There was never really an experience for me when it came to romantic situations. It was always a one-sided thing, I crush on someone sure but that was just admiration and people confess to me but I always find myself rejecting them. It was because I don't know what to do, what to say, and what to feel. That was until we met, my love.
You've shown me feelings and emotions that I thought I wasn't capable of experiencing, I consider myself an expert in languages, especially since nowadays you can just search for definitions and yet, why do I always manage to run out of words when it comes to you? You simply take my breath away and I wouldn't even stop there, you took my heart as well, because frankly I don't even consider it my own anymore since you occupy every single corner and space.
And for that, I am thankful. Thankful is an understatement and so is saying I love you so much because it is much much more than that. I used to be such an immature person not saying I am not now but compared to the past...anyways I used to think love was a game you know? Flirt with people and get them to like you blablabla but now that I have experienced it I don't think you can call it a game anymore if you can't live without the other person. I am serious. I have no idea what you did to get me like this so much but I am not complaining just don't leave me please.
To tell you the truth, I promised myself that I would remain the quiet kid in school but look at me now, I can't even let a lesson pass by without finding myself staring at the love of my life. Although, you don't really look like you are happy to be looking at me at times but still, I enjoy looking at you because it gives me a chance to admire what's mine.
I don't care if all the stuff I'm saying is corny and cheesy, this is what I'm feeling and there is nothing else I can do but to express it to the one who caused me to be this way. Not going to lie I used to be very bitter, I would never miss a chance to call people out for doing cringy stuff with their partners but goddamn look at me now? HWHADSFHASDH
Anyways, I know we fight all the time over little stuff, I don't like fighting but I just get very emotional at times and I am sorry if I have battles in my head that I don't tell you about but please don't worry about that okay? It's just my insecurity acting up. I am in love with you from the bottom of my heart. I usually don't tell people this but I am a crybaby, I know it's not really obvious but aaaaaaaaa you have no idea how much I've cried. Be it tears of joy or just sadness in general.
To this silly little message, I would like to solemnly swear that if I lose you then I wouldn't love another. It ends with you, I don't care if we break up, I want my lover to only be you.
If you are reading this then that means I have published 1 out of my 5 drafts as a reward for you.