Truth is everybody is going to hurt you:you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
We must learn to suffer what we cannot evade;our life,like the Harmony of the world,is composed of contrary things,and one part is no loss necessary than the other.
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flashback
Mrs lane sat sluggishly on the bed with her laptop on her thighs,she was busy with work.
while on the other hand she disregarded the crying infact on the bed.Then suddenly the bedroom door was stormed open and Louise walked in wearing a wistful look,he spoke lightly."can't you see the child is crying?, what's wrong with you?"
Carly didn't gaze at Louise a bit,she was too sedulously focused on her laptop, murmuring some words to herself.
"You're so heartless Carly,how could you?"he yelled this time.
"Heartless? did you just call me heartless? first of all,I didn't ask for her,i never did,she gave me sore breast already and she cry too much, haven't I tried yet and you can see I'm busy husband! now take your child and scram". Carly said in distaste.
Louise disdained her completely and walked beside the bed he carried Olivia on his chest her head on his shoulder,he stroked her back continuously to stop her from crying."please just a little Carly she might get sick"Louise concluded.
"Why don't you give her your breast! f**king leave me alone already"Carly reciprocated furiously.
"i don't have a breast for crying out loud Carly!!"
"Then stop bothering me,i don't want a saggy breast anyway".she implied her gaze on the laptop.
"She's your child!!"
"Nah FYI it's your child I'm done with all of this".Carly said gathering her documents to leave.
"Okay fine! just give her a little and let me go and buy her baby milk". suggested Louise.
"Over my pretty body Louise".she went ballistic."I never asked for her and she's a mistake".and she exited the room wearing a fury.
end of flashback
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I combed my hair profusely in my room,today is the worst never been better though.
I'm so exhausted.
Then suddenly there was a light knock on the door.
"Come in"I said.
Granny walked in.
"Hi granny ma"I greeted.
"hi baby! how was school today"
"School was argh!! it's a pain in my butt"
Granny ma chuckled lightly,like what was funny!!.
"What's funny?"I asked.
"Nothing! so....did you make any friend yet?"
"No granny but I met Ellison the weird girl today"
"oh really?" granny asked with joy written on her face.
what's that for!! for crying out loud I don't need a pal.
"Are you that excited for me to have a friend?"
"Of course dear you have locked yourself for years what do you expect".granny said then paused and continued."c'mon let's have dinner already dear."
Granny ma went for the exit after which I was done combing my hair and I stared at my reflection for a while.
it's gonna take forever to overcome my fears.
I hate those hurtful days though.
I stood up and went to the kitchen.