"My parents died today. Or yesterday maybe, I'm not sure. The funeral is going to be in two days. I might visit it, or I just might go to work as usual. Nothing changes about the predetermined teleology all human beings follow within their conception. In the end, it doesn't matter when and how you die, the time you keep on spending to live is meaningless. The question, should I kill myself or have cup of coffee exactly represents that, wherever you die now or in 50 years remains the same in conclusion: Its meaningless."
"This idea comes from a French author, and philosopher that called existence in itself absurd. The idea that the objective meaningless nature of reality crashes against the human consciousness that is able to experience things that actually don't exist creates an absurd synthesis in which the subject is able to experience things that do not correspond with a reality within a reality. It's comparable to believing in a god, while clearly knowing that he doesn't exist."
"The free will that allows us to actually form an individuality might be the cause of suffering, and responsible for the absurd nature of human existence. I mean, if we weren't able to form surreal things within a reality that don't actually exist in reality, then wouldn't we be free of this absurd synthesis that allows the subject to form syntagmas between antinomic concepts?"
"I'm getting too philosophical again, at the end I don't really care about it. I exist, that is all, and I find it nauseating, but I still have the desire to shatter the false realities in which most humans of today's society live."
"I might now come too late to work, I'm always getting too contemplative on the way to work. Today's human society is in a way ironic, they're walking straight, but at the same time in a circle. I'm part of it, while observing it at the same time on my way to work."
Adam Falsumlux is 5 minutes too late, he had expected more, but it doesn't change the fact that he is late. He gets into a conflict with his supervisor who is quite cynical. Adam doesn't mind so much, he is more emotionless, but not completely without feelings.
After a few hours of work he can take a break, he goes to the company roof as usual and smokes a cigarette. His melancholic attitude appears again and again with the same suicidal thoughts.
"Would I get free if I end my existence right now? If the secret of human existence not only lies in staying alive, but to find something to live for, then I want to die now. I don't have a reason, neither am I searching for a reason to live for. For whatever reason I'm feeling like I've lived for an eternity, but that's nonsense, I'm 22 years old. But, I'm still having this feeling that I've lived for too long..."
During his monologue the weather changes simultaneously, a thunderstorm occurs. This thunderstorm ironically fits well with his state of mind. Dark clouds and a melancholic mind, but suddenly a light forms in the sky, this light pierces the dark collection of clouds. A bright light, a flash that breaks through the clouds. The lightning, no, the being that falls like lightning from the sky illuminates it. Adam saw this humanoid falling from heaven like a lightning, breaking through the cluster of thunderclouds.
"What was that? Was that a human? This lightning, no this person almost hit me."
The person that fell from heaven landed on the same roof as Adam. He stands up like nothing happened, and goes straight to Adam, and says:
"Hey, Adam. My name is Francesco Giuseppe Borri, nice to meet you."
"Who are you, and why do you know my name?"
"I'm here to help you, Adam. I know your state of mind. You desire death, don't you?"
"I do, but where do you know it from?"
"It doesn't matter, but I can help you to fulfill your wish. I know that this reality does not allow you to do that, since you are the crown and foundation of the future humanity, the modality of God's monogeny."
"What do you mean by that?"
"What do you think defines reality? Is reality what you see? Is reality something physically independent of the subject, or more simply, independent of your consciousness?"
"I'm not sure, but why does this matter? You're dodging my question!"
"How are you sure that this reality is authentic? Are we in an illusion right now, or is this the actual reality? I guess why don't we try to find out the nature of this reality as well as the reason for this reality and your meaningless suffering?"
"Don't get on my nerves, I couldn't care less about your nonsense. If you excuse me, I need to go to work again."
"Sure, this wont be our last meeting, Adam. You don't have a why to live, but I'll help you out, I'll help you to escape this melancholic state of mind, Adam. I'll help you to cure the cause of it, the very reason for all of this."