I was startled when I heard what he had said. I honestly didn't know how much he needed to be in my head until he wasn't allowed in it anymore. But then again, I guess it made sense. No one could be completely strong all of the time, and even the toughest man needed reassurance sometimes.
Hell, I licked them when I needed my own reassurance that they were mine, and let's face it, that is high on both the weird and the ick scale.
So maybe having a constant dialogue of my thoughts was what kept Wang Chao grounded and reassured about his place in our group. And more important, his place with me.
I was so tempted to tell him that I would not let him back in until he told me what was going on, but that felt dirty, almost like I was blackmailing him where I wouldn't give him what he desperately needed until I got what I wanted in return first.
