TORSON POV
You must have realized that I do not talk to you anymore. Ever since that day. The day I sent you both to your graves. I don't talk about it that much. It makes me feel better that I don't think about it. Even though I don't , the thought still haunts me. You guys still annoy me even when you are dead.
Sometimes I wonder how my life would be if I actually listened to your orders. You guys would still be suffering all day servicing this place. That's the only thing that helps with this guilt. The fact that you finally can rest in peace after having to suffer for so long and still pulling off a smile to convince me that everything is alright.
You folks never opened much to me to be honest. I never tried to open up to you guys either. I guess it couldn't be helped. What I love about you guys is that you are such great actors. How do you manage to fool yourselves into thinking everything is fine? There are so many questions that I have. How this all started. I guess my questions will never be answered.
I found a very interesting friend who might know more than what everyone should know. I'm planning on convincing her to spill the beans. I think it's destiny that I met her. She's the only hope I have right now. The only chance to be free. Come to think of it. Is death the only way to be truly free? Like really. If you think about it. Death is the only definite thing that ends all suffering. You finally stop being bound to the rules of society. The rules of the world. Having someone else's beliefs implanted into you before you can even make a decision. Is death the only way out? Are we already doomed as soon as we are born? I can be very silly sometimes though. No wonder you called me crazy. Anyways I hope you guys landed safely wherever you are. I really miss you. I want to die in order to see you but you guys won't be happy about that probably. Also, I'm sorry for being a dumb child. I shouldn't have gone to the castle without your consent. Maybe things won't change. Maybe we would be at home right now enjoying family time.
The fact that we could be at home happy together haunts me till this day. Dad probably would've said I'm crazy if he heard me saying this. Tried to escape this place many times but that did not go well so I chose not to do that again.
Anyways I think I spent too much time with you guys. I guess I will have to visit you some other time or else they might think I escaped. Take care, mom and dad. Love you.