Jenny felt nauseous and tired at same time, she glanced at the wall clock hung just above her head, it's was already past 6pm and it's obviously getting late. Dr Anthony walked in .
"Am sorry to have kept you waiting Jenny, so shall we begin then".
He said adjusting his spectacles. Jenny stood up about to go.
" I'll just come back tomorrow, it's already getting late sir". Dr Anthony stopped her.
"Wait don't tell me you came all the way for nothing,at least let's have a little chat,i promise to drop you off after we're done, okay".
Jenny gave in eventually but still had that uneasy feeling lingering in her heart. After talking for a little while, it's was finally time to go, they headed towards the parking lot, Jenny walked closely behind him,the parking lot was unusually quite and it disturbed her. By the time they hit the road it was few minutes past 7. Silence was maintained for a while not until Dr Anthony spoke.
"what do you think about going on a coffee date with me". He eyes firmly fixed on the road. Jenny almost choked on her saliva but she managed to get her acts together and ignored him completely.
"I know a nice place with beautiful ambiance and delightful coffee,let me know what your thoughts are Jenny "
This time his gaze fell on her, Jenny felt his eyes ravaging her whole body, she didn't like it at all.
"It's a nice idea sir but am sorry to say that am literally not available these days, school stuff,you know, eating up all of my free time".
This unwanted ride is definitely taking too long and Jenny wished earnestly for it to stop Sooner than later."It's alright, there's is always time for everything, maybe this is not the right time".
〰️ JENNY 〰️
I was so relieved when I alighted from the car,i felt alive as soon as the cool breeze brushed through my skin, though the weather is freezing cold tonight, all I could sense was a burning sensation inside my body but thankfully it didn't last.I sighted my mum at the sitting room, watching her favourite tv show, she's not easily distracted whenever l this particular show pops up on the tv. I decided to seize the opportunity to get to my room without being noticed."Where are you coming from"?. Was what I heard,i turned towards her but she wasn't even looking at me, how the hell did she know. I didn't even make a single sound when I came in and the tv was so loud."I went to see Dr Anthony Mavis". I said briefly. she motioned with her index finger, which clearly indicated that she wanted me to move closer to where she sat."What did you two discussed about". I can't believe she just asked that question it's not like she cares or something" Nothing". I replied as calmly as possible. Her countenance changed,the wrinkles on her forehead became more visible,i guess the answer i gave wasn't what she wanted to hear.
"What do you mean by that, I deserve to know what is happening in your life, cause it's my right as your mother".
I chuckled to myself inwardly"right" indeed,for some unknown reason,it sounded really weird.
"We didn't get the chance to talk cause he was busy".
She was a bit satisfied with this answer.
"Okay, you better take that therapy thing seriously, cause you're literally loosing it already".
At first i wanted to turn around and walk just away, but what she just said aggravated me.
"You know what Mom,stop acting like you really care, cause you and I both know that you don't give a damn about me or my feelings okay, and regarding what that professor said earlier, you are free to believe him cause i know it's useless trying to defend myself, afterall you always choose to believe strangers more than your own daughter,so i don't care either".
By the time i was done talking,i turned around and left,i couldn't see the look on her face cause my vision was completely blurred with hot tears. What is wrong with my life,who did i ever offend,why am I getting punished more than i deserve,why can't I live a normal life and just be happy and who will provide answers to all my questions. I guess am just unfortunate in life and the thought of living like this for the rest of my life is utterly unbearable, maybe I should end it once and for all. My eyes darted across the room searching for something really sharp,my gaze eventually fell on the center table infront of me and in a bowl filled with all kinds of fruit laid a small kitchen knife,i picked it up with my right hand but it was trembling uncontrollably and my heart was threatening to burst out of my chest. This is the only way, I said to myself , am going to end everything here and right now.