"Why, why *sniff* is it always me, s*hic*should I just fucking end it. Help, let me just kill you, it'll be better and 'we'll' be free"
Standing at the edge of the roof, the wind blowing recklessly, whistling as if encouraging him.
He almost took a step but thinking about it and doing it are two separate things.
"Argh *fucking hell why why won't I do it, no no I hate it, 'we' hate me"
He chuckled to himself as he continues "'we' dreamt of this and laughed 'we' were jealous of those who could be free *sigh* I'm such a hypocrite *hic*".
As he was about to get up and attempt again the door opens and a boy looking 16 or 17 ran to him quickly catching him and calling his name "Eli! Eli!! What the hell do you think you're doing, are you out of your f****** mind ".
Gordon extremely angry at his best friend couldn't even imagine what would have happened if he had not being there on time.
"Sure everyone and as their ups and down but seriously like that do you really need to do this I honestly expected after so many years you would have changed."
"Eli honestly I did not really expect it from you , you need to listen to me, this *coughs* this is going to far."
"Everything with you it's not it's not it's unnecessary, this pity party. You know get out there Eli, make some memories and forget the past"
"Looking at Gordon who was standing at 5'9 pretty tall for a 16 year old, dark skinned, hair braided in cornrows, looks like a typical or rather stereotypical image of a basketball black kid.
Although he lived with them since the incident that happened that night. Gordon somhow has the illusions of them being brothers and even best friend.
"N**** get the f*** what the f*** are you touching me like n****, honesty gordon you are getting to attached when you're really not My relative you have yours"
"But they took away everything form me, every single thing. You know it is funny sometimes, I wish you could be my shoes then rather I wish that nobody has to go thru this shit, the voices is in my head, I really wonder am I one of the voices or the voice is actually me *chuckles*, I really lost myself, no to talk about the nightmare"
Gordon unsure of what he should do froze there, should he continue talking and go through this hundred millionth time of persuasion.
Perhaps sensing his #Homie jumbled thoughts, Elisha just said "Gordon leave I need to be alone".
Gordon tried to speak but couldn't find a word to say as the rain started falling unannounced and rather heavily too, he just sighed and said " I'll be going to class see you later" he left and closed the door .
Not knowing what he was thinking Eli walked to the edge of the roof or more like mind blank he wasn't thinking of anything, and did not want to think of anything, as he took the first step, he took the second,then the third.
--He JUMPED--
What was he feeling?, What was he thinking.
Tears, regrets.
Just a *'Happy Grieve'* as a smile crept onto his lips, and tears escaped his eyes.
Yes he was finally free.
Maybe people would call him a coward or pity him but he didn't care anymore
*Splat*
--He DIED--
Or so he thought