I was busy, extremely busy. With shopping, dress fittings, renovation checking, checking of everything, and then those weird rasams that I was forced to do and learn. I didn't even have time to work or watch any kind of latest anime I had been looking out for.
Sleep was the only thing people let me have at the right time those days.
I couldn't meet him for 3 whole weeks before marriage but that was a different thing altogether. It was fine by me because meeting him only caused more panic attacks for me. Choosing what to wear, getting ready, going out when I know work is stacked up, it was all silently hurting me and I was really grumpy, to say the least.
Marrying was not my problem there. My problem was the fact that it took so much time and things to get married. It was almost irritating. Why do I need to get everything ready and look pretty at the same time?! And although I agree that it was our parents who had more of the problems with arranging the entire marriage, I will definitely not say that I was not burdened by any of it. I mean... They had decided on having us sit on a crescent moon for the sangeet... Yeah. I know. It took me so many efforts to be able to get them out of that idea and onto a better looking and feeling set for the sangeet.
" Someone is waiting for you outside, Pari," bhai told me that one morning when I was getting ready for the Mehendi and Sangeet programme... It was the only thing I did not want to hear that one day. The pressure on me to look good that day was really high... I wanted to die!!
" Please not now bhai! I'm busy. Let's talk after I think everything is over!" I replied and my friends started laughing, especially Suha. I don't get that girl anymore.
" Exactly. Bhai! You miss her later!" Suha shouted and I frowned. I was honestly not understanding a single word she just said at that moment and only focused on getting ready because I had to look the best that one day!!
" Whoever it is! Sorry! Not today!" was the only thing I could shout before getting inside the washroom to change and all I heard were laughs from outside as I changed into the dark blue lehenga. I had my fucking wedding in 3 days!! I was... Ok. A lot nervous so maybe, my hand didn't reach my blouse's back and just maybe I didn't have the patience to hook it up myself so I just thought that since so many of my friends were outside, I could get them to just... Hook it up. You know? Nothing different.
" Suha?! You out there?? Hook this up for my na!" I just opened the bathroom door and showed my back while patting over it. It was a more or less low back blouse so I wasn't practically wearing a normal bra under it. Plus, it was really tight enough.
" Be quick! I have lots more to do!! Yaar!" I shouted because no one practically came up to me and hooked it up but I did shut up when I felt something warm at my back. I was so unnecessarily sure that it would be Suha that I did not even look at the person who hooked up my blouse. But, then he cleared his throat
" That is done," I paused when I heard that voice in my room. It was the second time man! Where the hell were my friends?!
" Sohit?" I was in question when I turned around and just stared at him in disbelief. He most definitely did not look comfortable in that situation. I could see it so well in body language. The way he scratched his cheek and just looked at my shoulder. I was so sure about what he was thinking at that moment.
" What are you doing here?" I was in question. Can you blame me? Of course, he was my fiance but still. Why was he there when I got ready? He should've been at the hall by then. I really did not want to get late and my hair was still remaining! Plus putting on the jewelry and so many other things were also remaining. We just met yesterday for the haldi, didn't we?
" Uh..." he was speechless. Great. But I was so damn sure that my eyes were burning into his skin at that point. He only got even more awkward now.
" I just came here to get Pranav. He sent me here and Suha got all the girls out," was that true? Could I trust him? I wanted to. But he would've looked me in the eye and answered that then. Right?
" Oh... Ok... I just need to get ready so-" " I'll just get out of here," he turned around and I internally sighed. I would've really liked it better if I could've come in front of him after getting ready completely and not like that. Was my hair a mess? I bet they were.
" You look pretty by the way," he turned around and complimented me which did make me smile but then, my alarm went off and my face paled
" Thank you but I really have to get ready. God, I'm going to be late," I just started rummaging through things on the dresser and it was when I placed my hand over my hairbrush, I also felt a hand over my shoulder
" Actually both of us will be getting late," I turned around to look at him again, and now, he just had a smile on his face. Why was he so... Happy? I didn't understand at that moment
" You really look very pretty even like this. Just wear, this," he got out a... I think a diamond necklace in his pockets and my eyes widened. Was he really doing that
" Sohit this-" he didn't even listen to me. He just removed it out of the box and put it around my neck, without me even asking him to do anything. God was I embarrassed but then, I looked at us in the mirror that was right in front of my eyes. He was so, content at doing that. He felt so much at ease and happy. I guess that was the only reason he even came there. By the looks of the necklace, it must've definitely been pretty costly. But it looked so gorgeous, and it matched my dress so well. How did he have such good taste in everything?
Some part of me was like, get that thing away from my neck and focus on wearing what I had decided with my aunts 3 nights ago but then, it just looked so pretty on me, and then, when I felt him playing with my hair a little and see him attach a silver hairpin in my hair, one that was in the shape of a butterfly, I just felt so loved. Something fluttered in my heart the moment I saw him looking in the mirror too and smiling so brightly.
" Now you look perfect," he said and I really could not have been happier. I decided at that very moment that I'd go to the functions just like that.
" Thank you," my voice was softer and I bet he liked it
" Great. I'll be outside. Come out when you are ready, "
" Actually," I was so unsure about turning around and looking at him but I felt so confident at the same time too...
" Let's just go now,"
I just hope that he can keep giving me these, small and sweet surprises...