? Maybe to others but not to me.
'' Isn't the moon and I the same? Both of us look so lonely even though we are surrounded by stars.'' I said to myself, '' Both of us have scars as a part of our identity but there is one difference. Many adore the scars of the moon while none seem to care about mine. Dear God, I feel like, I was wrong to think this time can be different.'' Tears started flowing from my eyes. I wiped them off and facepalm myself.
'' No, I won't cry or be sad, so what if there is none to say my scars are beautiful, I can adore my own scars. The reason why I am back is to make Izaak the Emperor, punish those who did wrong to me and,'' I smiled and hugged myself,
'' To Love And Live For Myself.''